Unsent Text Messages - Page 11

It was realistic. You asked me what the matter was and I said I was in my head all day, thinking. You asked “what were you thinking about” I couldn’t tell you in my dream, and I can’t tell you in reality, but I will tell you here.

I was thinking about you. I was distracted thinking about us and everything in between.

“I’ll be there if I can”

I hope so, please do.

I guess no answer is my answer

I dont know what to do. I dont want him to be in trouble but I cant reach out to him cause of the things he said to me. I guess if he ever decides to reach out then I will tell him .

Just know I was ready.

I gotta remember you would never apologize or anything just cruel. I keep hope just because you left me so messed up but ill just end this way. Just know c your the cause of so many hurting and myself the main f one. You did something I'd never think anyone could. I haven't lived since. Trying but nightmares…

I don't like pretending I'm big and strong. I want you to come back. When I feel overwhelmed with life I just wish I had you there to lean on. We weren't even together long. Can you just come back. I looked forward to a future with you just as much as you did.

Hope you are having the best time this weekend. Pet them rays for me.

Heyyy, i miss you… the good morning texts, have a great day beautiful text, after work/late calls. But then I remember when u would forget about me and don’t bother to call or text me. Still have those “what could have been” thoughts time to time but Im proud that I chose myself and stayed firm on my boundaries.

From…

Tyler **** I miss you so ******* bad why are you doing this to me pls talk to me I’m sorry I love you pretty please I’m missing you and I can’t be without you

I'm going to hurt my feelings again. I miss you. Everyday I miss you. I want you in my bed. I want you to hold me. I want to try and do **** right. But I know that's not a thing. I love you still.

i know i've asked before but. please may i speak to you? it's kindof urgent

Sometimes, in the rare moments we’re alone , I come so close to blurting out “I have feelings for you .”

Nights like these I wonder if I ever crossed your mind.

If you ever miss what we had..

If you notice the distance created between the two.

From being talkative every day to sudden answers here and there.. both short and long…

You could have sat anywhere in that room, but you chose to sit right next to me. Why? Does it mean anything? Are you having regrets? Was your love real after all? Or did you just want to wave it in my face that you're not mine anymore, and see me hurting? It's probably the second one, since I tried to call you the…

I put nails on and taking the bus, just trying to have a good night.

I wish you were here.

Your birthday is at the end of October. You lost your mom when you were 16. You like cars like it's oxygen. You have the best laugh I've ever heard. You fit up against me like you're the other half of me. You have the most perfect, unique eyes. Ive never seen eyes that come close to yours. We met when we were kids…

I know u think when we broke up i rushed into something new with her. And now that me and her are done, u think i will rush back into something with u again. But I'm not going to. That shouldn't hurt u tho. It means i care enough about you to not make the same mistakes. I know u get mad when u can't manipulate me and…

to see you tomorrow mami 😘

Ha! Sorry, I couldn’t help myself.

Oh Babe,

Thank you, I appreciate your matching my weirdo energy.

How the hell are we still going…

I find it hard to hate someone in general let alone a person who was apart of everything good & bad throughout years of my life. I know it isn't the same for everyone, but even if I had a million reasons I would still find the few good parts & dwell on them instead because truth be told they saved my life in a lot of…

I find it hard to hate someone in general let alone a person who was apart of everything good & bad throughout years of my life. I know it isn't the same for everyone, but even if I had a million reasons I would still find the few good parts & dwell on them instead because truth be told they saved my life in a lot of…

I'm getting a car!!!!!!!

I don't care, I'm excited.

Moving on up, slowly.

Already told you about it, but I'll send you pictures…

D, I'm just so angry and embarrassed at my anger. Angry that you can still impact my emotional state with your actions. I just wish this was all over, I wish that I never had to interact with you ever again.

You told me that I would wish I was de*d by the end of this, you told me I should just do the world a favor.

You…

I know you probably don’t want me to reach out so it’s safer to spill my thoughts here.

I think about you in the mornings as I make my coffee, when I go on my walks, when I’m doing mundane tasks, when I’m out with friends, all the time. I miss the version of you I created in my head.

I’m sorry I was too clingy and…

And I guess that’s the answer I was looking for all this while. I don’t care how eager you are to know my personal life, or how comfortable you feel to share your personal life, I don’t think our relationship is really built on trust. But if can’t feel comfortable to any of my plans and just make up excuses to avoid…

Unlike you, who would rather us dance in the liminal about the state and future of our relationship, I’m opting out and leaving you.

Not for other people. But because I don’t want to be with YOU, somebody who prefers periods of ghosting to fixing our relationship problems.

I just can’t keep trusting that you’ll change…

Roses are red,

I'm going to bed.

Violets are purple,

When I wake up…

I thought it was going to be us. I want it all, the ring, the white picket fence, the babies. I want to be yours and only yours. I want us to run off into the sunset. The only time I feel like you care is when you're deep inside me. You never tell me how you feel. I ask you questions about things I find online…

D, you annoy the **** out of me sometimes. I'm trying to be friends with you, but you are SO defensive. Deal with your past already. You are way too old to have not proceseed this. Quit resisting counseling and GO before you lose the rest of your friends. Also, go **** yourself. The was no "slap in the face" comment…

To C

I miss you. I miss everything we had. Today is a not so good day. Its our anniversary. Every time i try and talk to you and send a text you're very vague. I sent the last text to you. You opened it and didnt reply. Y? I love you so much it hurts. Im so broken inside. You dont talk to me really anymore. I keep…

I desperately want to send this to you, so you can understand what you did to me. How much you hurt me. If you sat down and told me what was bothering you in the relationship, we could have worked it out. Instead all I got was "its not you its me, im damaged and can't explain it" Sir, you are a grown *** man. How…

My friend told me that you’d been contacting her and her ex, trying to check in, and that they were both wondering what the hell you wanted and why you kept bothering them. And honestly, I’m actually crying right now because I’m just so sorry. I’m so sorry that you go through this, too, whether it’s boredom…

Just to try and get under my skin its pretty pathetic tbh but you and your circle of pos people actually think its affecting me when in reality im perfectly fine and could give a **** less I only reached out to say i was sorry for my wrong doings and i asked how you've been because i genuinely hope your life is going…

reminded me that I've been hanging onto something i fabricated in my head. the feelings were never mutual. I thought that, maybe, there was an unspoken thing between us. That, maybe, at some point in the future it could be something. I thought you were communicating with me through music. Boy, am I dumb. I've been…

Should I move on because you already have, or should I hold on never knowing if you actually cared enough to show change

Not talking to you for months is driving me a bit insane quite frankly, not sure if you didn’t know but Im pretty sure I told you I needed you. And that I wanted you. And that I couldn’t live without you because if I did it would be pointless. And that you’re all that I want in every shape and form in all moments…

Text me you stupud viy

Im deunk and i want you

Rext me tect me cakk me come ti mrb

I want you now

My chest hurts and my stomach is churning How’s your day? Trying to enjoy it I hope. Does your heart hurt and your stomach churn

And you try to ignore it and shut it off?

Me too😔

I'm sorry, but I don't have reciprocal romantic feelings for you. Just genuine friendship. But it's gotten strange.

If you actually had genuine feelings for me well you have a really weird way of showing it. I'm trying to change and changing I am. I need some peace in the day without you lambasting my DMs with…