Unsent Text Messages - Page 17

I know you wouldn’t swallow your pride. But I’ll answer if you do.

It's been four months since the worst relationship of my life. I didn't want another, and you just spawned into my life and you are everything: you are love.

I'm trying my best to not self-sabotage... My anxious episodes never felt this calm and normal. It's almost like an excited-attachment instead of anxious or…

Hey. Still really just missing you tonight. Again. I was thinking about when we were talking about dates to go on together, and what we could do together to have fun. Girl we could go anywhere. We could be in a sewer, a desert miles and miles from shade, the Arctic with no jackets, or the moon with no air and I would…

I don’t even need you to like me. But I need you to be honest with me.

I didn't even want you then when I did you ******* ghosted me hours after telling me you loved me and that stung bad i waited a week for something and you never said a word so i sent a closure text and blocked you now you have 2 ways to find me and one of those are going when i can

i loved you when things were good and…

In all of my sorrow I actually thought you was going to be different. I thought maybe and i believed in you. And now think about you more than I would ever admit. It’s terrible I wanted to just go slow but you kept pushing me away. We got too close right? And I felt it the shift and I was right. You quit coming over…

Just tired of being harassed

Anyways How are you🫠😶‍🌫️

I miss you. Not in a relationship way, just in a friendship way. You were literally my best friend and not talking to you i just feel so lonely. Im surrounded by people, and im holding multiple conversations a day, yet without you there it all just feels so empty and meaningless. No one is updating me on whatever is…

Three weeks, J. I know you’re hurting just as much as I am. How could you? I miss you every single day. I threw up when you broke it off. I spiraled. I lost sleep. I missed work.

Did you lose sleep, too?

I got your note in the box of my things you sent back. I want to write you a letter but every time I do, the anger I…

Hey Handsome,

I’ve been climbing castle stairs and rolling hills. I’ve seen eclipses, picturesque landscapes, historical sites, and shooting stars.

I picked up Jane Austen’s Persuasion again, god I love that book so damn much.

I’ve added more titles to my library and some History, Geography and Geology to boot…

You asked me to need you less, I practiced that and now you’re unnecessary.

I miss you so damn much. Nothing makes sense, nothing matters anymore. Why keep going when all the light and warmth in my world has been snuffed out? I miss your smile, I miss your voice, I miss your body, I miss you. I miss talking to you, telling you important things, silly things, anything. I miss your touch, I…

sometimes I really do wonder how I'll look back at this as years go by.

will I sigh lovingly or disappointedly?

"oh, I was so in love"? or "oh, I was so foolish"?

maybe all of the above…

Today I found out that the Monstera Bulbasaur is a thing. It’s a variegated cultivar of a Monstera Deliciosa (one of my favorite plants). Anyway… I thought you would it think it was cool… if you were here… and I could tell you about it.

don’t believe everything just was looking into your eyes thats ir. while life is still in them. the truth is youstill have nothing right. i did cheat just like you i was busy with my other ex from AZ. so again your FACTS ARE WRONG because tn years ago she is the ONLY woman i was with SORRY TO BURST YOUR BUBBLES THATS…

You know, I can still keep you updated cause I do want you to know and I wanna know. I missed you this afternoon when you messaged me about the saffron. I haven't been sleeping well so I had a little nap. I saw you in my dreams again.

You ever wish you never met me?

I can’t keep holding something that was never meant to be held especially not by me Maybe me caring for you wasn’t meant to happen . Maybe wrong time wrong moment For a little while things felt easier but now I can’t seem to forget you . I know I need to forget you . I’m sure you’ve forgotten other than being the…

I’ve been strong. Maybe too strong. Because I know if I sit and think about how badly you’ve ****** me over I just might snap. People closest to me always say how much they admire me for going thru so much in my life and always being able to pull myself out. This time I’m not gonna lie, it feels like I can’t. My soul…

I hate being forgotten :(

Why are u saying "let's just fake it for a few days?" How would that help either of us? Just pretend we didn't break for a year? Just pretend u didn't sabotage my new relationship? Yup,ok, i will just pretend that u didn't poison her mind with your lies and break us up? Pretend u didn't out me too, i guess? I don't…

Time was an issue for us last time, then I told you how I felt. I told you that I'll wait for you... As I believe you are my forever. Now a few years later, you text me out of the blue. I felt butterflies as soon as I seen it. The happiness and joy that I felt once we spent time together once again. It's like the…

good bye my love

I tried

😔

You took yourself off your meds again Another lie to add to the pile You say you want to help fix us But there’s nothing left that I can trust The only reliable thing about you Is relying on you to not care Not care about anyone’s feelings Unless it benefits you Otherwise ignore people in general Including family and…

The weirdest part that i dont want to let u go cuz even this pain am feeling is comforting me and making me feel u are alive.

I even love the pain u make me feel

I dreamt about you. You forgave me for the pain I caused you and allowed me to treat you softly and gently again, my sweet boy. We shared a bed again. Yet when I awoke in real life, I was alone. I’m crying again for the first time since we last spoke. Some moments I think I’m fine, I’m content with being single. I…

🎶And you're in love🎶

🎶Love with meeeEEEEeEeEeEeEe🎶

A- There was no closure from you. I know we can’t be together. I’m pretty sure you hate me. I was serious when I said I can’t do long distance and I’ve got to work on myself right now. But I’m just hurting so much and I’m sure you are as well. A playlist is not enough, I wanted us to end on good terms. I’m sorry I was…

I want to send a letter And tell you what I see I like sunsets and I want to show you something from my eyes…. Can I add a little drawing too

It’s been like 5 months and I still think about you. It comes in waves. I adored you so incredibly much. Talking to you made my day, your sweet good morning texts. I’m not sure where things went wrong. You stopped showing interest, you would go a weekend without even checking in and you were the one who initiated…

I miss u I turly do and I wish we can talk again and etc but that's just me missing the attention and love that we had, only if I could've not been jealous only if u could've helped me and not broken a promise we made, and I hate u for that I really do I hate u sm much as I hate ur bf but again it was my fualt for…

People tell me it’s okay to leave a relationship that you don’t want. Of course it is. Why would it not be? But you know what’s not okay? Lying. Hiding your fears. Not communicating. THAT is something you owed me. I didn’t deserve to be lied to for weeks and then blindsided. You don’t get to say ‘i can’t do long…

I love you but i cant do this anymore. You have sucked up every ounce of feeling I had left in me after countless traumas and pains in my past. I really gave you everything more than I have given anyone before. And its a shame because you didnt even want it.

I will be dying inside for years because I love you and you…

I crave to hear your voice i miss you sm and I know im being a knucklehead and Im going to give your space I guess I just miss when we talk i could go rambling to you all nightt but im going to use this time apart to really focus on myself and try to become someone you deserve I can’t wait to see you I’ve been…

i know i already thanked you before, but. i can't thank you enough for how kind you were when you decided to take my virginity just to keep me from suffering a worse guy. it was really the kindest thing anyone could have done in that crazy situation, and i was so happy to catch up with you last month. i cannot believe…

you know what **** it what you did was so ******* despicable i couldn’t have imagined EVER you’d be capable of something so ****** up.

what now huh? you get to live your life normally and i have to be the one to suffer i have to be the one having dreams about you every ******* night replaying every single second we’ve…

My mind is funny.I laugh at the most inappropriate times.My mind is free but also creates worlds.My mind is beautiful.I understand why people love me .Sometimes I just wish they would actually see me.

I hate to be copied or dupped.

So from now on I will just write like I mean it.

I hate everyone that thinks it's funny to…

Per your words. You want me to date other people. You don’t want to do certain things with me because it’s “special.” You do not have any romantic feelings for me.

I’m cutting out the grey area for now. If you ever remove your head from your ***, and realize how ******* amazing I am (after some actual groveling) I…

The only thing I did wrong was break up with you and move on. I know u think bc u bombarded me with texts and refused to leave me alone, that we were still together. I have broke it down for you 100 times. I told you plainly that we were done and I'm moving on. Ik this is just your tactic. Bombard me with false…

without you feel like months.

I hate you so ******* much for what you've done to me.

When I needed you the most, you weren't there. When I was already on the floor, barely holding myself together, you didn't help me up. You stepped on me and pushed me down even further. And somehow, you still expected me to give you everything.You always complained…