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You had as much to tell me as I have to tell you. I wish you wanted to talk to me as much as I want to talk to you. I wish you wanted me as much as I wanted you.

You didn’t want to loose me. Then you said you will take the chance of losing me. So I walked away then you came. You said that it drove you crazy n now you love me. But I think you’re truly losing me after this weekend. What do you think? I would have stood by you no matter what & i never used you like the others…

Hey, you.

Give me all your past exam papers so I can study for mine this year.

Oh and, if you're free, can you text me? I'm bored.

And can you teach me **** like the old days…

I really am. For all I’ve done, for not communicating better, for destroying you. I hope you end up leading a happy life. I wish you nothing but success and I’m sure you’ll achieve it. Please, be happy.

that you sent me a few weeks ago again. Goddamn, you’re so hot. You’re miles past beautiful. Too bad you’re 2,409 miles away but maybe it’s best that way.

I really miss you. I really don’t think it would’ve been impossible to come out the other side of this…together. I don’t know if I could’ve done more. I really tried my hardest.

So much has happened recently that I wish you could’ve been a part of. Kind of just feels like a stark reminder that you aren’t anymore…and…

In the end, I learned that loving you and having you were two different things and God, how I wish they weren’t.

)you're haunting my dreams)

i can feel all the unspoken things you're desperately trying to tell me without telling me

(i miss you so much)

we're intertwined, and i sense the disturbance in the force…

I’m honestly scared of how you’ll react. But I’m still hoping we get the chance to talk because there’s something I’ve been carrying for a while. I just want to be honest with you and finally tell you how I truly feel.

I will always love you. You are every thought in every second of my day. I know I hurt you, and I’m truly sorry. You said you wanted to try again in the next life, and I agree.

Want you 24/7. You seem to have this hold on me. Why tho? You feel the same way about me? **** I hope so!

That I’m left picking up the pieces. That I have to go to therapy. That I had to start over. That I cried myself to sleep for so long I forgot when it started. That I think of you everyday. That you get to move on and forget. I’m left here. Having to start from ground zero.

I think somewhere I would have to bring (NaHCO)3.

It hurts so much to be hurt like this by you. Youre making a mistake, but youre also making it so that ill never trust you again. Please stop this before I can only throw up when i simply think of you. PPlease stop doing this to yourself. Youre turning into a ******* monster and theres no way out once you do. Please…

I’m ******* done. This is too hard. I’m tired of feeling everything this intensely and having absolutely nowhere for it to go. Sometimes I envy The Vampire Diaries — how they can just say, turn it off, and suddenly they don’t feel anything anymore. God, I wish it were that easy. I wish I could switch you off. Switch…

A wound caused by someone you love and trust is a wound that hurts worse than one caused by an enemy or stranger. It lingers because the one you'd normally turn to for comfort is the one that caused it. I'm sorry. I wish I knew how to help you heal.

I hope when we breaks your heart, it shatters into a million pieces like you did to mine. But we both know that youll be at fault for its end. Because you always **** up everything good.

I hope it hurts. I wish nothing but the worst.

Your friends are your friends. My friends are my friends. This principle will stick

When you sent the text this Monday I thought you wanted to talk **** and disappear yet again. To say some final remark, to show how somehow against all odds, I had been a bad partner and friend. I immediately thought I had to make you talk. Only one way to do it. We met this Saturday.

I hadn't seen you yet and you had…

Not a day goes by where I don’t think about you. Every hour that passes I’ve thought about you over and over again. My life still feels vacant without you here. I’m kind of scared, I feel myself slowly losing comfort in the things I used to enjoy. Some days just feel pointless overall. Every now and then I still…

i hope you sleep really well tonight.

we didn’t talk much today- partially because i’ve been busy, but probably because you didn’t want to disturb me… you could never actually disturb me. my days get better the moment you message me, please do that more.

but for now, good night. i appreciate you endlessly. you are my…

I'm s sorry for being the knife. I'm sorry for loving you by another man's name. I'm sorry for the way we met and the time we met in. I'm. Endlessly. Sorry for any pain I caused and any regrets or scars I've left behind. Endlessly sorry. X. X.

I am not sorry for getting to know you. I'm not sorry for holding your hand…

There you go are head down in your phone again, bing! another reply, tippy tap, tippy tap! your response, bing! and another reply. You must think I was born yesterday to think I don’t know what you are doing but hey “He’s only a friend,” you say. This deceitful side of you, I never thought I’d see, is ugly and it is…

1 month of detox from you, from seeing you, touching you, kissing you. 1 month of you being completely emotionally unavailable, rude, drunk, horrendous, spiteful. After 4 years of hurt and heartbreak, misery, blows to my self-esteem... this 1 month showed me that I am actually going to be okay. It still hurts. But I…

Completely honest, didn’t hold back

The not really knowing, the not being able to ask the questions, the pretending that I’m ok, the grief that I have to hide, the not being human, not being me.

I’m not what you wanted and I can’t fake it because I like being me.

I’m not what anyone wants and I can’t fake it like everyone else does.

But at least I tried…

I write things I could never say to you. I leave them anonymously, somewhere among thousands of other beautiful and heartbreaking words, and for a little while I let myself believe that maybe, somehow, you might stumble across mine. Maybe you’d read a sentence and pause. Maybe something in it would feel strangely…

I write things I could never say to you. I leave them somewhere anonymous, hidden among thousands of other words, and for a few minutes I pretend you might somehow find them. That you might read them and recognise yourself in every sentence. It’s the only place I let myself tell the truth. But today I had a thought…

Im not as smart as you may think I am. Or I am and im scared. Can we cut the ********. And can I ******* see you damn it.

Im tired of playing games. And why your hiding from me? I don't get it.

Please for the love of God. Just walk into the room im in and say " Hello Love, want to take a walk?"

And ill gladly leave that…

**** I hate that you had to make it forever we couldn't have just ****** every now and then hell

I gave you the most love, and in return, you left me with the most hurt. Ouch.

your face something wicked today. the way youd smile coming up the steps to let me in.

im suppose to hate ya and most days i do.

stumbled into our old professional messages.

no wonder we went for it…

even recognize each other anymore

we didn’t know each other

we just sleep walked together

for a strange moment in time.

The pain and suffering I’ve felt these past 3 months after the betrayal and discard, have left me shattered. I’ve never experienced so much pain and confusion. Yet I still love you and think of you every minute of every day. I wasn’t perfect but I didn’t deserve the way you went about things. And to block me and never…

Something I never got the chance to say.

Its 930pm. I'm taking the kids for ice cream. When we get back, I'm gonna excuse myself for a few hours.

I'm gonna come by your place. I'm willing to bet the farm, double down on it, that all hell will break lose.

I'm not stupid like you need me to be.

Don't be offended come Monday when I blow you off. 0

****, I wish I could call you to read to me!

I wish you understood how much it’s destroying me and how painful it is for me. You threw in my face that I don’t care and don’t feel pain, but that’s far from the truth. Sometimes I would rather die than carry this pain and regret with me. ****, I still love you so much. I wish that wasn’t our goodbye.

You had a voice that could charm cobras out of their pots. 🐍🏺👳‍♂️🪈It was beautiful and I really do miss you. A friendship it wasn’t but a hit of dopamine for suuure . I really do pray l you’re happy and well, even though I know we won’t speak again . I’m so sorry I hurt you and I love you so much. You made a…

I’m happy if you’re happy… even if that’s without me..💔