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Every time I open the chat I just stare at it unsure on what to say. I'm scared. I'm overwhelmed with fear.

I can't seem to find the right words to say.

I love you. I never stopped loving you.

I know I ****** up. I know and for the past 2 years I've been hating myself for leaving you like this…

to get crazy. You’re supposed to be here. Snap out of it!

It was so nice to hear from you. I believe in you so much. I'm glad I was able to share The Winner Is with you and that you like it too. Please try to enjoy the music and things you like doing. Its okay to let yourself feel your emotions.

Maybe I can work some magic and make everything okay for you 🧙‍♂️🪄

Hey, I’ve been thinking about you A LOT. You’re on my mind everyday. But tonight the thoughts of you are INTENSE. I care about you, and I hope you’re doing well.

Sometimes I don't miss you because you're gone.

I miss you because you're still somewhere, living your ordinary life.

And somewhere in mine, there are still little moments that remind me of you.

A song, a place, a familiar silence, a passing face…

You told everyone on Monday night that you’re a heart breaker but there’s someone whose heart you will never break… who?

Hmmm why me no ***** **** huh. **** no trust. **** no feel good is what you use but need instead. **** like self. I like self too. Don’t need sweat. Sweat uhnd **** must feel good , be good. If not, keep to self. You go find you ****. You want ****, not me. If mad bout **** no. I fine. Always have ****. Make **** more…

I see all of these “I miss you” unsent messages and I always wonder if one of them is you speaking to me. I sometimes scroll thru them just to see if any of them in some small way relate to me and just maybe it will be you. I miss you, and I shouldn’t but I do.

Everything went wrong for me yesterday. Nothing bad at first but the consistency of bad luck almost made me break down completely, yet I kept going.

Then the last thing that went wrong broke me down, my dog almost died. He’s fine right now and I’m thankful that the worse that could have happened did not. I wanted your…

Things ended messy between us. That was not what I wanted, even if I did have my own doubts/concerns near the end. But there are so many things I'm thankful for, that I probably never expressed them adequately. I'm sorry for that. So here goes my attempt to correct that a tiny bit.

Thank you for the best birthday I've…

I would never send this to her but… As time passes, I learn more and more about myself. Slowly I’ve been dissecting my own psychology preparing to rebuild. Acknowledging all my trauma, trying my best to be superhuman in a sense of awareness of my own being. I think often about how my trauma impacted our relationship…

Forgive me for my one-word response yesterday. I was upset, I will admit that.

Your words were basically confirmation for me.

Maybe we are better off as just friends.

I wish you had just told me how you felt…

Beauty can fade, you've gotta make sure what you're left with is still beautiful

I had a dream about you last night. I felt joy, curiosity and excitement seeing you. I haven’t seen you in almost 3 years now, yet you still cross my mind and dreams. Im sorry for how things ended with us, just know I loved you so much. We weren’t good for each other at the time. Sometimes I think maybe things would…

That was tentative outline of plan A

but it’s always been someone else with you. even as a facade, you have to realize how faulty that is, right? anyway, i shouldn’t have to ask. you didn’t have to ask for me to put you first, i just cared enough not to risk it. not how you did. i know we’re different. not reciprocating that doesn’t make you all big and…

I think it’s the unknown that keeps me here Suspended wondering why this is how I’m feeling I can usually tell these things I can tell what someone wants from me But not you . I’m confused and kinda hurt but I also understand I just want .. no I need transparency from at least someone in my life . If you want me to…

thank you thank you thank you so much. i love you and appreciate you so much. to anyone else the change you made today may have been subtle, but to me it was very drastic and very important. your emails sounded like you again. you sent multiple. you showed that you cared. you have no idea how just a little extra…

Sorry for the typing rant earlier, it’s not what you think. Thing is, that it not jealousy, probably like you think. Yes it does strike a nerve. When we are working to bridging is gap and it comes to an abrupt stop. That puts me in limbo so I wait and I wait until we can resume. Then we resume to just to get the…

**** you! This time sober 🖕

saw you smile today. saw you relish my pain. saw you enjoy seeing me hurt. saw you savor my heartbreak. tried the best I knew how. was far from perfect. am flawed. loved you as hard as I could. forgave you. supported you. told you were worth it. believed in you. believed in us. believed your words. believed your…

But my god we had a magical beginning and that will always stay with me….

I wish we could have runaway together but now I must go on my own. Leave everything I know once I can. Even you unfortunately

I considered texting this to you because really you are the one I will miss someday. I fell for you, you said it had to stay casual. Ok. The end was brutal because I haven’t heard that I was more hassle than I’m worth since I was a kid. But I’m a glutton for punishment what can I say. I won’t reach out because I don’t…

Would you ever wanna talk even though the fire will stay dead? I'm hard to find these days but I'll make it easy for you only.

I need to hear your voice and know that it was all for real.

I got it. Message received💯

im sorry if you saw that video and I hope you forgive me Im js so slow sometimes baby please pleaseee trust me I will never think your tm i love you sm

But…I am scared genuinely. This can ultimately hurt me. Sadly, I am not as optimistic anymore and many of my confidence are gone.

The fun part? I saw them admitting and they didn’t take the chance on telling me truthfully. As I slowly recall our discussion…I get sick by realizing the truth and their nature. I AM A…

I over think and think a lot about random things that I don’t think ever even cross your mind but if ever this did.

We had a chat today about things that aren’t things that might very possibly be things one day and I conveyed there was never an expectation of things that you shouldn’t do. You should. I thought about…

I spent the night revising my goodbye letters. Don’t worry… you won’t get one. You will continue to live your unaffected life peacefully.

I hope you delete your account that way the hope I have dies with it.

This morning, I was in such a rush. I didn't check your online status until now.

I saw a post of someone not taking the breakup well, a few weeks back and I related. Seeing it from the point of view of the other person, how uncomfortable and unsafe they felt. I wish how I handled things wouldn't leave a sour taste, and…

And just fast forward to the part where we **** and then go are separate ways its less painful in the long run i promise you that

I wish I had the resources to simply disappear overnight. Go somewhere where I am unknown, I can live in peace & happiness on my own terms. To not be able to be found by anyone toxic, negative, or disrespectful of boundaries. In short, out of your reach forever!

I am doing better , I am finally studying as you wanted me to. I am better than before. I wish you were here though.

Needed for everything I did but unwanted for who I was,

Tolerated for my willingness to self abandon to keep the peace

Wanted, desired but never loved.

I hate you. I love you. I hate you. I love you. We’re the same and you know it. We’re never getting back together but damn I miss you!

i know it's because she figured out there's something "special" between us from how you acted in the dance space. and now you're trying to minimize damage and avoid jeopardizing something important in your life by changing the way we interact. and how we connect when you're on your retreats, which she probably wants…

There has always been something inherently wrong with me, Im too loud, too messy, too talkative, too much. Im not meant to be kept, I am meant for practice. Im the training wheels to learn on before I am outgrown for a real bike. Im not the girl you bring home to your mom, Im not the one you bring to events, Im the…

Idk if he even has an account anymore and don’t want to play tomb raider on here to find out.

Yes, I have 2 other accounts. None of the over the over the top woe is me damning some man to eternal hell/ picking him apart or poetically professing undying love/desire are me to him. Actually I don’t really post anything…