Unsent Text Messages - Page 19

Under a week to go to 25 years wed and there you are chatting to “him” about “his” day. I may have painted a very different picture of who I thought you were all these years, a rose tinted version of my one and only woman I choose to stand beside, but the ugly is really coming to the surface as you share that moment…

I know I already apologized for how I have acted or hurt you but I feel the need to do it again.

I’m sorry for putting so much pressure on you for my emotional wellbeing

I’m sorry I wasn’t on top of my therapy and meds the way I should have been during our relationship

I’m sorry I yelled and said hurtful things to…

but you have to be honest with yourself and know that they have no intention of being honest or objective and they only want to take what you give them, but never give anything back and in the relationships I’m seeking now that’s not anything I want to be a part of, it’s not a relationship. It’s a leach. I want…

I wonder what you did with that, tbh. 🤔🫪

Sometimes

i posted something asking why people's hands get sweaty. i wasn't looking for medical explanations or calling you out, i was just trying to understand um. why your hands get sweaty when you talk to me. i mean i get it now but

Don’t dm me. I’m not your person.

Does everything have to locked behind a phone number. Like its such a pain.

will you please come over and hold me? i'm having a mental health crisis because i just found the mouse i "rescued" dead not far from where i set it loose outside. i should have done better

why are you mad at me that I can move around freely why do you care that I want freedom im not going to start with you because you have kids with another man until we have more kids together and you establish who is your forever person you won’t be able to hold me down and even if we do I’m not sure you can convince…

If you want to know why I don't bother with you anymore, I just got tired.

Tired of..

\- Never being a priority in your life.

\- Getting the cheek when I try to kiss your lips…

hi.

drink some coffee, sing the songs on your morning drive, and stay focused.

have a good day.

My Elhers Danlos Syndrome prevents me from continuing to chase you. I don't wanna roll my ankles. You'll have to meet me half way. Hope you understand 🙏🏻

Why are you still here? You don't hold onto "us" in any regard. The marriage isn't important to you. You hold onto the completed divorce paperwork like it's a security blanket. You spend your evenings on the opposite side of the house. Don't you want a whole space that's yours? Don't you want to be able to live the…

We were just destroying each other further. Maybe it was the wrong thing to do, I don’t know.

I love you and wish the best for you. Truly. I hope you’re reading this.

I’m sorry for everything. Maybe this no contact will help just a little, I truly hope so.

Goodbye.

Hey buddy. What u been into?not much here just living my life and loving every ******* second. How long are u going to keep up the charade? I know that u been ******* her. I've known you for years. I know when you're lying. You get awfully quiet when her name comes up. Just drop the stupid act. It isn't necessary. You…

I’m done chasing you. You haven’t changed. You’re still scared. So I’m not reaching out, I’m not checking on you. I’m moving on. I loved you with everything in me and it still wasn’t enough. Outsiders can influence you more than being with me ever could, so I’m done. I wish you well, but good bye.

The wound you gifted me hasn't healed,

but it will.

Someday.

The way a scar is formed…

you had dreams that I got sucked into when we met. I was going to do anything to make them happen. I gave you everything I could to build that dream I only hope you don't let that dream die. I loved you more than you know I cared more than you know I lived my life doing my best to make you happy but I couldn't in the…

I want to hear your voice again and hear how you’re doing. I have so many questions waiting to be answered by you it feels like. Every time something happens i’m reaching out to you so I can tell you and I’m snapped back to the reality that I lost that with you. I’m wondering what you’re up to when I make plans and go…

I‘m sorry i love you so much and im really sorry i wish i didn‘t lie about something so dumb. I thought you wouldnt care and i thought its really not important but im so sorry I apologize. I know us being together and talking will end soon i can feel it in how you talk with me and how you treat me. But im really sorry…

when my daughter looked up at you and asked, "are you my daddy?" and i got real scared until i realized you had a blue shirt on & then you called me by name and i just looked at you with the most intense confusion. we were right down the street from where they were conceived.

i just have one question:

WHAT THE ****?

I read something today and it hit me pretty hard

Controlling yourself from reaching out to someone you deeply want to talk to is a different type of pain. It takes so much strength to stay distant when every part of you is screaming to break the silence. But what hurts even more is realising that they are doing just…

Its a you problem. I chose to end it because your take advantage of women and pretend to have feelings and emotions but its fake. I don't want anything to do with you that's why you're blocked. You chose to abuse have multiple women that is on you. Im living a great life. Thank God your f gone. Men don't do what you…

Godd it’s so hard to move on from you when so much **** reminds me of you. My job, your sister still talks to my niece, your mom looked me up. My music taste was always so similar to yours. I went to see Malcolm Todd today and all I could think about was you. I don’t even know what steps to take anymore to leave you…

Good morning my friend,

I’m sorry we missed each other this week. I want you to know I’m here for you on the hard days too. Happy to bring ‘take in‘ and let each other vent about life and play a game and chill. I would love for us to be a place where we can breathe together, laugh about the ridiculousness of life…

Why after all this time? Why message someone close to me? I haven't bothered you nor' anyone close to you for months. I was busy having my "50 ways to say goodbye" moment. Either way, sorry for how the person in question responded. I don't control anyone else's actions. Hell, I'm not even that great at controlling my…

I dreamt about you ***** last night…

It’s crazy that after so long I can still remember, even subconsciously, every inch of your body…how you look…how you feel…

It was a nice reminder at least. Needless to say I woke up a happy boy…shame it wasn’t real though

You initiate contact after all these months. And it wasn't just once so it could be claimed as accidental. You specifically reached for me multiple times, even though there's way less complicated and more convenient options to support you. Was it to see if I still care or is it because you still care? Which one is it?

I loved what I felt for you, and I won't be ashamed of it. But I can't keep standing in the same place waiting for something that may never come. So I'll slowly let go; not because you didn't matter, but because I matter too.

What if we didn’t need the next life to meet again?

Take me back to the night we met. I need to tell you every single day you are enough and you are loved.

Raven still loves you.

Only not with me.

I’m not sad, I’ve actually come to terms with it. But the thought you’ve moved on with a person and doing the things we promised each other we’d do. That hurts.

I don’t think either of us planned to leave one another, it just happened to be. When we were so in love, we gave each other hope of a family…

But it doesn’t really feel fine. You say you like me and want to be with me. Yet you don’t look at me that way. You don’t talk to me like I’m any more special than a friend. If I don’t physically touch you in some way, we will go days without ever touching. You want us to move in together but you haven’t said I love…

I just cried because of how much I miss you. Watched a video about how do you know when to stop being friends and date each other. I don’t know too. Hoping you just realise that I am here waiting for you. Just really need you now will save me so much anxiety from life. I really ******* need you. Why does loving you…

I just want to be done with all this.

You don’t even love me. You never did.

Sometimes, I wish I could erase you from my life completely.

I am so tired and exhausted of still loving you after you left me 8 months ago…

I wish I didn't. Its not like our relationship was good torwards the end. But I miss how we were in highschool before we tried long distance. We were so young and happy and full of love. I thought the world of you and I thought nothing could stand in our way. But then long distance came and we grew apart. I still…

Finally. I know I'm late to the party on this. I didn't feel sad at the end. Just thought of you.

Do you still watch it?

if you end up alone after all is said and done I hope you simply enjoy it for a while do everything you want to do exercise paint embroider get another cat. Just be at peace in yourself. I'm working on it for myself and although it's lonely I'm having to actually get to know myself and I don't hate me as much as I…

I walked home alone tonight. Got into an argument with my parents earlier so couldn’t call them. I wish I could call you as I walked again like I used to. But more than that, I wish I was still coming home to you.