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i've cooked dinner every night for 20 years. i recycle. i turn the lights off when i leave a room. i make sure everyone has clean clothes. i rarely complain. i like fuzzy baby animals, i'm not picky about music. i can tell funny jokes sometimes. i'm snuggly. i like looking at things to see how they're made or how…

You can still find me because of my online presence. It’s hard saying goodbye to the life we almost had here. It doesn’t work without you being here and sober and happy to be of service and that just wasn’t who you were.

Now I know why you were terrified to let your family back into your life. They enabled you to ghost…

Remember when I said I would love you bald and toothless? It’s been a year. I hope you’re a totally different guy now.

I swing wildly from wishing you all of my stomachaches and flinches to praying to the sky above that you found a way to be happy.

Tonight I wish both. I hope you look around every corner, terrified…

Why don’t you touch me more? Why does everything seem perfect yet I’m so ******** frusterated. Why won’t you **** me? Why do I have to be the one to initiate. You make me wonder if you’re even attracted to me. YOU approached me! You complimented me! You told me you like me! You complimented me! Why won’t you **** me…

I don't care what the haters and strangers who know nothing about us have to say. I am not rejecting you when you come back. I am not better off without you. And as my heart has told me from the beginning, I can't say no to you. I just need to know it's you. So when you're ready, I'll be there (if you need anything).

Yo…

I can see a lot of the constellations tonight.. well after being blind for 10 min but still lol

Hey, I just really miss you. I hope you're actually taking care of yourself, and that people aren't telling you a bunch of ******** you don't need to hear. You are absolutely enough the way you are. Your kindness, your selflessness, and the way you bring light and life into people's lives isn't just enough, it's…

tell me to message you. instead of one of my stalkers, actually be you. talk to me on here and see how easy our conversation flows, even outside the box. but here we have no constraints. we're just two anonymous strangers. see how hard of a time we'll have trying to stop talking. think about it, stranger. i really…

You were right all along. You are a piece of ****.

that was only the most pathetic attempt anyone's ever seen at trying to portray myself as a disusting creature unworthy of love. thanks for always reminding me i was the kid walking around in the rain rescuing worms from puddles and putting them in the grass.

I feel like flooding this **** but I dont feel like flooding this ****, do you get me?

So Im gonna take your lead and leave for a while.

Just telling you cause this ghostie thingy is not my thing, Im more of a vampire person... Sleeping during the day, awake at night, neck biting stuff, you know!

I feel like going insane…

It’s been too long, I miss seeing you around and being around you. Do you miss me as much I miss you? I saw this cool drink the other day and thought of you. I think I’m going back to buy it.

… and I don’t know how to process what’s happening now.

I am desperate. I am in so much emotional pain. I miss talking to you so much. You could just make everything all right again if you just ******* picked up the phone and texted me. You’re ******* me.

Nothing new.

Nothing surprising.

Nothing that matters...

But I do all the same…

I came here to vent my feelings and HOPED he felt the same! Not for people to mock, harass, or pretend to be someone I love.

Some of yall need to really figure things out.

It’s not okay and I would NEVER hurt the man I love. I never meant to and if I did make him angry with me,

I AM SORRY…

I hate being mean I hate this I thought you really meant something yk but I get I js thought about it tm im sry I think I Ned space I js wan lyk im here whenever you want to talk but ig will meet at another time I js see sm in you and I wanted see you so bad im Literally always asking my mom this is like torture and…

There’s a part of me that knows you were never the person I thought you were.. The first few months we were together you presented as a much different individual. So intentional. So loving. But things changed over the years and you became a stranger that I do not recognize. You claim I’m one of your favorite people…

You’re not that far, I’ll walk. Or I’ll get a ride from my mom like I used to lol. Or if I ask, I’m sure you’ll come get me, and bring me home.

I don’t wanna talk, I just want to lie in bed with you. We can cuddle, and I’ll have my head on your chest again. We can kiss, or just stare into each other’s eyes… god you…

be made of a fool on here…keep it 100 24/7. Sick of this ****.

Like I'd give a real number to anyone you know haha. Joke is on you that how much brain you have. Get real. FYI keep in mind. NEVER means never. I know way to much trust me I would rather f a old are man. Nope c definitely not you ever in any life. I like clean lmao

You showed me this movie, and tonight was the first time I realized it had the date we met in it. Maybe that’s the universe’s way of telling me you’re still here. Maybe it’s me finding any inkling that you still exist in my world.

Either way. I’ll take reminiscing over trying to break away from the emotion. I miss…

Magic 8 ball told me what happens next.

You’re going to do the same thing you always do. You’re trying to get my hopes up so you can dash them and enjoy my heartache and humiliation on my birthday when I realize you’ve done it AGAIN. 👿

Nope. I’m going to have a nice day this year. 🥳

The End.

Y’all tormented me till i snapped,

Boohoo, idgaf about u.

About the lion of Judah ain’t nice like Jesus was.

Lmao…

I’ve seen behind the curtain,

I hate that I know everything,

Every move, every lie,

Every secret underneath…

A simple question. Please, I just need to know you’re okay. That’s all. I’m deafened by this silence.

Yes, I missed you but I refuse to go back to the same cycle of emotional and financial abuse we had over the years. I can love you in silence without breaking myself again.

I miss our Monday mornings together

If you hate me and never want to give me closure for crossing a boundary and hurting you, I get it. I just want to apologize for how I handled our relationship.

I regret not facing my avoidance head-on to flesh my ambiguous feelings towards you with my therapist, because I didn’t feel “the spark”.

I regret taking my…

I’m done being your cash cow. Your Rent is a “YOU” problem not a “MY” problem. Been helping you financially over these years and you think you are entitled to it. Sorry Bud, that was a privilege I gave you not your entitlement.

Wish I could go to the aquarium with you one more time

I keep watering a dead rose,

hoping just a little more

and I’ll see it spark to life.

Knowing full well it’s dead…

Happy birthday I miss you

text me, call me, whenever, wherever, i don't care. i will answer in a heartbeat. that will never change.

i can't lock you in. i can't hold you hostage. i can't say the perfect combination of words to make you stay. all i can do is hope that you want to come back. i don't know what's going through your head but i get…

Since I’m too scared to tell you I guess I’ll do it here. I lied about eating. I actually haven’t in 3 days. I can’t. And I’ve been lying about eating. I just lied over the phone to you about eating dinner. You won’t be seeing me this week so you won’t have to deal with it. The weight loss won’t be noticeable anyhow…

there was a bed rep guy today and idk if he was flirting or not, but he said..”I hope the next time I see you, you’re moved up in the company. You have a lot of potential. See you at the round table.”

You got it sir. Don’t wait for me. 🫡

This is why I work so hard. all of this will pay off one day.

Well it all devolved into u bringing up the past and constantly revising your theories of how i cheated on you, like it always does. Why can't you accept that i never cheated? I have no reason to lie about it now for sure.You think you're perfect and can't imagine that someone that just didn't want to be with you. And…

When you first reopened the door I thought maybe this was going to be a new step forward for us having any type of connection. I felt excited and hoped for things to work out in the best possible way. Then when you changed your mind and you mentioned the past it really stung. It’s not like I didn’t want to give you…

I'm not a guy. I'm a woman. The name is pronounced Just-een, not Justin. I'm a female. The fact is, had I been a boy, my name would have been Justin. But I'm definitely a female. I'm just sick of being misconstrued as a guy because people can't pronounce my damn name. Just a PSA.

I’m tired of always being the one making the effort for someone who barely makes any. I keep showing up, caring, trying, and giving you my time, while you leave me on read for three days like it’s nothing. I’m done chasing basic consideration. I deserve the same energy I give. Bye.