Unsent Text Messages - Page 18

The day we met for the first time. Why? What’s the significance?! You’re making me mad!

Does it count as emotional abuse if you are made to feel uncomfortable and unimportant and belittled? Does it count as emotional abuse when they mess up your friendships and your kids friendships? I feel guilty for leaving but guilty for staying and I’m not sure how things will get any better.

Ya Kept poking the bear!

u don’t like the bears fierce reaction.

Despite many warnings u could have left the bear alone.

But no & now ur scared…

I’m lonely. Sure I have plenty of friends and family that love me. I could probably send out a few texts right now and find someone to hang out with tonight. I have plans to hang out with a friend tomorrow: But it’s not that type of lonely…..

I needed to give u that kissy not even a fraction of what I wanted to do with u would be in my bed next to h right now if i had my way

Us rolling together around in ecstasy and

Our passion is igniting tingling only getting stronger more intense I am yours you are mine

Our ****** chemistry always off the charts

We drifted apart.

With all the memories.

Just like a boat disappearing in the middle of the sea.

Strangely…

You are just not relationship material. It's as simple as that. Such a shame, what you could have been.

I stayed and you ran.

Roberta, Debbie, Alexis, or Bobbie?

You're all fake.

Hey gurl…. It makes me feel better when we have our short chats. You make me feel alive again. Thank you hun!

At this point, I don’t care who reaches out first. It feels good to me thats what matters most.

My body still remembers everything even from 3 years ago…I wish it would stop…I need a distraction it’s suppose to be my birthday again soon. You’re long gone but it still remembers everything even now…I hope I can do something to stop it from feeling this way.

You literally take forever to answer anything. Lol I’m very impatient. I’m anxious and excited to speak to you, but I feel I have to hold back. You answered once a couple days ago, frickin finally!! lol

I’ve missed you a lot and I’ve hated not having you in my life. I got tired of the control and anxiety keeping you…

Can i?… fall asleep in your arms? I ****** miss you…

But it feels like our energies are no longer connected… 😪

You literally take forever to answer anything. Lol I’m very impatient. I’m anxious and excited to speak to you, but I feel I have to hold back. You answered once a couple days ago, frickin finally!! lol

I’ve missed you a lot and I’ve hated not having you in my life. I got tired of the control and anxiety keeping you…

thanks for blocking me (again, presumably) instead of just saying something about... literally anything. yes, it bothered me. but you don't seem to realize how easy it would have been to fix whatever i said, did, didn't say, or didn't do that bothered you. and that's why you will never ******* learn. i'm kindof…

But I have to come as someone I'm proud to present..bedroom&all

You forced me Into meeting you in person. After we talked for weeks i tokd u I was still healing from the trauma I just experienced. You blocked me and made me see you or u would never speak to me. I was vulnerable , you took that and used it.

You than forced me into the relation after I said I know it’s not best for…

When you know you know. You feel right at home. I will always love you and it's safe with me. I was the first to hold you without hurting you. You are forever engrained in my heart and bones. You are my safe place. I’ve never been able to exhale until you. You held me as I cried tears of joy from being so safe…

All you have to do is break up with her and I'm yours. There'd be no more wondering who I'm with or who I'm talking to, because you'd always know the answer: you.

This game has gone on long enough. It doesn't seem like our interest in each other is going to just go away on its own. But you can't expect me to wait…

Seven months.

I keep thinking about how much time that actually is.

Seven months since I last had you in my life, and somehow I still have things I want to tell you.

You don’t know me anymore…

I'll never send this, but I needed to say it somewhere.

I have no expectations of you. I never wanted your money and I never saw you as a cash machine. That thought has never crossed my mind. I love you baby. I want you to know that when I say it, it's real, and it comes from my heart. Whenever you've asked me whether…

There’s something about the way you eat that bothers me.

But I’m not gonna wait for you 😭

You like it when I eat it from the back huh?😝

I told you my honest feelings and asked you to step into your full potential and become the beautiful man you were always meant to be. I’ve been met with silence. I will take that as your answer.

Please know I am not hurt or angry. Not at all. I am just a bit sad. I’m going to move forward in my life and focus on…

Imagine you are standing on a carpet. Your lover walks in, and you say "hey, I am not sure what do with this carpet..but I dont like it here, let's roll it up and I'll figure out what to do with it later." Then imagine, they pull the carpet from under you instead, and then they leave, only to never see or talk to them…

Please please I don’t want to forget your voice. I don’t want to forget your smile. I don’t want to forget your laugh.

I forget a lot of things and I absolutely hate it. I hate that my memory is like this. But god you’re the one thing I never want to forget. Please.

Something you should all remember 🤍🙏🏽

Ill never forget

you have audacity to try to say you want everything with us while trying to tell me I cant have certain friends, I cant have certain social platforms, and I have to save money for specific things.

Nah, I shrunk myself long enough.

I get you were worried about the other gender so I stopped being friends with them...but…

I can only say goodbye to air. Nothing gold can stay. It wasn’t my first rodeo It was my last. I think you are making a point now Im disgusted by it Because you really could have just left me alone I think I thought Now I know You were never Who I knew Just a mask With one purpose Painful But accurate.

You said you thought I was starting a fight cause you thought I wanted to go back to A. That wasn't the case. I knew it was coming time when you would need to be going home to her. And I was totally dreading it this time. You know you will always be my #1 choice. Always and forever. I love you still so much but I'm…

You don't get to do this you adolescent not when you knew my wounds not when you made me believe I could trust me not when you lied to me over and over and over and over again and not when you punish me every time for your life your game that you don't play that you obviously made exception because you've been playing…

I finally had the courage to say it: You are the first person I want to share good news with, bad news, funny moments. I tried to send you courage, hoping you’d share the small details with me. I just wanted you to be a part of my life.

But your silence hurts. You said it so politely, but behind every simple text, I…

Yesterday I left you in immense pain. Then I fell apart and didn't sleep all night, and all I could think about was you and what was happening between us. I want you to know that I can't cope with this. That I can't hate you. Because I love you so much. And this morning I returned to you and I look at you again. I…

If you care even just a little bit you would decide to not talk to me right now I am deep in what we call psychosis. I cannot sleep.i am completely broken.

. We cannot have a healthy relationship right now, and our connection is destroying me aside from the drugs. I'm rapidly disintegrating and having more blackouts…

And let me love you anyway.

Always yours love, 💋

You literally told me that I can always reach out to you, yet I still second guess everything. Do you really want* me to just reach out? Or are you just being polite? The signs are almost undeniable but I still second guess every action. Maybe you’re just naturally protective & caring for everyone around you, maybe…

i know that if i was with you, all i would be able to think about is if you’re gonna do to me what you did to —-. if you’d speak about me the way you spoke about her to me. if you meant it when you told her you’d never change. i struggle to see a world with you where i’d be sure i’m the only one. i’m sure about you…

You have a very sweet way with words somedays I think you’re telling the truth. Even if you weren’t, your lies were still my favorite thing about you. My favorite thing to do was believe them. It hurt trusting you. But I did, because I loved you. I wanted to love you and your lies. I want you to lie to me one more…

You just played with me until I broke, then discarded me.

But I could see your soul, beneath all of that, and it was truly beautiful.

So I'll pray that you will heal in this life or maybe in another.

You never deserved what she did to you…