Unsent Text Messages - Page 14

Hey there, my lovely ghost, the one who haunts me in the wee hours.

When my eyes open, it feels as though the doors to my soul are calling out to you. I wonder about those myths that say when someone thinks of you, you think of them too. Perhaps this isn't insanity after all.

Maybe that's why my prescription isn't…

Someone to tell me I’m pretty. I kinda wish that someone could be you.

But I didn't do that and I'm not asking your easy *** to come over and destroy me either. Doors unlocked as always u *****. I'm drunk as **** rn and all I want is you to lay the fkn pipe but you a goddam ***

how's everything going? Whatcha been up to? Week two of classes all done and it feels like I started all over again lol. Driving home makes me think of you, I wish I'm on the way for one of our hangouts everytime I see the turn for your street. Feels weird that you're not there anymore.

I remember a while ago you told me you watched the movie Carrie. I still haven't watched it but I watched the new miniseries that's out. I enjoyed it. Its got some good quotes and soundtrack too. Its very good overall. Carrie has some pretty cute fits. I hope you enjoy it too. I think you will.

You really should focus…

I used to love Fridays. I always looked forward to whatever you came up with. Now all it does is remind me of your absence. I wonder to myself what you do now. Are you just by yourself, or have you found someone else to fill in for me. I guess I’ll never know.

I hate that I created this. If I had been upfront, you…

1-1.5s yrs later and you couldn't even remember a key component to our "deal"? Meanwhile this moving situation and it's "agreement terms" was like a ******* bible I read to myself every goddamn night. I couldn't forget it. It was my saving grace - like a ******* guardian angel.

I left the house. Untouched. Waiting for…

I know you like her. I wasn’t crazy. You emotionally cheated before and I knew it was happening again. Late night phone calls with her, calling her on your work breaks, getting off the phone with me and calling her right after. You say it’s nothing, “we just play Minecraft together.” Telling her to make a TikTok…

Therapy is hard on a good day. On a bad day, it's impossible not to be flooded with overwhelming grief about everything lost with the end of us.

This time last year my heart was filled with joy seeing both our families sitting around the big table. In our spooky house that was filled with the *********** of everyone…

Your silence is torturing my already pained heart. Can you NOT FEEL THAT? I feel like you do , which makes the truth even harder to bear. How can you know it and still double down? How can you ask me for help but NEVER show up for the very minuscule things I ask you for? How could you say you love me and leave me…

Really? Halloween? The Clairion? My now ex friend? $1500 right? **** you

Just add me back. I’ll send whatever pics you want. I’ll say whatever you want to say. I’ll be so good or I’ll be so ******* bad I don’t care.

Add me and say whatever you want and I’ll do it. I’ll do whatever you wanna.

I couldn't touch you without ruining you, so i didn't touch you at all.

i just realized whatever they said was true. i js cant keep a good connection with everyone. maybe im a loser. god knows. ive started to accept that tag now. never was a good friend to anyone. i dont think ill ever be. i keep on pushing people when it gets real and deep. i do have attachment issues but why do i get…

If you want to see them add me back on snap.

I just hope you're happy.

I am in love with you and I appreciate everything you do for me I want to express that I will be there for you till the deeps of earth I am here to hear you anytime your patience is my love and your strength is so powerful and inspiring I hope to grow are relationship and I learn so much from you I love your music and…

You were the best partner I could’ve asked for, you were everything I’ve ever wanted. I miss your laugh, your cute little giggle when I’d make stupid jokes. I miss showing you lord of the rings for the first time, I miss all of it so much and I’m so lost without you. I know you seem happier now and you’re talking to…

Any luck so far?

Keep it up, because I have faith in you.

Not giving in and calling you has been really difficult...

But remember- you have my number too…

Why did you do it? I was honestly ok living my moderately miserable life. Then that day happened you came in sat next to me and said “would you really want to see them”. That was all it took to open a door I had no ******* clue what was waiting on the other side. Why keep it up though? Why keep telling me how much you…

What if we go back to how we were for just 4 more weeks? We’d have this weekend, next, the wedding, and your trip to SF. then you could block me again.

I promise I’d make it worthwhile.

I’m sorry that I can’t invite you along to things. I so desperately want to, even if it’s the two of you. Regardless, it’s a chance to get closer. But I can’t even do that without causing trouble on my end. And that hurts. I’m not sure if you see it. I do know you do that, too. There are things you definitely could…

Even if you can't admit your mistakes and atone for them, can you at least tell me that what you felt was real? Tell me that what I felt and what I did for you mattered, that I mattered to you in that brief window of time.

Imagine going through court just to find each other again. My baby, my boy, my man, I love you forever and always

Imagine going through court just to find each other again. My baby, my boy, my man, I love you forever and always

I wonder how you're doing, what you've been up to, whether you're laughing a lot, whether life is being kind to you. I wonder what you're sewing, what books you're reading, what music you're listening to, and whether you're finding joy in all those little things that make you who you are.

More than anything, I hope…

Have fun in TO this weekend. I know you are going to a concert, but lets be honest we both know you really just want to pet the stingrays at the aquarium. I got tickets to the Sens game next week. You should come, see a hockey game before you move across the world. Let me know. Have a great weekend.

Idk if u'll even read this but I'm still crazy about u.. Your smile, your cute face, your childish acts... istg, I can't get them outta my head. Idk how, but even after everything that's happened between us, u still manage to stay on my mind..

Whenever we're on calls, I literally can't take my eyes off u .the way u…

as i take notes, my mind drifts to you. i won't ever tell you this though.

But I still think of you often. I think of things I wish I could share with you but I can’t. It’s not like you would respond back anyways. I get it though…I didn’t at first, until I seen her profile randomly pop up and that confirmed why you had to ghost. It’s a loyalty and respect thing. Which is honestly why I…

A,

I'm sorry I brought the pedophile into our story. After my dad died, I found new sources of attention, and he eventually replaced you as my "on demand " dummy, along with the puppy who provided continuous emotional affection and support. I was lonely and needed someone available, and I filled the space with whoever…

So you were being hateful and giving me the silent treatment all day Saturday. I begged you to tell me what's wrong. But we got up Sunday morning and you kissed me? I wasn't going to kiss you like i usually do every morning.becauae u had been a c_nt all night .What was that anyways? Later that night, we said, i love…

Every time i feel unsafe, i think about you. I think about that time i sent you my location, and you stayed up with me, talking about whatever to make me feel less unsafe. You were miles away, but i still felt safe knowing one soul in this world knew where i was.

I remember every time we reached out for each other when…

I once thought a manipulative smarmy **** was my soul mate and I only went back about 12 times before they 'crossed the line' hard enough for me to leave

my love is real but i am really scared , bc realistically theres 99% chance that we wont get a happily ever after so doesnt matter how things end between us always remember that I loved you and i will always love you.

There's no way for me to deny to repress any longer...I need you to know. It's time for me to cut the ****, let go of my pride, and tell you how I feel.

I'm getting to the point of the cost of being silent is heavier than the cost of taking a chance.

something that will haunt me for the rest of my life, because you’re the man i want.

you switched up and started avoiding me. even in our home. every time i do see you, i’m met with wide and uncomfortable eyes. i’m ignored when i greet you in passing. if you don’t like me, that’s fine, but i wish you would just tell me. if i’ve done something to **** you off, you could just tell me. i don’t understand…

Just because my parents moved to Richmond when I was a kid dont mean I have to stay.

I really want that job at Space X.

I hung out with your sister last night. We talked about you for like four hours..she thinks we should do it, that it would be perfect. I don’t want to drag you out of the closet, but god damn dude I just want to kiss you.