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That I still think about u almost everyday. And I miss our friendship a lot. I wish we could’ve gotten closer and that we could’ve had more fun times together. I hope u are happy now wherever u are. I’ve been carrying this deep ache inside me since we stopped being friends and I’ve been struggling to let u go.

he asked me why i love you so much. i don't have an answer. should i? if i had one, would it still be love?

i love the way you treat me. i love the way you're so honest with yourself and me and everyone else. i love the way the sun makes your hair kindof reddish, sometimes, you know? like mine, but a slightly more…

"My life got better when I realized I didn't have to be nice. Nice got me used, stressed out and disrespected. I'm not nice. I'm a good person. There's a difference."

And I think a healthier way to frame this is:

My life got better when I learned to balance kindness with self-respect. Being considerate is important, but…

You make me think I am hard to love.

water has no effect on fake flowers

and that changed my entire mindset

regarding relationships.

Shoulda, woulda and coulda are really messing with me.

nothing I did was ever good enough 😔

The older I get, the more I realize that someone making time for you is one of the clearest signs they care. Everyone is busy. Everyone has responsibilities and their own battles to fight. So when someone consistently chooses to spend their time with you, checks on you, and makes space for you in their life, it means…

I would like to see you

And make sweet

hot

Sweaty…

From now on, I dont need to impress anyone but myself. **** yall.

Do I ever cross your mind? Do you ever miss me like I miss you? Does it even matter? I was rejected by you so many times that I lost count.

Hey Gurl…Hope your week is going well…miss talking to you. You are on my mind. I can feel that you’re hurting or something is off.

if i did, i'm sorry. i know i'm a lot to deal with...

I can't do this. I can't go to work like this. Please I’m sorry, come back.

I’m sorry I screwed things up. I always do. I wish I could get you out of my head. You don’t have to reply.

is a long time without you

😔

Are you happy? are you good? do you eat well? so you sleep well? do u ever regret leaving me for her? did u stop drinking and become a good familly man? Those are questions that i wonder often, even after so long time, i want it to stop, im tired carrying this trauma all by myself, while you probably never think of me…

I'm your worst nightmare. You don't know it yet. But I'm more evil than you know. I'm the pain you carry, I'm the laughter you lose. And when you think to yourself, why did that happen. Then know that it's me

Idk why but i was thinking about when u quit work. I asked for weeks prior, are you sure you're ok with this? Why would i care? You said. Well because I'm going to be standing there talking to a pretty and younger woman all night. It won't be just all about you anymore. I didn't know it at the time, but this began a…

Have a tarantula together? I think we'd be good tarantula parents >/////< just thoughts while I get drunk with your dad

I have PTSD. Like I actually lost my mind for a moment there, I’m not even exaggerating. This isn’t being over dramatic, I want you to really sit there for a second and re read this, do you even know how bad it got. All because I cared, about YOU. All because I wanted to be HEARD. All because I wanted to be SEEN. I…

Have you had a moment forced the whole heart to grow or retract? Or just shrink. Does the heart shrink?

I’ve said some really horrible things to people I cared about. Not because I hated them. Not because I actually meant every word. I said them because I was angry. And somehow that makes it worse. Because they were just words to me in that moment, but they might have become memories for someone else. Maybe someone went…

I only still talk to you to try to prevent your inevitable downward spiral to the pits of hell...for our kids..I was in love with the thought. The good times. Our family.

I know you are a horrible person. The lies. Me taking a DNA test to confirm my 5 year old is mine. The "I will **** myself if you dont" BS. Forcing…

But I rly rly rly need my pendrive back

PLEASE .

You've officially been out of my life longer than you were in it. I swore I was gonna marry you, I dreamt of you since I was a little kid. The day i met you wearing your red shirt and cargo pants, those cute bangs of yours. Now you'll forever just be a memory, the love of my life. I love you HKG

I tire of this. Just don't come near me and I won't come near you from now on, no *** for tat whatever. I'm not interested and you're not interested. Let's just leave it at that. Doubt we see each other much anymore anyway.

Just keep a mild distance between me when I'm talking with others, so I don't have a bad time…

if you still think about me

😔

im coming to terms with the fact that our time together was not memorable for you or that i just wasnt good enough for you to not give up on and replace so easily. i rly wish u didnt yell at me on our last walk or let us talk it out after, i just wasnt able to process seeing u like that yet and with finals at the same…

If I ever got to look into your eyes again, I think I would just cry. I know the second I looked I’d finally feel home again. You’re my home. I’ve been out in the cold on my own too long.. I just want to go home one last time.

It's hurt that you are ignored by everyone, it's hurt even more that you are ignored by that one person who know that's your fear. You didn't ask for love, you didn't ask for solace just one thing one litte that " please i have been ignored my whole life by everyone. Can you please be the one person that won't ignore…

i officially got my first instate interview!! i'm so excited! more excited than you think hehe ;) but i'll tell you that tomorrow. i'm so happy to already have 3 interviews and we're only into the first week of October. Excited to see what else pops up over the next 2-3 months.

i hope you understood where i was coming…

It's my favourite colour scheme...because of course it would be 😂

Your goal was never to hurt me, but instead you left me hurt and traumatized. You did it, you really did. You broke me, left me when all I wanted was you, and I loved you so ******* much. I would have done anything for you. But ever since February 10th, I haven't been me. Just a shaddow of myself hurting crying and…

One of the things mentioned in your bio is that you like women who know what they want. Well what if I want another man? I know exactly who. But he’s terible for me. Euphoric and poisonous. Like all the best things that I’ll never do again

You are in my heart

You shall be in there forever

My greatest wish is that you are happy when you think of me

I am when I think of you .

When i want to just sit down and dwell in sadness i've been working on still completing my tasks for the day. BOW hacked my account for months. How crazy do you have to be to claim you are on top of the world abd still make time to illeagally go throug someones accoubts and making then miserable and soy your moving on…

I’m sorry for the posts here but I just needed to see something, anything. Whether it’s coincidence, the universe’s will, or that you did actually see them - I’m sorry for the means but thank you for giving me an indication you are alright. Thank you, I love you.

A moons shadow falled between us two. Maybe i should go camping today?

I miss you.

And I think what makes this so ******* hard is that I don’t just miss whatever happened between us romantically. I miss being your friend. I miss talking to you. I miss hearing your random thoughts and your weird stories and your gaming adventures. I miss your sense of humor. I miss your voice and your…