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i wish i could talk to you like how we used to just once more

i miss everything and i just cant get over it

i wish we didnt get into stupid arguments during our last few days

i wish none of it happened…

I had never ending nightmares when I slept beside you. I had horrible dreams constantly I didn't have you just cheat once it happened thousands of times repeating in dreams constantly I couldn't ******* handle it. I did everything I could do to forgive you and what did you do you left me for my nightmare. I hope you…

Do you know how much it hurt to be left by you? How much it still hurts? And ***** me? And pains me? And devours me? You don’t. You don’t and that’s why you’re not here.

I miss you so much. Knowing how your day went, your voice, seeing your face and so much more.

Why did you ghost me? Everything seemed genuinely okay. All those months and moments we shared together. Was it all lie? Why couldn’t you be man enough to be honest?

You left me emotionally spiraling, even though I’m miles away…

hey friend, Is that weird? Calling you that, I mean. Somewhere along the way, I decided that if I couldn’t have you the way a part of me wanted, maybe I could at least aim for friendship. Is that okay? I don’t know how well I’m doing. I still get butterflies when I see your name, your face, or anything that reminds me…

It’s strange that somebody can make you so happy when they are with you and things are good. When they flip that switch because they are tired of you or bored of you the world feels like it comes crashing down. It hurts so much to be rejected and forgotten by the one you want the most. How does this come to be? This…

Good girls get blocked, ******* are the love of his life. 🎤

Crossing the Delaware Memorial Bridge and being just 30 minutes from you. The joy and elation that I felt just to be in your arms and feeling your lips against mine. Just know that you're missed and I'm waiting for your return ❤️

❤️ one can dream 🌕

i just miss you. every single thing. so confused about everything. constant loop.. Intuition vs delusion. questions..explanations…silence..blocked.. losing my mind and barely finding it…

and you always on it

I wish I could roll the dice and just put myself into a position to do it instead of you but you took that from me E. And I really hope one day you do look back like everyone continues to stand firm on that you lost a real one that stood in your corner through the backlash and the backstabs and still had empathy and…

You still love me you ****

I love you and I'm a ****

Just ******* call me already you ******* idiot

How have you not figured this out already. You've had a ******* year…

Remember when we had to go to church with your parents that easter. You wore that ahort little dress. You had that beautiful black hair up. Your neck looked amazing. Your skin was always milky white. I dreaded walking in that church. All those old fat guys asking why we ain't been in monrhs. When we sat down i…

It's been 19 days since my skin has touched yours , even worse, since my hear was syncing with yours .

I do miss you immensely. I love you more than all the trauma and the drama . It sucks to love someone ao much and literally they are the only person that can bring your mind at peace ans stop the storm with one simple…

I know it was never easy. I had trouble understanding what you needed too. But I felt I did better than most would have.

I felt over time I would understand, and I wanted to. I wanted to know you, deep down inside. I wanted to be part of your healing. I wanted to be the love that you deserve but never got.

But I am…

I couldn't touch you without ruining you, so i didn't touch you at all.

My chest hurts and my stomach is churning How’s your day? Trying to enjoy it I hope. Does your heart hurt and your stomach churn

And you try to ignore it and shut it off?

Me too😔

I thought I'd never get over what you did but sometimes someone is right there. The one who told me everything and was concerned because I'm to good to be with you. Well let's say we both feel the same. Thanks ex I never thought I'd say that but your horrible ways led me to him. Remember when you find out don't blame…

Would you still be alive? I‘m sorry. So sorry.

Something inside me changed between Octobers. Something quiet, something strange. I stopped negotiating presence with people unwilling to remain. I still explain my reasons. I still leave with honesty. However I no longer make it a spectacle for those to see. Not forcing someone choosing not to see. Although I call…

I know it's too late and there's no going back but I'd do anything to change that night. To listen to you. To not react. To not push things so far. To let you say your piece the next day without being so upset and reacting.

It's the biggest regret of my life. I would give anything for another chance. I'm hurting every…

Moving out is so hard. I wish I didn’t have to do this. You’re not even here, and I keep wishing I could turn to you and tell you how much it hurts.

I wish you hadn’t hurt me. I wish we could have kept living our life together. There were so many ordinary days I still wanted with you. I thought we’d have more time.

I sti…

Since you broke up with me twice and abandoned me during my worst when all I had planned was a trip for both of us together to mark our 2.5 years abroad in my home. You let someone else destroy our relationship without proof, and for that I'll always resent how it took you to break me, to build you back up.

I know you…

I don’t know why I still think about you. Maybe it’s the way you carried yourself like the weight of the world belonged on your shoulders. Maybe it’s because beneath all that toughness, I always suspected there was something softer hiding underneath. You were never subtle. Everything about you was loud, your presence…

I told you on instagram even though I’m blocked (I can see when you unblock me btw), that I wouldn’t send anymore text to you there. I miss you, it’s been rough recently but I’m doing better mentally. (Deflection yes) Either way the company we worked for fired me, some weird excuse. We worked at different stores but…

When I asked if you heard me, I asked you not to check the ring camera because now your brother and mother will know lol. When I texted you “lofa atu” in my language I meant it even more. You replied the same back to me and I hope you know I really do love you. I wouldn’t want to be with anyone else. Thank you. I…

I want to see you

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I am ever-changing; everything is a representation of who I am. How I dress, what I listen to, what I eat, everything is attached to me at the hip. Why can’t you see that? It’s not insanity, it’s not multiple personalities, and there’s no diagnosis. It’s just me. I am all in one. One size fits all, I am me. Me and I.

I lay down for the night and start to imagine you here with me, and I wonder if you ever do the same.

These tik tok tarot readers are working OT right now.

my page is filled with my “marriage proposal” that’s coming soon.

lmfaooooo.

You cheated on me and I know you did. There is no going back. Im tired of you saying every man in the world has ****** women acting like it would condone what you did. **** you and stop texting me . Im not responding to your fake accounts anymore. I tried to be so lenient just for you to say you cheated cus im…

I don't know if deep down somewhere you have the capacity to realise how much damage you've done to me.

One moment you're a sweet angel to me and then BAM! D day!

It's a very bad day today, I'm struggling with keeping sober and not ******* ******. You've helped me not leave this world so many times. Thank you so much.

But…

You put so much pressure on me that I had no other choice but to explode. You knew and never wanted to tell me. Imagine WHAT kind of a disgusting human being you have to be to put do much pressure on someone for YEARS that you have no other choice but to break. That I would ruin myself just so that you would be…

Hey congrats on graduating, I know its been working on my self (so cringe to type that it burns). I would like to talk if u would be open to it. I took u seriously when u said I didn't take accountability, I did genuinely want u to see [REDACTED NAME OF DOG] I was extremely emotionally dysregulated. There was a lot of…

You want to fix it make the effort plain and simple. What you have done to me to protect your pride and ego will never be forgotten.

I miss u, time or distance doesn't matter to me. Ive tried to stay away because us loving each other has tore us apart. I never wanted this. How you think the way you do about me it hurts me to my soul. We've know each other since childhood. We grew up together, u were there when I lost my virginity. U mean so much to…

I wish I didn't. Its not like our relationship was good torwards the end. But I miss how we were in highschool before we tried long distance. We were so young and happy and full of love. I thought the world of you and I thought nothing could stand in our way. But then long distance came and we grew apart. I still…

Since the day we met.. When we locked eyes It’s been you.

When I was alone and scared in the hospital, I closed my eyes and saw yours, it was the only thing that made me feel safe. I was thinking about you when I was in and out of consciousness, when I was getting blood transfusions Relearning how to walk and talk…

I wish you had left me with more compassion. I wish the ending had at least reflected some of the love that we shared. I never knew you were capable of being this person. I truly hope it comes back around.

Hey Handsome,

I’ve been climbing castle stairs and rolling hills. I’ve seen eclipses, picturesque landscapes, historical sites, and shooting stars.

I picked up Jane Austen’s Persuasion again, god I love that book so damn much.

I’ve added more titles to my library and some History, Geography and Geology to boot…

But I will let you tie me up

So there’s always that

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