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A lovely memory we shared popped into my head tonight . We had some special moments under the stars

And yikes

Yikes yikes yikes

Someone bury me in a hole

I’ve been so insensitive…

I’ll communicate better next time.

I’ll ask more.

I’ll check in more.

I’ll look more…

Words echo in my head In what seems like resounding waves I’m to much My kids are too much What do you really have to offer Connecting to what was said before You’re unattractive You’re too complicated I try use the good to block out the painfully true I’m smart I’m resourceful I can accomplish anything I set my mind…

Put something special in my coffee

Hope ur giggling

Yum yum

I’m still miles away from growth & healing…

He got caught up now he wanna lie instead of telling the truth and trying to flip the strip and be mad. Ya mad cause I know and u want to keep DENYING IT COWARD *** *****. Stand on ya ****! It’s called accountability. Cause ain’t no chains on that front door you can leave whenever you want. Do better sheesh 🙄 now u…

Did someone slip mushrooms in my coffee? Wth I feel giggly as **** for no reason like I’m actively sad and I’m holding back laughter and smiling. Maybe i entered psychosis to many times maybe it’s stuck around.

You’re the only one who actually cares about my past

My trauma

Why I am the way I am

I cried in the shower earlier thinking about that…

But I realize that being that eager is unattractive. And **** it doesnt even really matter because I already know where this road leads. But damn it was good to see you yesterday. Always looking fine af and ****.

and if i did i shouldve stopped writing all this bs here but did i?

Still, you linger in my thoughts , its been almost a year now, but still you linger in my thoughts. You take up the deepest places in my mind. Recently I went on a trip, it was an amazing trip, with an amazing woman! We had an epic time, but still you linger in my thoughts. I saw so many things you would have loved, I…

its been way too long. i'll be there later today. :)

So exactly what I thought you were doing. Said you were doing. How many weeks have you denied it now? Don't **** with me. I'll hurt your feelings. I am so over it. You're embarrassing.

I miss sharing music with YOU so much

Words are just words? Well let’s examine my ACTIONS then

I haven’t been with other men I’m creating LITERATURE about you

My actions reveal my thoughts Are about you

I am home every night…

I know exactly when it all went wrong for me and u. Remember when we first started talking? I was so crazy about you. I could never figure out if uwere serious or not. But then you texted me on Christmas eve. You needed your "teacher". U needed me. I came running too. The next day i didn't care about Christmas, all i…

I don't believe in God but you do. So whenever you're troubled I pray. Just hoping that whoever you believe in, believes in you too.

For the last few days, I’ve been writing letters to you. Letters about letting go. About moving on. About finally accepting that whatever this is, it has nowhere to go. I write everything I’m too afraid to say, then I read it back and delete it. Every single time. Because somewhere between writing I need to let you go…

Maybe it is time for me to let it go. Please do call or reach out I’d like to make peace I want good things for you and want you to have a good life even if I can’t be part of it. And I want that for me too.

If not please let there be peace I know that I do love you. 🫂

You are what you hate

I didnt get the texts but hey

You got your money.

But I need to know it’s you

I’ve reached out where I thought it was you

There were a couple of things this week that gave me hope despite the massive obstacles between us.

On days without you, I don't know what to do. I will try to distract myself…unsuccessfully. I hope you have fun. I miss you already. I want to text you but know I can’t. I want to hug you… but know I can’t

Thank you for…

You made a choice not a mistake.

I just want you to know that I still care about you a lot. Everything you’re dealing with and the mistakes you’ve made don’t suddenly change who you are to me or how much you mean to me. I don’t suddenly see you as a bad person because you’re struggling with these things. I just wish you knew that you don’t have to…

I know you wish I would just drop dead and I wish I could now too

I confided to you last year that I love you. Each time I try to brush it aside I know I’m not being true.. You and I were supposed to be set up. To be a couple, yet it didn’t work out that way.. There were other plans. I hoped for the best. I see so clearly now, that I have still loved you all this time. I have tired…

idk what is it about you that makes me miss you in a really intense way. I’m not looking to get you back, its just hard for me to understand how fast you moved on and forgot about me when you meant the world to me. That hurt. I’m just trying to move on. Idk how to move on and fill this hole in my chest, I feel empty…

But I really always have loved you

You caught my eye and I couldn't stop thinking about you. Your bright colors and contrasting patterns. I realize now that like the Dart Frog or the Blue Ringed Octopus, nature made your appearance extravagant as a warning but...

You are a poison that I would willingly consume again.

You blocked me from everywhere, I just wanted to come clean to you on WhatsApp but I guess you didn’t even read those messages. I don’t hate you. I won’t harm you. I have nothing against you My only crime was loving you. I am sorry for everything. I am hurting to lose you but I can’t force you to like me when you hate…

You shine brightly everywhere you go. You’re such an important person to me. You’re precious

I like you too much, that even people started noticing it, while I hope you did not. I desire you, and it makes me sick, I feel pathetic and easy. I hope these feelings would go away

Hey. It must be annoying to see my name. I promise this time it isn’t like the last. I’m happy you read this far, can you read farther? I was so mad, I was angry, and it was all of the wrong reasons. You got pregnant and had a kid. You told me that’s what you wanted in your 20’s. But I didn’t see myself being a father…

My beautiful best friend, wherever life takes you, I hope you never forget that you are loved, that you mattered, and that you made a real difference to someone.

my god do i miss you right now. i miss your warm hands that wandered across my skin and grasped me tightly like waves crashing over me. i miss your eyes that shined like a sparkling sea when they were filled with love for me. what i miss most right now is your kiss that enveloped me like the riptide that almost swept…

I’m sorry I can’t say happy birthday, I wish I could but I hope you get the message from afar. - from New York

How naive you are, guess you’re a bit dickmatized, can’t blame ya there skin queen but that’ll fade too. He will stop giving it after a few years if that because he gets bored. Not only that he’s completely fluent in lies, it’s impressive and he really only cares about number one but you’ll see that.

Someday you’ll get…

You are embarrassing and so much older than me . I hate your personality. I don’t want to get to know you.

It's been four hours now since I've wandered through your place And when I sleep on your couch I feel very safe And when you bring the blankets I cover up my face I do love you I do love you And when you play guitar I listen to the strings buzz The metal vibrates underneath your fingers And when you crochet I feel…

You are 40 years old claiming nobody could possible understand you because you’re so deep and dark and mysterious. It’s completely transparent that you want me to chase you even though you constantly come back cause the truth is I don’t have the care to raise you.

Be a real man and own who you are. I don’t have time…