Unsent Text Messages - Page 2

No harsh feelings if you don’t take it, but I’m not setting myself up for hurt again. Hope you understand. ❤️

Ashton,

I have said it before, numerous times now, that I've constantly had this suspicion that you have written to me, but I also admit that it's not only possible, but more likely, that it's not you. It's the shear number of coincidences and the length it has gone on that gives me pause on accepting the latter.

More…

Thank you for being you. Spending the day with me. Listening. Always showing up. Being somone i can count on. Finally l trying me breathe knowing somone has my back. Ive been doing s*** alone for a long time and you definately showed me something. You always keep your word and you always make time. I’ll never forget…

I want to see you

T

I can't. I just can't anymore. Please reach out. Please let me know that you miss me too. Please oh God please! I can't take this pain anymore. NOTHING is working. NOTHING! I need you. I need us to talk. I need to feel your words uncover me. I need to touch you deep inside with my words.

PLEASE!

Will likely be you. Maybe u won’t think me so weak if I explain my reasoning..

I don’t know if u have really acknowledged that it’s because of me you are free from your night terrors and frequent anxiety and even though the pills the doctor that I encouraged you over and over again to go see, helped and that you…

Sitting here in bed eating mini muffins and you came to mind. You let me have all the snacks in bed. I miss that 🙃

every time i scroll past the pictures of you i have saved in my gallery, my breath leaves me like a punch in the gut.

i really miss you, dude. i want my friend back.

You once asked me "you would let me take you right now?" . At the time the answer was no. Since letting you go though, the answer is yes. I would take one night with you, breathlessly calling your name, than having to spend my life getting so close and never having you. I want the memory of just one night, of…

I m sorry you are hurting More so its my fault

I hope you can sleep and sweet dreams come.

You’re looking for me in another girl and im looking for a man thats nothing like you.

I really want to get over you but I don’t know how to

I have loved people who only wanted my flowers never asking what it took to keep my roots alive

..you were the first to water the soil

Washing machine? Me? No babe, she was referring to you. You're kissing is just like the spin cycle. Circling your tongue repeatedly in her mouth. Wonder why we didn't kiss much? 🤔

I guess that's what you get for calling her a burrito 🤔😆😂🤣

Scanned through all of them to see if something weird was lurking. Just dogshit music taste. You’re either lurking or you aren’t. But if you are, send word through legal channels and give me back my kindle and my ornaments and the rest of my s***. Sheriffs, obviously, but let me remove all of us from your house PLEASE.

You Try to come back to me Not because you cared about me but you realized no other man cared about you the way I did that’s why when you tried to call me a couple of times I just watched it ring How dare you break me and try to return

I’m all set Goodbye

Why can't you tell the truth to me?

What kind of monster hides so easily?

I search your eyes for something real,

But all I find is what you conceal…

So i was just sitting here, eating some ice cream and some fell off the sppon and went in my flip flops. Then i realized this is your favorite ice cream, strawberry cheese cake. You used to eat all the graham cracker out of it tho. It made me mad but i didn't care bc i loved you yk. That was ny favorite part too…

You want to know the dirtiest fantasy I ever kept? Things I imagine of you, from which stratospheres I have lept...

I'll tell you.

I imagine being able to keep you, and call you \mine/... To hold you tightly, for whatever sort of eternity that may exist in this place, in time.

I read our old texts when we starting talking.. it was so sweet. 🥹

I missed that version of us. Seeing how we were flirting and getting to know each other. It made me tear up. I wish we could go back to that. I would do anything to go back. I miss him so much. I’m trying to get over him and get through healing, but it…

It’s difficult to communicate with you while also trying to manage my emotions and protect my peace. The good thing is that I’ve been doing well so far. The way I respond to your texts may come across as me not being interested in communicating, but in reality, this is what moving forward looks like for me. I’m…

The weather's cool and I'm listening to music. Just like that day. The only difference is you're not around anymore.

I didn't get to hear your voice but I'm still hoping for one more chance that I can.

I think what I wanted most was Sunday mornings with you.

I wanted to wake up with my cheek against your chest, your hair messy from sleep, your glasses sitting on the bedside table

To spend another hour in bed kissing you, my hands against your skin, listening to your heartbeat beneath my ear.

I wanted our clothes in the…

When I really really needed support and a distraction was my final straw. I can’t do this anymore. I’m so grateful for the friends who were there for me.

I don't understand the whole concept of the withholding closure game that u love so much. I literally sat and watched u hitting ignore on all those calls. I told you "you know that will never be me, right?" You thought i meant we would never break up...lol, nope I meant i will never be one of these poor b******* that…

I figured going on a holiday with friends would make me feel at least a bit more appreciative of life, turns out no matter where in the world I am, I'm going to be made to feel useless and underserving of happiness.

It would be so easy to just get lost in the mountains tonight and never return, it'll be better than the…

Just stop texting me...😪

Even though we can't be together tonight, our hearts will still beat as one. Good night my love. 💚

Good days are when I hear from you…when I actually get to see you….Bad days are days we don’t talk or see each other. I’ll take those good days any day. I’m stubborn but really trying.

I’m happy for something that hadn’t happened yet. The rollercoaster buckling of knees feeling. is that love? Or is it anxiety? Call it what you want…

Here I am trying Desperately fighting for things to get better Fighting for my kids to have a better life Fighting to figure out how to make this all work While you sit ideally by on your phone making jokes

All this fake bullish!t you've created using chatgpt. People see through it. you desire to sow division and racial tensions went down the shitter.

What people tell you is what they think you want to hear because they know youre malicious, destructive and hysterical.

I go to work, people are kind nice and engage with me…

If you finally messaged me back you did so on the wrong account. I deleted that one and no longer have access to it, try the other one, please. good or bad.

I never thought you two would ever be with each other. I know I don’t own anyone but damn I can’t believe you guys would date considering we broke up coz you said you are incapable of loving and you dating him considering you are my friend and you knew about us.

As much as I don’t want things to be about me, but I…

The month of September flew by in a sea of smoke and pills. The crushed up remainders of prescriptions you forgot to fill. I don't remember how I loved you, I can't recall the things I've said. But darling you showed me I wasn't really dead. And I learned to be alive when I've reached my deepest low. Standing ankle…

Today, I revealed that I've resented her for years and my love is long gone. That her abusive nature is why I'm as distant as I am. Maybe if you were still by my side, I would've had the courage to go all the way. I guess we'll never know.

I'm exhausted from trying to fix things with you. I'm exhausted from trying my hardest to trust you again. Your b******* excuses don't help your case in the slightest. Please understand, if you cannot stop lying through your teeth, I am going to disappear out of your life.

A question has been on my mind for a while.

At what point does one's actions become unforgivable? Is it possible to understand that I've changed? Have you? Am I capable of forgiving you? Are you capable of doing the same for me?

Sometimes I hope the answer will be like a lighthouse finally navigating this ship to…

Hey Friend, I’m trying to figure out this friendship thing, and honestly, I’m not sure I’m doing it right. Is it okay for a friend to appreciate your smile? To feel that little tingle when you smile at her? To have something as simple as your smile brighten her entire day without you even realising you’ve done it? Is…

so please leave me alone. Stop walking to the station with us, stop getting the same train as us there’s one every 10 minutes, stop appearing in the kitchen as soon as I’m in there, stop cornering me and forcing me to make conversation, stop using the toilets furthest from your office so you have to walk past mine…