Unsent Text Messages - Page 76

It’s difficult to communicate with you while also trying to manage my emotions and protect my peace. The good thing is that I’ve been doing well so far. The way I respond to your texts may come across as me not being interested in communicating, but in reality, this is what moving forward looks like for me. I’m…

it’s almost been three months since you decided you didn’t want to be with me anymore. you told me you still loved me, but that you believed it wasn’t the best thing for either of us. i know your parents had a lot of influence on that decision, and for a long time i was angry and confused about it. now, i understand…

Why would anybody stay,

if you too already had left?

But then again, why would they?

Only annoyance would they gain…

Was out all day and decided to stay unplugged to be more present

Yet all I could think of was you

I wish I didn’t miss you as much as I do

But I do…

You were right about the "time and distance".

The only thing that I miss about you now are the contents of your breeches. Sigh.

This too shall pass in a day or two.

If you want to see them add me back on snap.

i want you to hold me. i want you to wrap me up in your giant arms and just squeeze me. please just hold me. hold me and never let me go.

Dude I no you want absolutely nothing to do with me and I understand but I really think I need to clear the air on a couple things that I believe u think happened that didn’t and I have confess a couple things….. I miss tf outa yo….. I’ve moved on but miss the friendship…… I don’t wanna leave it where we did but I…

Maybe I’m not delusional completely… That felt more calculated… I still never got an answer that I’ve asked a few times are here … but I think your listening now ( or reading haha) do you think of me when you are alone after the porch light goes on … hmm

Okay okay sleep I need sleep . 😂

You walked away because you said you felt weird but I'm always here, just a message away. Not waiting, but worrying sometimes.

thank you, thank you so much for the email early this morning. I'm feeling so much relief. i was struggling so much with how tomorrow was going to go, but now i feel like i can be myself. I love and appreciate you so much :) i'm also looking forward to tomorrow. I've missed you everyday and it'll be so nice to talk in…

Hey Babe,

I have had a bad day, you know this already, you knew before I did.

I have to ask: How did you know? Don’t answer, I‘m not sure I even want to know.

I’m so ******* mad at myself right now. I tried to cut you off 3 times in 24hrs and every time you held firm „I‘m right here. Stop thrashing.“…

Have I crossed your mind even once? Have you tried to look me up like last time? Do you care how I’m doing? Did you ever care? Did I make this all up?

If you are going to wreck a home and a marriage at least check on the person. Don’t just wreck it and leave them. By themselves. SHOW. UP.! Call! Do SOMETHING

I caught you watching me doctor. Did I offend you? Did I not do my job right? Tell me what I did. Or didnt do?

Your an enigma I am not sure I want ro dive deeper into. Your my coworker and my superior.

I hate to sound cliche, but I like working underneath you.

I wish you understood how much it’s destroying me and how painful it is for me. You threw in my face that I don’t care and don’t feel pain, but that’s far from the truth. Sometimes I would rather die than carry this pain and regret with me. ****, I still love you so much. I wish that wasn’t our goodbye.

It’s been 3 months and 19 days. That’s 15 weeks and 6 days. That’s 111 days. (Angel number) That 2,688 hours. That’s 161,270. That’s 9,676,260..1..2..3..4 seconds. Since the last time you touched me. Since the last time you yelled in my face. Since you threatened me. Since you took what wasn’t yours. And never again..

its been way too long. i'll be there later today. :)

Have you had a moment forced the whole heart to grow or retract? Or just shrink. Does the heart shrink?

You have a Mexican twin. It’s actually very ironic. And I think I’ll let him take me on a date.

Don’t be mad

I just ate four ******* hot dogs in a row. I was so hungry. Four of them. Gone in a flash.

Finding a path to a future without you and re-finding myself. Not that I didn’t like who I was when with you but, you have forced my hand into being a new version of me. I would have never given up all those things that I had to dedicate myself to you should I have known you would just walk away without a second…

When we were together you entirely thought I was. For some odd reason you believed I was even before I told you what I was. I told you I wasn’t many times, and I fed into the lie because that’s what you wanted me to be. Though I don’t speak Spanish, I am Hispanic which you also knew, you just wouldn’t believe it…

I wish you’d reach out. I wish I didn’t think about you every single day. I am tired. I hope to walk these streets one day without remembering our hugs, our laughter, our first date. I can't even walk past the doorway where we kissed for the first time. I hate that I can’t erase those memories and walk through this…

Hey Bubba,

It’s been 34 days. I know I should’ve moved on by now, and honestly, I thought I had. I thought I was finally okay. But now that I’m alone with my thoughts again, I find myself missing you.

I miss the old you

The person I dated, the person I thought I knew. I miss your voice, even though I don’t get to hear it…

if there's a chance i might move away... sooner than you think... and we may only see each other in person a few times a year after that... i think we should start having some harmless fun. what do you think?

i think you'll enjoy it. you should get to know this side of me more.

With love.

I know we are no contact and I feel like **** about breaking it but I have on multiple occasions told you not to like anything that I could see because it makes me feel like **** and yet you keep on doing this. You keep doing this knowing it makes me feel worse and it makes me so incredibly mad at you because I can…

Ive decided to stop. Stop trying to get you to see me. Stop trying to talk to you and attempt to have a conversation. Im done hoping you'll come back one day. I wanted you in my life so badly, and you were able to leave and make a new one so quickly. I dont know what im going to do, and thats okay. Ill figure out my…

You came through. I've hated you enough now I'm working on indifference.And hopefully one day I have no emotions when I think of you or see you in passing because you are not someone worth my attention. You are nothing you are a mirror of what you projected upon me you are an empty shell that had to destroy me to feel…

if you have your opportunity in front of you, take a leap of faith and shoot your shot.

don't wait until someone has moved on to finally pluck up your courage and admit feelings....

it's not fair to them. or you.

take a chance at love when someone is fully available to receive you, not when they've already walked away…

I hate that I was vulnerable with you.

I hate that I gave you the benefit of the doubt.

I hate that I trusted you could like the raw unedited version of me.

I hate that I believed you even though they say when someone tells you who they are, believe them…

fight with me.

fight for us.

How many times and in how many ways must I tell you that I want you? I’ve had better first impressions. And second and third. But damn. What’s a girl gotta do to get a fourth? Don’t make me scale this mountain alone. Please don’t make me sad when I am finally marching around the bend to meet you. When I finally peak…

i wish i am born a girl in my next life so atleast i can get a chance to be your best friend.

or if i am born a boy, then atleast I be born handsome and your faviourite looking. definitely not this ugly ******* who keeps creeping you out and harassing you for no reason. I am really sorry and please accept my apology. I…

IM SORRY I KEEP OVERTHINKING I JUST MISS YOUR VOICE SM and I want you to call me and I know you probably have a lot on your plate and im sorry for being a lot right now I just feel like YOUR cheating on me and trust pleaseee can we just call and make ugly faces and talk about stupid games and shows PLEASEEE I know u…

Good girls get blocked, ******* are the love of his life. 🎤

When I met you, I fell so deeply in love that it was like it didn’t or couldnt feel possible, unless it happened to you ..like an undeniable force i couldn’t fully comprehend or explain.

And then the thing even more amazing is that when I looked into your eyes I seen that you felt the same way.. I noticed you to, were…

I wish things could go back to like it was. Those conversations The ones where we could talk about anything. How you used to say „I still feel something to you.” And how you used to say. „I’m not abandoning you.” I miss those daily calls or texts that you would just check up on me. I miss you being in my life. I miss…

I want to go to sleep.

i told you. I told you from the beginning not to say things you don’t mean. But you said them anyway. And eventually i began to believe you. I believed you when you said i was the one you wanted all along. I believed jt when you said you wanted a life with me. That was so scary for me. No one ever loved me like you…