Unsent Text Messages - Page 30

Now that I've cooled off I find it silly I was this angry. Guess you can bring it out of me lol. I don't need to get rid of you. Nobody really likes you already except for your 3 friends. I just need to make my feelings known. That's literally it.

Sigh, this isn't even a problem anymore. You are already effectively…

Is it really too late for us to talk things through? Or to start talking again with a clean slate?

I’m sorry.

I hope the new house is becoming everything you dreamed it would.

I’ve thought about you probably 90% of my time spent awake since we last talked/saw each other.

I have anxiety thinking about what it would be like to run into you in public, something that is likely eventually given your recent move…

If you want me to, I can wear your face,

Laugh at your jokes, then erase every trace.

Say what you need, play the part that you crave,

Walk into your world like a ghost from the grave…

Please take an objective look back at where you were when you met and the choices you have made for yourself after your breakup.

Are you in the gym? Eating better? Putting yourself first? Taking care of your responsibilities? Did you seek therapy or give up some vices?

If you can answer yes to one or more of the above…

You had nothing to lose by telling me the truth. You’d seen my flaws, my fears and insecurities, my joys and hopes, I let you in, and either you couldn’t or wouldn’t do the same. You still chose to lie, thinking it would somehow be easier than telling the truth, when the truth would have hurt less, when the truth…

Can I call you? I miss feeling safe.

I like posting here about you because it kind of feels like screaming into the void, and that helps a bit, surprisingly. Anyway. My toe hurts a bit and I'm sick again, unsurprisingly. Miss you 😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒😒 Love you take care etc mwah mwah

I've always thought that your gloves looked silly but I was scared to tell you cuz you liked them. Well now I said it. Your gloves look silly

I hope you channel that hatred you have of me into something good. Like getting laid and moving on. I know I am!

Hats off

Not even one bit. Wow!

Is it because you care about me and want what's best for me? Or is it because you've found one or more better alternatives?

Knowing you, now that i know more about you, I think it's the latter.

I hope you never reach out ever again, with your selfish agendas…

i'm so excited for you to see how good i loook.... apparently you can get back down to your normal weight by being sick on antibiotics for 2 months. i dont even look like my residency headshot anymore. my dad said "you don't look like bxxxx anymore" and my PT yelled at me for losing too much weight (unintentionally)…

You told me once that you like horror movies. Idk why that surprised me so much. I told you that I’m always scared and hate watching them alone. My mind is just waaaaay too over-active and every little sound spooks the **** out of me. If we watched one together would you let me hang out after? Like all night? Or would…

Hey Babe,

It’s been a horrible day..

I wanted to tell you all about it, but every time I reach for you it’s like placing my hand on a hot stove. I reach, I snatch my hand back, keep trying other ways to bypass the heat…

Only now the pain is getting worse as my hand is blistered. I’ve stopped reaching.. It’s hurting…

I wonder if I’m ever the reason for your sleepless hours the way you’re often the cause of mine.

You at the end of the day deserve it. You weren't always the kindest nor was I. You wanted a commitment from me desperately that you never gave. I hope you stay happy I hope the excitement you feel with them never fades I hope you never have wandering eyes or regrets. I hope you never let resentments fester. I hope…

The chemistry we had, the conversations, the tension—I know those were real. I know you said you had already given me chances, and that we didn’t match because I was too emotional for you. But sometimes, I can’t help feeling like there are still words left unsaid on your end, like a part of you wanted this to work…

It's been a year. My algorithm has been cleansed from anything involving aviation. But I opened my social media yesterday and yung bumungad sa'kin was that emergency landing incident from Pampanga. I already deleted my account that has the slightest connection to you—kasi alam naman nating di ka na babalik after…

I can't believe you've made me hate you this much, far more than anybody ever that has been in my life. I cannot recall a single good things about us or you in general anymore. You are a plague that I foolishly let into my life.

My life has been made much worse over this, and it just keeps going. I've recovered some…

I was thinking about a text you sent me and for some reason I got the vibe that you’re going to be a super happy guy after you get to know me. I don’t know why. But I was imagining you being this super happy guy which is funny because everything so far makes you seem pretty depressed

If you truly want to fix it make the effort plain and simple. What you have done to me to protect your pride and ego will never be forgotten.When I say I did the work to feel nothing for you. You will see it will be like listening to a stranger with no emotion attachment...

didn’t see you today—mildly infuriating 😭

A

The constant thoughts about him that makes me feel sick and relentless. Constant battle of why he did what he did? It just exhausts me. It has caused me lot of pain and suffering psychologically. When could I move on from this awful thoughts? I was doing better in life before I met him. I was happy. I was content. I…

Its your first international trip, happy for you. Have a great and fun trip.

To be so in love, and so angry at the same time

Good bye for now.

Every time we get to a disagreement, we always say "good bye for now" or "this is done for now" or "this is the way it has to be right now" never "for good" as if we both hope there is a time in the future it will just be good and we wont have to say bye ever again.

It has to be this way, for now, but…

You unblocked me on Facebook for some mysterious reason. You ghosted me. So if someone needs to reach out to the other one, it's you and not me. 🤷

See you whenever i get released

Be honest, are you scared that I'll see you in a different light if you open up to me? News flash, I'll never let my judgement of you get clouded. You're genuinely a good person and I value us... even though it may not seem like it some days. You can let your guard down. What happens between us, stays between us.

Yesterday you told me you don’t know if we can continue doing what we’re doing almost as if you’re scared to lose me entirely. And I think maybe when I said if I did find someone I would end this thing between us. And that I’d tell you and have a conversation with you and not just leave. But I didn’t elaborate…you’ve…

Can you be the one to show up this time? The one to make the journey and put everything on the line. Would you do what I already have before? I miss your presence in my life. But I also know you wouldn’t do it. I don’t know. I just want to hear it come from you. I’ve asked you questions that you’ve never given me…

You said you still loved me but I don’t have as much confidence that you do. It has been three weeks. I won’t contact you - you said you’d contact me. And as every day passes, I think, He may never. This may be it.

I still feel so lost. I stopped going on dates because it became so clear I wouldn’t find what we had and…

you just added to the problem. you created a black hole of issues for me. left, right, up, down. you were never satisfied. I could never miss that.

you were less of a teammate and more of an enemy. now I’m playing too

Don’t wake me up. Just let me sleep. Not seeing/speaking to you all of September was hard. And I know it was hard for you. I’m sorry.

Think about how much I love you, then think about our situation. You really are a lying monster

The one thing I’ve learned over the past six years,

people know exactly what they’re doing!

Keep that same trickster hot n cold energy, It’s boring & disrespectful!

Drop me out…

stop talking to me like i'm 5. i'm an adult. i don't need to be lectured.

Rotting, I still look for you. I still feel what you feel deeply. The wizard in me wants to make it all better, the realist knows there is no world left that exists where I get what I desire. The optimist in me thinks we can save them. But who came for me? Who was there when we fell all those times. They were all…

f you, f him, f them, and f you too, you sack of shaved weasels

I wake up and think damn, who is that fine *** shawty, and then I start chaos!