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)you're haunting my dreams)

i can feel all the unspoken things you're desperately trying to tell me without telling me

(i miss you so much)

we're intertwined, and i sense the disturbance in the force…

It's October 7 and I'm just thinking about you. I hope you're able to do something for him still. I remember that picture you showed me when he was a baby. Cutest freaking kid!

Also, I really hope your days get a lot better 🩵

Where did you go? I wish you could know me And I wish I could know you much more sometimes. Willing and able to… Dm me - G

How are you?

Is it normal that I still miss her, after 4 long years?

I still think about the memories I had with her, I still imagine that she will come back to me, because ang huling message na natanggap ko sa kanya , she promise that if eventually ok na lahat ,she will come back to me

Oh that smile of yours J, i cant…

I just wish I knew why after 2 months you reach out and we have good conversation, yet when I initiate, I get no response? It’s hurtful and honestly just confusing to me as to why come back around at all if you didn’t actually want to talk. Was it to just see if I’d still respond to you? You have to know what you’re…

I’ve finally let you go.. My heart has been broken for a few years now. This last half year has been the worst of it. Watching you build your new life without me has been a pain I would never wish on anyone.

I’m ok though. I’m actually really good. Life goes on. I can be ok and still miss you. I guess that’s part of…

Cause I knew I’d always miss you and always let you back in. It’s strange because though I love deeply, I’m good at letting go those who have wronged me time and time again. But for some reason you’ve always had a pull on me. It’s dangerous at this point. I have too much to focus on. I just wish somehow, someway, you…

Hard pass to you know who, he who must not be named and any other ******** he associates with. I am far from interested in you and what you have to offer, it's not worth it. I hate that DUDE with all my heart anyway so please save your time and energy and maybe salvage the low opinion I have of must you at this point…

The illusion of what you’ve done. Hollow and shapeshifting, reflecting my best qualities and wearing them like a mirror. Using my words and my depth to prop yourself up. You might not be exposed yet. You might of pretended like you changed but you are the same person as you always have, I understand now when you said…

I'll find myself a quiet place. I need four walls and a TV set. To keep me safe when life comes around. I'm ******* brain cells one at a time. In my house and no one comes around. I swear I never feel this down. I get high and forget everything. Tell my friends I'm getting closer to God. That ****** knows I try so…

It's hard to appreciate the starry night sky. They just remind me of your shining bright eyes. Missing your voice at night time. Separation is such a sad crime. Who knows. Maybe there isn't a vein of stars spelling out our names.

It's been so long. I know I've changed a lot, and I’m sure you have too. I sometimes wonder what a conversation between us would look like now. Would we still want each other.

I used to just care about physical compatibility. Because this wasn’t for romance. But after you, it feels like everyone else is just a fraud. They don’t understand me the way you do. You would just look into my eyes and know what I am thinking or feeling.

Do you even miss me? I hate this so much.

I love you, but I don’t want to wait years to get engaged, then another two years to get married, and then another year to start trying for kids. If you’re talking about possibly proposing in five years, that could easily turn into eight years before we even start a family. That’s almost a decade, and I don’t want to…

I have so many questions that I know I’ll probably never get answers to.

Did you ever actually love me? Or was all of it just an act to you?

How did you change so drastically? How did someone who once made me feel so wanted become someone I can’t even reach anymore? And why do I still miss you when I’m so angry at you?

I…

I feel like everything has truly crumbled apart for me. I really tried to do my best. In everything. My best is never and will never be truly good enough. The process isn’t even fun. I feel so ******* tired crawling through life. It’s hard. The payoff is next to none. I have nothing to look forward to, and I’ve tried…

I know you all know the real me and you’ve probably started noticing what a manipulative lying pos I am turning into.

One who’s selfish, cold and in a constant state of melancholy.

I am scared ******** , but this is something I did to myself. I don’t want to cause anymore hurt.

All of you mean the world to me, and I…

I don’t know what to say, just can I see you? Can we talk? I just need to see it in your eyes, if you’re truly happy.. I hope you are.. I know the silence is my answer, right? I have pick myself up and move on. Your happiness is all that matters to me..

I’m tired of always being the one making the effort for someone who barely makes any. I keep showing up, caring, trying, and giving you my time, while you leave me on read for three days like it’s nothing. I’m done chasing basic consideration. I deserve the same energy I give. Bye.

i wonder how you've been sleeping. probably as well as me, i bet. i have a feeling you're still checking your phone first thing in the morning. it's nice to wake up to a loving note, isn't it? this post doesn't really have a point. just wanted to let you know i really miss you. and i asked the ball of universal energy…

I want to see you

T

To go back would be to make things right To know what to say and what not to say Not to drink and obsess so much on whether you’d pick up a new girl I feel replaceable, I always did But in the end it was my undoing I push away as far as I can so no one will come back I always picked at the things that I lacked and…

It seems this whole time you’ve been trying to seem like a mystery and I fell for it. You’re no mystery you’re just a sad boring old man. That’s why I like you. That’s why I’ve always liked you but you insist on needing to be too mysterious to ever be known but I like you already

you are ten gallons short of a hat.

you like to pretend i did something terrible to you so that people take your side when we fight, but at this point your accusations are so pathetic and stale that it's really just the same two people fellating you for the same stupid stuff they've always fellated you for and it's…

The clock keeps ticking and time seems to blend together I feel alone in a crowded room I look for you in places I know I’ll never find you because honestly it’s easier than facing the truth of it all . He wanted something different from day one , he hasn’t been happy . And I’m left here wondering what the hell went…

I’m so ******* tired of how I’ve been treated. I would have moved the world for you. When you were hurting, I cared. When you were scared, I wanted you to feel safe. I tried to understand you, give you space, forgive, reassure, and constantly look at what I could do better. And somehow I ended up feeling like my own…

Just once i wiah you would apeak to me. One laat time. I aaw you look away with tears in your eyes. I kmow you thought i would come back but honestly...why would i? I saw rhe game. You know I saw it. I know I'm not perfect. But i would never speak about another woman in front of you. You knew i wanted to f-ck K. I…

A question has been on my mind for a while.

At what point does one's actions become unforgivable? Is it possible to understand that I've changed? Have you? Am I capable of forgiving you? Are you capable of doing the same for me?

Sometimes I hope the answer will be like a lighthouse finally navigating this ship to…

I know its not my business anymore but i cant help but ask. I dont want to be the girl stuck on you while youre courting another. Every time i think about texting you, i imagine youre with another girl and you rolling your eyes at the notification. It sets me right in the moment but the long term effects that has on…

The hardest thing with accepting the position you’ve allowed yourself to be in, isn’t that you’ve moved on with the woman I knew you would. It’s that I won’t ever get the chance to truly apologize. And maybe it’s me who was always the problem but you could never imagine who I ever felt. What’s also sucks is you will…

continue taking me for granted and you will see who i become to you. i think you've mistaken my love for weakness. what a shame. i'm not surprised-- you're not the best at reading people anyway.

With love.

Would you still be alive? I‘m sorry. So sorry.

there was a bed rep guy today and idk if he was flirting or not, but he said..”I hope the next time I see you, you’re moved up in the company. You have a lot of potential. See you at the round table.”

You got it sir. Don’t wait for me. 🫡

This is why I work so hard. all of this will pay off one day.

How long was this engagement going on for? You claimed you cared so much and loved me and couldn't live a week without me. Then boom This almost a month later. Where and what are your morals at? Especially after almost 3 years.

I really wanted to try again with you, I think you knew how much I liked you. Maybe that was the problem, you thought I’d wait forever in the background just in case.

If you ever wanted to genuinely come back into my life I’d still welcome you

🔔

Someone gave me some drugs and now instead of a clear path it’s blurred. I can see the end I could always see the end but like any good book it’s the stuff between that I typically can also see. Pondering the orb to figure out the messes I’ve made along the way. I need to figure out when politics got mixed up. Maybe…

Hi there C. There are so many tremendous things I’d like to share with you but obviously can’t. There are so many days I speak to you hoping you can feel the words.

You moved on, and that’s ok I understand. Although I miss you more than you probably know. You helped me navigate and recover from some of the darkest…

You are embarrassing and so much older than me . I hate your personality. I don’t want to get to know you.

I'm sorry, but I don't have reciprocal romantic feelings for you. Just genuine friendship. But it's gotten strange.

If you actually had genuine feelings for me well you have a really weird way of showing it. I'm trying to change and changing I am. I need some peace in the day without you lambasting my DMs with…