Unsent Text Messages - Page 38

You’d fit right in with me and my crew.

Somebody told me you wished me a happy birthday.

I kinda just want you to act like I don't exist anymore though. No passing glances in hallways, no trying to catch each other's eyes while walking to separate classes, no more **** like that.

I'm a stranger, you're a stranger. I don't wanna remember your name, you should…

I really do love you I think. Like for real. When I saw you in county I knew from that moment this is my man. I love u and I shouldn’t. ****

I’d take the drugs over that atp…

I didn’t sleep at all Last night. I think I’ve finally made a decision on what I need to do. I need to make sure that I never see you again. I need to stop texting you. You have moved on. I need to stop wondering how you are because I’m not taking you back no matter how much I’ll always love you. You never loved me…

I think of texting you, but there’s nothing to say. I play instrumental music that comes to me for my absence of words. Times tears roll down my cheek while I’m playing. I think of sending to you. But there’s nothing today, you choose a life without me, and that’s okay. I do miss you though, no one will compare. I…

You’re all I ever wanted, you’re my life, my moon shining in the dark sky. U were everything now I have nothing.

I can finally talk to you without a pit in my stomach when I pick up our daughter. I can finally look at you without anger sadness or pain. I still think you're beautiful but I can finally accept you're not mine anymore. I can finally accept that I can start moving on and forward. I'm getting back into health fitness…

If you needed to hurt me for you to be ok, then I gladly take the pain. If being with me was making you miserable, then I am glad you broke your promise. I hadn't thought about it this way until today, I had read some other perspectives, ones that made me cry. They were so full of pain from having to walk away from…

We've been broken up 5 months. It disgusts me. I threw all of your stuff away into a purple bag after you betrayed me. How the hell do you even dare to wear the special necklace I gave you and smile? You caused me so much pain. I hope you suffer and that "Necklace' marking a special moment in our life brings you bad…

There hasn’t been a single day since you left that I don’t think about you. There hasn’t been a single day since you left that I don’t miss you. And idk what to do with it. I tried moving on, I talk about it in therapy, I hang out with people and try to distract myself. Even when I’m crazy happy I still feel a…

I miss you so much, dude. It has been more than a year since I last saw you. I always dreamed of us going to the same university, but here we are, miles away. Maybe it was better for our future, but damn, I miss you so much. I have friends around, but no one will ever replace you. It's funny how I go through your…

I miss you so bad today idk why, but it’s just in my head. I miss the feeling of someone to talk to and know references I’m talking about. I don’t want to date anyone at this point because most of the people I talk to aren’t even like you. If you see this I just miss the living life out of you. I want everything that…

i hate that why do you keep checking upon me once every month like its normal? you flirt with bunch of girls and keep bringing up about some stupid ex of yours to me but you say you love me and want to marry me and all that bs you say stuff to the point where im confused i cant understand whether its sarcasm or real…

Moving out is so hard. I wish I didn’t have to do this. You’re not even here, and I keep wishing I could turn to you and tell you how much it hurts.

I wish you hadn’t hurt me. I wish we could have kept living our life together. There were so many ordinary days I still wanted with you. I thought we’d have more time.

I sti…

Ashton,

I've got to stop using video assistance anytime I need to release. Mainly because it's just not good for the old brain, but secondary reason is that I just keep coming across videos of you with different guys lol. The latest one you're recording yourself in the mirrors on the closet doors in some apartment…

I banished the feelings. Return to sender. I believe we can choose who we love. It can’t all be decided by the fates and fluctuations in hormones, right? Give me some power back, please. I’m begging you to let me let you go…

I miss you so much. Knowing how your day went, your voice, seeing your face and so much more.

Why did you ghost me? Everything seemed genuinely okay. All those months and moments we shared together. Was it all lie? Why couldn’t you be man enough to be honest?

You left me emotionally spiraling, even though I’m miles away…

Honestly, your tone has been off all day and I'm so confused, what has changed??? Did you decide you do want space? Do you hate me? Have I done something to hurt you or to scare you away? If so, please just be honest. I can't mentally handle noticing this with no information or solution to it, you're not fine, we both…

maybe we get married one day, but who knows?

the plot twist hurts. This morning he called me. I was asleep, so I missed it. I called back later and suddenly I was blocked. I tried once from another number, thinking maybe he was just busy. No reply. Then I found out he’s been out with another girl — dates, hanging out, even sleeping together. And somehow I’m…

I almost bought tickets to the perfect circle concert but realized I didn’t want to go by myself.

I also really miss our conversations. They were so full of quotes from our favorite shows and movies.

Really wish you could put your head on my shoulder.

why the hell would you reach out wanting to see each other only to ghost. be transparent on what you want/don’t want, we are both adults here. friends, lovers, nothing.. why do you have to be so disrespectful? this is the exact reason why I broke things off in the first place. speak clearly and be a man of your words…

you can't expect full access to me when you never give me any of your time. you only talk to me at work about our breakup, only provoking me when i'm trying to do my ******* job. i'm angry at this point, i'm tired of you telling me you miss me, how you're still hung up on me, how you still love and care about me and…

i wont lie, there is a tiny part of me that hopes that one day you will just throw caution to the wind and do the right thing. and trust me to not hurt your life.

but then i realize i'm probably too passionate and romantic, and you're too rigid and okay living with regret.

and you're probably a bit too old to change…

You never heard that song? About shared experiences. About feeling so many of the same things. Harsh , zoomed it. What in the scamalama. I just tried to keep people happy, and attempted to start new things. I know I’m easy to hate, but we just peoples. I often say yes, when I should probably say no.

not because it refuses to learn what i mean — because i learned to tell my friends apart by subsuming the historiograph of their writing. with the advent of autocorrect, everyone types the same

You know how I feel about you, I’ve told you so many times.

You know how much I’ve been hurt in the past.

You used to be the one whose words made me feel like I could go through everything.

You were kind to me, affectionate, made it feel like I deserved to be loved, even at my worst…

i realized we do have something to talk about! we promised we'd discuss how/when we thought about each other while we were apart :)

that is cute. i will take it.

With love.

Remember your curiosity.

It's alright if that's too painful to manage right now.

Just promise me you won't forget that part of yourself.

Look again, through a different lens…

This completely broke me today, the first time we really hung out you spilt a pint all over the table, it was hilarious and adorable seeing your reaction.

This song makes me sad now...

I’m sorry I avoided you today. I know it was ******. I know you probably noticed, and I hate that I did it. The truth is, I was falling apart a little. I got too far inside my own head, everything started spiralling, and suddenly facing you felt impossible. Not because I didn’t want to see you. Because I did. Too…

You knew all about him before you sent him my way . That whole thing was orchestrated . I just why why would you do that to someone knowing my history? It was so traumatizing. If you want to associate with scum like that that’s fine but why did you bring that freak around me?

but I just hate how ******* much you destroyed my mental Health

When are you coming back? Will I ever see that adorable face of yours again?

Since 15 i stood by your side . While you were 21 and had nothing to your name

Gave you everything and did everything for you . Cooked cleaned raised our family worked full time . Made sure you had the cannabis you said yiu needed to stop you been like your physically abusive dad . Brought other women to our bed to…

I don't mean that I'm going to sit here and put my life on hold. I don't mean I'm going to keep reaching out, trying to persuade you, or waiting for some imaginary date when you'll suddenly be ready.

I'm living. I'm working. I'm making friends. I'm swimming and cycling and singing and laughing and building a life that…

I feel silly that I allowed myself to start catching feelings for you. Which makes what happened yesterday feel so unsettling.

I'm not insecure, I don't need you to tell me how pretty I am or to build me up. I am a fully formed human, I know I'm pretty, I know I'm an amazing catch. But for you to tell me I was being…

they always think i'm going to be mad when i find out they lied but i almost never am