Unsent Text Messages - Page 86

I'm doing ******* great without you. I made it through the horrendous divorce and financial hole you put me in. I have a house now, I'm more than financial stable and I'm better than I've ever been. My dogs don't remember you, and I literally never think about you at all except when I passed by an abandoned Winnebago…

Despite myself, despite you hurting me…

I only want you to text or call or anything.

I’m not even motivated to move at this point I’m shutting all the way down. I’m depressed I hate this please please please come back

I licked the moon’s essence And drenched myself in his light.

Comforted by his lies, I sacrificed my flower nectar.

Devoured by his eyes.

I left with pain between my tights And a heart no longer alive.

Yet I want to settle back into it. I want to make your problems my business again and I want to ease your troubled body.

I wanted to ask you what was wrong the other night, you seemed so upset. Do you still not want to share what was on your mind that made you upset? I don’t want to pry or bother you with it all but it…

I’m sorry.

I hope the new house is becoming everything you dreamed it would.

I’ve thought about you probably 90% of my time spent awake since we last talked/saw each other.

I have anxiety thinking about what it would be like to run into you in public, something that is likely eventually given your recent move…

Time was an issue for us last time, then I told you how I felt. I told you that I'll wait for you... As I believe you are my forever. Now a few years later, you text me out of the blue. I felt butterflies as soon as I seen it. The happiness and joy that I felt once we spent time together once again. It's like the…

Hey there, my lovely ghost, the one who haunts me in the wee hours.

When my eyes open, it feels as though the doors to my soul are calling out to you. I wonder about those myths that say when someone thinks of you, you think of them too. Perhaps this isn't insanity after all.

Maybe that's why my prescription isn't…

D,

how messed up is it that I can spend the night with such a great guy and then go home and think about you? why am I still thinking about and wanting someone that I meant nothing to? I just want to be released from this mental prison but you are always there in my mind lurking.

K

Don't you miss me?

I hate this.

I know it’s ridiculous, but sometimes I get this sick feeling in my stomach now that you aren’t in my life and I search to make sure you didn’t like die or something. I get so freaked by your silence especially after how long it’s been since you’ve said anything and then I go down like a 2 minute panic attack rabbit…

We haven’t been together in almost 2 years now and yet here I am wondering what went wrong. I thought about texting u a bit ago, just to say I made it. You always said I wouldn’t make it in the army, well guess what mf. I made it and I’m thriving now. I’m happier now than I ever was when we were together. But why do I…

Don’t be angry or impatient The silence between us will end soon I don’t want it to continue either I never wanted it at all

Just stay grounded Like you always told me Breath In quick and out slowly Keep your hands at your hips and shake the violently while bending at your kneez.

Calm your mind and relax your body Trick…

I hope you see this. I was at a texaco gas station in Johnson city Tennessee. You had the hood up on your car and asked if i could help you. You had beautiful straight black hair and said you needed to put oil in your car but couldn't get the cap off. Afterwards we were talking and u ended up giving me a bj behind the…

What was so special about you? Was it that that period of time i was so hallow and hungry for human attention?

...

What happened really between us? What was that all about?

Please tell me if you have a good answer.

The despair I felt when I knew you would never be mine.

When I saw your story after homecoming I paused because of how beautifal you were

I have liked you for so long

I yearn for her more than I have ever yearned…

Smiling at the stupid memories I have with you and I crave those stupid, real moments with you again.

I look back and they were so few. the sadness hits me, tears start to form, but I'm still smiling remembering them all.

I really wanted forever with you, darling. I still do.

Thinking of you tonight and hoping you're…

why did you do that to me? i didn’t deserve it

I am walking away from this entirely

I am washing my hands of this weirdness

Once and for all You don’t exist, your just an idea

I created this fixation in my head, and now I am choosing to dissolve it…

ever since they got rid of the stuffed chicken marsala, I haven’t been back. If I go to Olive Garden, I want a ******* heart attack with my endless salad and breadsticks.

Pasta Cafe?

Hi, I have a few things to get off my chest.

I notice that when you’re mad at me, your eyes start to wonder. It’s almost like you’re like for your next “victim”. Someone to numb the pain while healing your bruised ego.

One thing about me is I don’t sugar coat ****. I’m going to tell you about yourself especially when…

Have fun in TO this weekend. I know you are going to a concert, but lets be honest we both know you really just want to pet the stingrays at the aquarium. I got tickets to the Sens game next week. You should come, see a hockey game before you move across the world. Let me know. Have a great weekend.

we talked we laughed we cried or i cried

I need to let go of what I can’t change.. and give everything to what I can. I can’t change how you feel but I can control myself or I like to think I can so I’m going to try seeing if this is just a feeling that will never leave and accept it and bury it or see if it can change. Only time will tell.

every time i scroll past the pictures of you i have saved in my gallery, my breath leaves me like a punch in the gut.

i really miss you, dude. i want my friend back.

I caught the last one, I’ll catch the next one too, it’s all being noted. I meant it when I told you to leave me alone. Now I get to go away on holiday again. Try not commit another crime while I’m gone. There was a time I loved you, probably still do. My version of help is just not ruining your life. Shocking I know…

Sometimes I look at you and just feel sad. Not because I’m sad about us now, but because I’m sad about everything we had to go through to get here. I hate that we had to hurt each other so much before we found our way back. I love you. I love our little life, our stupid laughs, our plans, and knowing you’re the person…

I feel like we both lost who we were in the relationship

After you spent years with me and 7 years with someone else, all the while I missed you everyday.

When that relationship ended, we tried again

How foolish of me…

Three weeks, J. I know you’re hurting just as much as I am. How could you? I miss you every single day. I threw up when you broke it off. I spiraled. I lost sleep. I missed work.

Did you lose sleep, too?

I got your note in the box of my things you sent back. I want to write you a letter but every time I do, the anger I…

The coast is beautiful, but going to be busy. I'm not staying still, or silent. I would write heaven and earth of the things that have happened to me, the thing's people have said, done and not done. I'm better than that, and I'm better than them. That's the sad thing. Their eyes were diverted, and their attention…

Be part of a three

If there needs to be

Please take me out of the equation

I’d rather be…

Hey. I just want you to know that I now realize how silly it was for me to keep hoping that maybe you would pick me. God. I feel so pathetic. It makes me feel gross to think about how many times I made you say it over and over again how you don't choose me. Especially after convincing me to commit to you! Goodness.

If I…

I can see a lot of the constellations tonight.. well after being blind for 10 min but still lol

Hey Batman I walked in the rain today it made me think of you And how everything I learned early this morning about you It got me thinking were the same it turns out it’s not the same condition but something that can drastically impact our love lives in really ****** up ways It got me a little scared I’m scared that…

Any luck so far?

Keep it up, because I have faith in you.

Not giving in and calling you has been really difficult...

But remember- you have my number too…

to cater to YOU

what YOU may be comfy with

what YOU want

so giving an opening is selfish now…

in a deadbeat father with three children. before you run your mouth about me, think about your life first. Stay the **** away from my family.

i like a man who's not afraid to explode his problems

or if you even cared. but you didn’t. and your text back to me said so. i was hoping that you would fight. fight for me. fight for this. but you didn’t.

I catch myself checking my phone for a message that isn’t ever coming.

I was so happy to have you back in my life and hopefully vice versa. But the way you just let it…

I got blackout drunk the night you told me. I said I would never do that. I know you don’t want me to do that still but it’s finally my life now. I ******* loved it. Loved every second. You were scared, you’ve seen it ruin people and didn’t want that to happen to me. I smoked some weed too. It’s been three weeks but…

I want to lose my virginity to you. If not then I’m out.