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For the past month or so, I've been seeing commercials for this Stuffed French Toast they got at the IHOP.

I've really been wanting to try it, but haven't been able to bring myself to yet.

Really want the toast.

But it feels wrong without you.

Who have taken advantage of my help,

By leaking my truths,

For their own good.

Who have used and abused…

Did you keep the flower? 💙

I don’t understand why I can’t seem to get over you. After everything. I feel so much anger towards you and honestly I kind of ******* hate you… but also if you came to me and said your mind had changed and you wanted to pursue things with me… I’d say yes in a heartbeat.

I hate that you have that power over me. I hate…

It's been five and a half years, N. When we met, we were just kids. When we eventually went our different ways, we were barely adults. Now I have a fiancee, and you have a husband. You graduated with your bachelor's and moved 400 miles away. I dropped out of university and enrolled at a local community college. I…

I miss sharing music with YOU so much

listening to giveon. it makes me think about you. i miss you so much and all that we had. i wish you were here instead. i dream about you lately.

I am so sorry that things are going poorly for you right now, and it breaks my heart to see you in so much pain. I hate the thought that I might be complicating or adding to the issues you are dealing with, but blaming me for actions and choices that are yours isn't right, and it isn't going to help either of us.

I care…

Gotta be honest i miss your smile and making out with you lol

I don't know what happened between us I just want to know if you're alive

You've ghosted me for almost 3 months now I just want to know what's going on I miss talking to my friend

I hate you so ******* much for what you've done to me.

When I needed you the most, you weren't there. When I was already on the floor, barely holding myself together, you didn't help me up. You stepped on me and pushed me down even further. And somehow, you still expected me to give you everything.You always complained…

When you sent the text this Monday I thought you wanted to talk **** and disappear yet again. To say some final remark, to show how somehow against all odds, I had been a bad partner and friend. I immediately thought I had to make you talk. Only one way to do it. We met this Saturday.

I hadn't seen you yet and you had…

Someone to tell me I’m pretty. I kinda wish that someone could be you.

I am doing better , I am finally studying as you wanted me to. I am better than before. I wish you were here though.

Hello, the terrible demon on the threshold of the abyss. Perfect night for a (Q) Lazarus party.

Oh, I see you moved on very quick there. Yah Im still processing everything here. I wouldn't jump in with the first person that would have me to prove to myself someone still wants me. You know i cried my ******* eyes out when me and C broke up. I loved her but the mental instability was just too much. I didn't shed a…

holy shi it was sooo good today. i missed u a lot. i really cried after i reached home. cried a lot. hate it that we cant be together. we both did accept it but somewhere it still lingers. what if we were together? things wouldnt be like this right? anyways i missed u a lot and i love you toooooo.

I told u at the very start: i didn't even think anyone would want me. I didn't see why they would. Yah, i know, I'm great looking. I got a lot going for me sure. I make good money, i have good taste. Thats why i wanted u. You made me believe in myself again. You gave me my confidence back. And, tl thank you, i…

I miss being loved by someone.

Want me to come back? Want me to show up with flowers and cards. To try and win you over like I used to?

Do you ever miss my touch at night how I miss yours? Do you ever think about something funny and just wish to share it with me?

Things have changed. They’re very different now. I miss you megs.

T

But just in case I don’t want to, text me again, I deleted your number from my contacts and then deleted our messages so I wouldn’t be tempted to text you again 🫣🤪🤭💔😅🤨

D, It’s been weeks, and somehow, I still keep thinking about messaging you. There are so many times I’ve opened our conversation, wanting to say something, then stopped myself because I’m scared you won’t reply. I think that’s what hurts the most; the thought that maybe talking to me isn’t something you want anymore.

I…

All I know is how to **** a good thing up, Run from the pain, sip, smoke tree up. Hate when I creep and the phone wake me up, Fake like I’m sleep, knowing damn well I’m up. Monkey on my back and I walk a hundred miles, Guilt make me feel fake every time that I smile. Love can confuse the mind of a child, ‘Cause love…

Think about how much I love you, then think about our situation. You really are a lying monster

You said you would wait.

You said you understood

You said take my time

So I've been doing the work…

I know I need to let go .. but it’s hard to forget you.

I’m just so glad this served as a daily reminder how much of an idiot I truly was.

They would reach out the instant they knew I was hurt to make amends. They would seek to soothe my pain and we would grow closer from the mending.

I would break the promise I made to talk to you but I think you might have heard me when I said it. I mean not that it really matters because a promise is a promise. so now if I break it then ill look like a liar and not even be able to explain myself to you about everything or maybe you didn't hear me at all and im…

If the connection was so rare and I was willing to work with you then why was it so easy for you to give up?

I read your txts again and all I see is your assumptions. If you really felt something rare why would you want to throw it away over something that can be worked out?

That day we saw each other last I wanted to…

But I need to know it’s you

I’ve reached out where I thought it was you

I can’t wait to see you later. I’m so nervous. I’m so ridiculous. I hope we have a great time… fun, laughter and a huge warm hug that lasts for like ten minutes.

This person who looks so much like you isn’t you. In fact I think it’s makes me sick to think about who you were and I wonder what I did to deserve this

Please stop using her as a distraction and focus on yourself like we promised. I know if we both keep growing we can still go see all the parks and birds together. Just come home when you’re ready please.

It’s a funny realisation, that when we ended I would have wished you the best, let you move on, accepted I was mad at the end. I never tried to destroy your life or make everyone hate you even though you were completely and unrelentingly terrible, trying to keep me down so you could me around.

But you not once could…

That’s no reason to put you down though, I didn’t get a total Ick, but I felt my feelings got hurt, but I can deal with that. It’s my own fault. You’re just living your life, I’m the only reason I have these feelings of admiration for you Darin. You deserve the best, because you’re a good man, with a lot on your…

I still do, just from afar now I guess. I can’t seem to get past it yet. It’s hard going from loving someone to trying to put that love in past tense because you’re not here anymore.

I loved your smile and the way the corner of your eyes crinkled when you were happy. I loved your laugh and especially when I was the one…

Did my absence really affect you that much?

I feel it was you…

But I’m not sure either…

But I think it was…

Hey J, I meant the thank yous

My last message to you where I listed every way you hurt me started by thanking you for each one wasn’t meant to make you feel bad. I meant every thank you.

I left our roller coaster with appreciation for the good and the bad. I chose myself instead of waiting for you to choose me.

However…

how are you?

I hope you’re doing well.

Along with the pets. I hope they’re giving you lots of trouble.

Anyways,