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reality is we never forgot anything that happened in our lives there is no such thing as escaping from whatever that had happened we just learned to accept and live with it because thats the only way we can survive and acceptance takes time

“I miss you. I wish things were different. I don’t know what to do with all this love now.”

Why couldn’t you just leave it where it was? It was so much easier accepting and moving on when i thought you hated me. I dont want your forgiveness or your well wishes. I just want to forget all of this happened so i can trick myself into being happy again.

As my memories and thoughts of you become less and less. A connection that was tethered to you that you weren’t ready for. Truth that you didn’t care to admit. But I was one with you just dear, I felt everything you felt behind close doors that you’d never admit. I made it to obvious, I shared to much.

It’s makes that…

I seriously hope you’re ready for the ********* that’s heading your way over the next couple of days. After your heartless and cruel betrayal and then further continual lies after I don’t owe you my loyalty anymore. If you didn’t want drama you shouldn’t have started it with your actions and your cruelty after…

Waiting for a call to say you're near. A sign or a wall. Ill keep fighting until i die.

Still nothing from the woman I love. As though she’s evaporated into thin air. No responses, no sign of any activity, nothing. I am worried beyond reason. My therapist tells me to pursue her, and I am trying. I’m now starting to seriously consider the worst. This is torture. I said I would never give up, my love, and…

It annoys me when you call me dude as if we were nothing :( Can you STOP doing that? I don’t care if I’m being dramatic and it’s just a nickname. I know I say bro so I’m a hypocrite but whatever. I’m a hypocrite and I’m dramatic but you should know that about me already. SO STOP! 🐼

I could feel that you know. You lightly bumping into me as we stood by the fire that night. While you talked to your friend on your left you swayed like there was music playing, bumping into me again and again and again. Not hard but enough a normal person would say “ohh sorry”. I know you were not drunk, I have seen…

“Why would I take all this time to become me, just to listen to you?”

If things are different tomorrow,

it's okay

thank you

for loving me today.

You dumped me out of the blue and never gave me a real reason why.

I asked if it was the guy YOU brought into our relationship that caused issues and you said no to me, while attacking my friends calling me a cheater.

Well that guy stood by me after you left. Now that guy is standing by me after I’ve got a job I…

I can't control it, i lose myself in it. I love people, i love being in love, i love sharing my life with someone special. But it's not safe anymore, not after getting hurt so many many many times. Do i fall in love too easily? Am i too desperate? Do i get carried away too much??

I'm starting theraphy in a few months…

Thank you for being there for me during one of the hardest moments of my life. Until I met you, I had never felt comfortable enough to be so completely open and vulnerable with someone. It was such a unique feeling, and honestly, it almost overwhelmed me at times. Even though we’re over now, I’ll never forget all the…

Overestimated your humanity, before. Now I’m overestimating your capability. My protections are enough. No matter what my nightmares say, you’re not Chuckie, you’re just some sad dude that hates me and can’t do **** about it, again.

One more foggy morning, one more trip down memory lane. What is there even left to remember? The only true thing I remember is your name. Everything else is just my imagination, or the memories of things I imagined in the past. The only thing I remember is the feeling you left in me. Or the feeling I grew for you…

You said I could trust you, you said I was your happy, then you just ghosted me. No reason no explanation. Just silence. Then to block and unfriend me with no explanation. How can I trust you when you always do this?

Loving you was exhausting.

Is it because you miss me or do you miss having someone to talk to? I've been hurting these last few months. So if it's for selfish reasons...Please respect me enough to leave me alone.

i would have loved you, no ego. i would go back in time for an hour just to get to know you more. ill keep silent about this from now on. ive been afraid of leaving the warmth from our memories but goodbye now. take care. be happy, and dont come back.

I lay awake until my eyes are so heavy I have to sleep, because the minute they close they are filled with dreams of you. That hurts me more than any nightmare I have ever had.

I am haunted by you, a person I could have chosen to fight for but decided to walk a way as I thought that was the best thing for us both.

The wo…

Damn, I got issues. The idea of leaving this place is seeming more doable by the day

…just as I entrust mine to their care.

Im going through the worst phase of my life. And I thought we were close friends, you used to open up to me for emotional support, to which I reciprocated to the best of my power. But right now I feel alone, you don’t check up on me, even when you noticed how dull I look these days, you said that yourself. I tried to…

They would reach out the instant they knew I was hurt to make amends. They would seek to soothe my pain and we would grow closer from the mending.

It would take no time for them to know exactly where they belong. With me. Right here with me.

How is it going carrying me in your soul? That part of you in mine is doing well.. i miss you, i don’t think i would ever want to be with you again. But i miss your laugh, your smile, your caring nature. I miss knowing you are okay. I still think a conversation would be good for closure, but it’s okay if you’re not up…

how??? how? i don’t get it. how is it not bothering you the way its bothering me. we haven’t had a proper conversation in 5 days. i’ve been crying myself to sleep because you can’t make an effort to talk to me besides hi how are you. really? is that what we’ve come down to. you went 24 hours without texting me. there…

I did love you. But our situation made it hard for me to feel secure. I became toxic. I didn’t know how to express my boundaries properly, so a lot of it came out as fighting. I could’ve handled things better and not hurt you the way I did. I'm sorry.

I still care about you and miss you. I don’t hate you. I just wanted…

why did you have to do this to me today? you have zero idea how miserable i am right now. you don't even care how miserable i am. all you wanted to do was hurt me? but. i can't even breathe from how sick i am

You told me you needed space because listening to me vent about my problems was getting “too much for you” and was triggering your anxiety.

Okay. Fair point. I apologized, told you I didn’t mean to overwhelm you with my problems even though I was going through absolute ****. I recognized it was a lot though, and I did…

it will be our last words so make them clear I’m not to happy with you doing that I don’t mind the Déjà vu but the words coming out of your mind or mouth throw me for a loop I expect them to be in person I realize there’s more then one voice being used

Its okay, you’re always a **** so i should be used to it by now lolol thanks for being cool about paying you back. Honestly, after your last message, i was so angry, i used the money to go get my nails done with *. It was just so hurtful that you could make it seem like you forgot me so easy when i cant stop thinking…

Narcissist.

Avoidant.

Fraud.

Liar…

forever in love with hazel eyes.

especially my exes.

It's October 7 and I'm just thinking about you. I hope you're able to do something for him still. I remember that picture you showed me when he was a baby. Cutest freaking kid!

Also, I really hope your days get a lot better 🩵

I wish I could see you, even if its just for a moment in the distance. I'm sure you're happy, and maybe I'm a fool. Maybe I'm the only one still stuck in the past. I'm not sure if I will ever heal from this. Its been 2 years since I've even spoken to you really. Despite the new people that Ive met, at the end of the…

All this time later and it's not the fact that you left that hurts me, it's the last sentence you said to me just before you walked out of my life for good. Honestly it's all because I don't understand why you'd say it in that last moment we shared together, our final hug just before you left. I just don't know and it…

So i said we can text, right? I said I'm not ready for calls right? And ofc u being you, immediately called. Then u acted like something was wrong when i didn't answer....and called back again.....and like a *******, i answered., because i have actual feelings, i answered. And within ten minutes, u are telling me u…

i've cooked dinner every night for 20 years. i recycle. i turn the lights off when i leave a room. i make sure everyone has clean clothes. i rarely complain. i like fuzzy baby animals, i'm not picky about music. i can tell funny jokes sometimes. i'm snuggly. i like looking at things to see how they're made or how…