Unsent Text Messages - Page 40

I wish I could say, “I wish you the best.”

I do not. Why should I?

You don’t deserve it.

...manifesting me at 4 am.

I was sound asleep when I began to smell you and the tears pooled against my pillow case. Allow me to absolve our contract, as you wish. You have removed any options for contact and relinquished control.

I would have loved you with every cell in my body until the day I died of exhaustion…

You are never up this late. You must be really suffering right now. I saw the news. I'm sorry.

I was able to forgive you before. Primarily for my own peace of mind. As I continue to be held in this suffocating position, mentally altered, scared, solely because of your three decades of abusive trauma, I realize I have wounds that will never heal fully. Without doubt you believe this path you’ve chose, without my…

And I still don't know how to live without you

He’s not on here much, if at all.

When I’ve asked how he feels about you, he’s told me that if it weren’t for me, he’d never speak to you.

He’s said he isn’t attracted to you, and that he doesn’t really care for some of the choices you make in your life.

For what it’s worth, I personally think you’re an amazing and…

Please never reach out to me again, I do not want to hear from you or see you. Our relationship was never real, it was built on lies and I was simply a rebound relationship to you. You cheated on me and lied to me the entire time. My biggest regret in life is meeting you. If I could go back to the day we met, I would…

dont pretend as if you didnt want me

you’re making it look like i was behind you all along

you said you loved me

and when we both knew things wont work out you yourself said that we shouldnt stop talking and go where the wind takes us…

When I asked if you heard me, I asked you not to check the ring camera because now your brother and mother will know lol. When I texted you “lofa atu” in my language I meant it even more. You replied the same back to me and I hope you know I really do love you. I wouldn’t want to be with anyone else. Thank you. I…

The damn Magic Man has had an odd dream reoccurring lately. It’s this one where everything goes just like how I said it would. And I’m able to bless all with what I’ve always felt to give them. But all of a sudden I start to walk and I end up slowly being by myself as I further my steps.

And then, a crown ends up on my…

So you did block me, cool cool, kinda deserve it i guess but now I want to email you. Crazy right? Right? Yeah I’m crazy. Ive never emailed someone before after they blocked me. I always wanted someone to email me. Would you like it? Or be even more creeped out by me? Probably creeped out. I did tell you I can get…

Yesterday was awful and I missed you. Today was less so but I still miss you. Tomorrow is unknown but I know I’ll miss you. I will miss you forever. I’m not waiting for you, but know I love you and I do wish you would come back.

Just legit what the title says. Don’t be a lame

But the sun came through the window, and for a little while I forgot to be afraid.

You really are an evil human being.

Hey David -

I did see your email. Thank you for writing back. On my end, I haven't responded because I want to do things differently..... The last time you and I knew each other, we drowned and suffocated in too many emails and texts. Not this time. I'll reply. Soon. I hope we can meet up at some point before this year…

It’s been beautiful and ugly. It’s been happy and sad. It’s been breathtaking yet horrifying. It’s been so lonely but I’ve been keeping busy. The fact is I’m trying to figure out how I’m not supposed to love you anymore after all the things you have said about me and done to me behind my back. Hundreds of women. Since…

I’m posting this not just for my sake But for the poor girl who has fallen victim to our toxic cycle. You tell me things, lead me on, break up and be the worlds biggest *** to find a new girl to move on to. I’m going to break you. I’m not letting you jump fresh in relationships anymore while making me grieve and…

Hi jack! I’m being brave. Thankyou for our dates and Italian food. You was a big deal to me… now you’re not . Hope you’ve found the right person for you! It’s 12:45qm btw

****, it feels like I’m being ripped apart

Taking a shot for you 🙏🏼 Enjoy your Arnold’s Palmer

D, It’s been weeks, and somehow, I still keep thinking about messaging you. There are so many times I’ve opened our conversation, wanting to say something, then stopped myself because I’m scared you won’t reply. I think that’s what hurts the most; the thought that maybe talking to me isn’t something you want anymore.

I…

Every part of me wants to run to you right now! I want to tell you everything, cry, laugh and feel comfort within you but I can’t. I have to hold off until next week until we see each other once more. We can never be together again ( relationship wise) and I know you know that… so do I. But we will always love each…

I know you're on here. I've seen the email notifications. Which one are you? Do you even post about me or do you lurk? Call me.

Do you not like think about me at all? Like I hate that i have trouble sleeping from missing you. Everyday I feel like this was the wrong choice. But i was your choice to make. Do you regret it at all? I just have so much to say still. We had so much left to accomplish. I knew there were issues but I never thought it…

This is the only profile I’m writing from Man ain’t no one else me

I’m me👌🏼

Your big birthday is coming up next month, and even though we are now pretty much permanent no contact individuals, I hope for reconciliation. I don’t know why you wouldn’t want to be friends now that the pressure is off relationship wise. i would love for us to have a real conversation, no conflict, just catching up…

The serpent will try to cash a check. “This check is null and void and cannot be cashed” the angel will say unto him

I’m not going to lie, I found myself missing you since we both went silent. The thought that you likely are out there defending the Cornell 7 has been the only reminder needed that I made the right call.

Hi there, I recently heard you moved across the ditch to Tasmania, I just want to wish you all the best, and I hope you're enjoying it over there.

I love you, I miss you,iloveyouimissyouiloveyouimissyouiloveyouimissyouiloveyouimissyouiloveyouimissyouiloveyouimissyou I hope you are well. I hope Igor is well. I miss him so so much even if he is a little ****. I hope he isn’t having more tummy troubles. I miss you so ******* much I wonder if maybe you miss me too…

when we gonna have this chat? and I don’t mean about werk.

thank you for the email... i am so happy we can still be connected if i move away :) thank you, i know you loves me.

please read my response and take it seriously. i don't think i can take another conversation of you talking about your "closed door" decision. i don't want to hear it anymore. i get it.

and i want to…

I don't know how you expect me to feel the same about someone I haven't seen in years!!

I gave you chances. If you genuinely wanted to talk or resolve anything, you had every opportunity to do so. I am not chasing a man, carrying everything alone or waiting around for someone who couldn't make his intentions clear.

You…

I got drunk, said goofy things. I had my birthday and as promised, I took a break from everything including you permanently. I feel so happy, I feel so free and light. I hope you never use my number; be clever, be wary, be good. ☯️♾️

I said come correct and it's obvious ur not ready for that. I leave with love and hope it may work out someday. But I can't put my health and safety at risk. I cant afford to care about u the same if we ever want it to work. It's obvious that ur not ready or willing to change. I'm not gonna wait on you to do my own…

I’m sorry I left the way I did.

The anger inside me felt like a burning fire. It was overwhelming, and it scared me. I was afraid I might **** ****** in that state. I needed distance, and I wish I’d found a gentler way to leave.

I know I said things you feel you didn’t deserve. I don’t even know anymore. I’m still…

Did my absence really affect you that much?

I feel it was you…

But I’m not sure either…

But I think it was…

Thinking and dreaming of you…

And how we’d eventually be together

✨🤍⭐️🫶💫🌟☀️🌹🌌

I hope that at some point we meet again as people that are capable of truly loving another person even if we aren't the people for each other at that time. I just want to be able to know that we've both grown up enough to actually handle the responsibility of another persons heart. I hate how we got to be with one…