Unsent Text Messages - Page 10

"do you ever read unsent messages"

Maybe one day you'll remember how in love we were, and how genuine it was. The laughter the jokes, the happiness. Effortless. You meant the world to me and then walked away, to a place you said you were not happy but needed to go back to because of your family.

I hope it's working out…

"Oh whats it gonna come to now To not come home and throw it all around Oh whats it gonna come to now To not go home and throw it all around

Oh, we hold on to the photographs

Oh, we long to the photographs"

One year later…

How you guys been? Noticed you all forgot my birthday again but thats alright, we're only family. I forgive ya.

Super uncool though how ONE of you is keeping tabs on me for god knows what reason, as i assure you i want nothing to do with any sort of drama. That's alright. I forgive you again. Three strikes and you're…

hey friend, Is that weird? Calling you that, I mean. Somewhere along the way, I decided that if I couldn’t have you the way a part of me wanted, maybe I could at least aim for friendship. Is that okay? I don’t know how well I’m doing. I still get butterflies when I see your name, your face, or anything that reminds me…

Don’t you ever think for a second I ever forgot what you all did. You are disgraceful, I cant believe you were capable of doing such things to me. You won’t ever be forgiven.

I wrote this watching you sleep by the fire, listening to the storm outside and the rain falling heavy, keeping rhythm with your breath.

It made me think about you. About us. About how you came into my life and, day by day, became so much of what I needed simply by being your imperfect self. Sitting here beside you, I…

Once upon a time, I'd have been so proud of you. But this pain is deeper than that pride could have ever been.

I wanted what was best for you, and you showed zero capacity for improvement ... right up until I was erased.

Congrats on the growth.

Proof that I just wasn't worth changing for…

What happened? What did I do wrong? We talked every day for over a year and now you’re ghosting me as if I were nothing to you. I’m extremely worried about you because my mind went to the worst scenario thinking there’s no way you would ever be this cruel. You’re my best friend and my person. I feel as though the…

I wish I could reach out and undo all the hurt I caused. I wished we had met under different circumstances in a world that didn't require us to alter ourselves to survive. I hate that I decided we weren't fighting for because I was afraid that it meant many disappointments. I just didn't want to keep competing when…

i wonder how you've been sleeping. probably as well as me, i bet. i have a feeling you're still checking your phone first thing in the morning. it's nice to wake up to a loving note, isn't it? this post doesn't really have a point. just wanted to let you know i really miss you. and i asked the ball of universal energy…

Happy Birthday. I miss the hell out of you. I still love you. I’m still here. Hoping. Waiting. I hope you were cherished and felt special as you deserve on the day of your birth. I wish I was there to show my appreciation for the person that you are. You deserve it all my love. Extra extra extra long hugs on your…

thanks for letting me know it was all fake. It hurt like **** figuring it all out after the break up, but makes things easier in the long run.

Thanks

I wish you understood how much I actually try for you. I’ve cried so many nights over you, hurting quietly and hoping you’d notice that I’m not okay. I’ve given so much of myself just hoping you’d care enough to see it. But somehow, you never notice. You never see how much I’m hurting or how hard I’m trying to keep us…

Wdyw? Why aré you reaching out now?

Your birthday was 6 days ago and all I can think about was how I wasn’t able to say happy birthday to you for the past 4 years including this one. I still miss you. I wish I knew if you were still on here.

It's not something you fabricate, it isn't something to be concocted carelessly. It isn't a creation we control, merely a force to be reckoned with and respected.

It's not an action or ability, it's alchemy.

At one of my parks. If not than the end is very near . I will love you and good luck . We won’t ever speak again after the end has come. So you can figure it out let me know some how

I cannot actually believe you'd yell at me and my mother again after we constantly put up with your moods and unstable emotions and your verbally abusive violence. No wonder your kids are afraid of you mate. Grab your **** and **** off before i come back as i am done enabling you, don't ever get up in my face again…

You felt wholesome, you are what I needed to do better, and be better, you were changing my perspective in a positive way, you being you gave me a little hope.

Was that really you though, sometimes I just don’t know.

Today I’m going to write down on paper the real response to that last long txt you sent. Re-reading it…

I’m telling you right now. Either get over how you feel or tell me so I can walk away and be happy. Pretty simple .

Hey man just wanted to let you know that i've always hated you from the get go and i think you're an absolute sad case for verbally insulting a woman who basically mothered your horrible and nasty emotional issues for like three years straight without fail.

Anyways **** you man you're an absolute drongo.

Say “ um i think i have your cheese” and I will reply with the correct answer. Other wise i will continue moving on with my life and will never speak with you again.

i just watched my heart walk down the aisle, away from me, with someone else.

A hug from you would heal me.

you don’t even have to say anything.

My heart just wants to touch yours again…

Cause I knew I’d always miss you and always let you back in. It’s strange because though I love deeply, I’m good at letting go those who have wronged me time and time again. But for some reason you’ve always had a pull on me. It’s dangerous at this point. I have too much to focus on. I just wish somehow, someway, you…

Do you think of me? Do you ever miss me? Do you ever get reminded of me? Will you ever make your way back to me? I blocked you on everything except IMessage, you have the chance to reach out; please do - it feels wrong for me to try

I didn't mean to take forever to call you back. Life got in the way. You see that I tried. Twice.

Please trust that I do want to talk to you. As far as all of that trying to get over you.. Sorry, no. It's me trying to trick myself.

If you only knew how much you're still on my mind...

Please call me again, A. I'll answer.

"have you ever seen someone flinch at a sunbeam?"

— my brother, about me

Why is it so hard to let you go? To let my heart love someone else? Someone who will love me like I deserve. No matter how much time goes by I still can't fathom loving someone the way I still love you. I need to let you go. You'll never choose me, it will always be her.

I’m not silent because I’m processing or being avoidant. I’m silent because I don’t want to go to jail.

You wronged me, they wronged me. Laughed about it all night behind my back.

I walked away you keep reaching out, I don’t respond.

It’s been a year, give it up…

Hey Batman do you remember when we first met and we talked about running away together buying an RV and camping our way across the US getting married privately in the woods and the rain laying out under the arches looking at the stars and talking until the sun came up? I have a confession to make I held onto that…

Be part of a three

If there needs to be

Please take me out of the equation

I’d rather be…

I was rereading our text messages and suddenly the way I felt about you just made sense. I wasn’t second guessing myself anymore. But then there are the weird lies you told me. I don’t get it. Did you want to seem cool? What is your goal?

About you, M, is how much I still crave your attention. How a message from you or seeing some dumb **** like you added me yo your close friends list or followed me on spotify, lights my brain up. I know this is going nowhere. It's not even going back where it was before.

Please. I just want to text you that. A part of me thinks you’ll know what it means and a part of me doesn’t.

Was out all day and decided to stay unplugged to be more present

Yet all I could think of was you

I wish I didn’t miss you as much as I do

But I do…

I would give anything to spend the rest of my life with you. To watch you grow old by my side and love you through every year of it.

How lucky I would be to share the next thirty or forty years with you. To give you children and a place to call home. There would be no greater honour than to be your partner.

If I were…

Hey. Figured I would just text you instead of dreaming we're talking again. I literally wake up at 2am every night after dreaming we were either talking or together. It's crazy to me that most of whatever we had was just over the phone. But when we were actually together, 😮‍💨, I don't think I've ever felt that much…

Swear down ive fabricated such a hectic story

I lay down for the night and start to imagine you here with me, and I wonder if you ever do the same.