Unsent Text Messages - Page 39

I know it’s been about.. two months of not talking. I still miss you. I still wish things didn’t have to end but… they did. I’m not betting on it but if we could make things work I’d like to focus on that in a heartbeat. But then I’d.. really have to ask what changed. On my end I’ve found new hobbies, gained my…

My family held me and cried with me when I finally told them what you did to me. I let them see how much I was hurting. I needed them, and they were there. For a little while, I didn’t have to carry it all alone.

Why can you just tell me what you want?

I’m so tired of these games and mazes. I ******* am.

I told you so many ******* times I don’t get it. I’m dense. I can’t decode it. If you just told me there was a video at a specific time tonight I would have joined.

Is this always going to be our relationship? Codes and fake…

We were both in a certain phase in our life that we had to grow out of. I ****** up but we were in it together you know? It just didn’t work out, it’s nobodies fault really. We just were in 2 different places and I have to learn to accept that. It’ll be okay for both of us.

I love you and I don’t know how you’re knowingly doing this to me right now. You’re such a coward. I just wish you would come home.

Ooooooo, IT'S. FRICKING. ON! 🤣

My stomach, my heart, my mental health. I Just want closure after bearing my heart and soul to you in thr letter. I havent slept or eaten well in weeks. I cry every night. I miss you so much. I just want your arms around me and selfies of your melt me every night smile. My chest is about to explode. Im not begging for…

And I miss you . Please Be well. 🫂

howww can you say i have spare time and i can be supportive of you? how? first of all i have no idea what you need help with because you not told me second! how tf do you know what goes on in my life OH YEAH YOU DON'T lastly!! UM!!! do you have any fxxxing idea how horribly traumatized i am right now do you do you do…

I know we won't ever be together again the bridge has been burned. You made sure there was no coming back. I still miss you though. I miss your smile when you looked up at me I miss playing around the kitchen running after and from you giddily sliding across the vinyl floors. I miss the way you pronounce "crooked" as…

I wish you had left me with more compassion. I wish the ending had at least reflected some of the love that we shared. I never knew you were capable of being this person. I truly hope it comes back around.

I'm totally and crazily in love with you and that's the truth. I hate lying and hate people who lie and that's why it's been even harder because I realized some time ago that I have been lying about my feelings for you.

To tell you the truth I fell in love with you when you sent me a recording of your song all those…

I got terrible sleep last night. I was up until 2:30am unable to sleep because I am sick and couldn’t breathe. And then I got up at 6am and handled life things all day, work and stuff. And now, I need, genuinely NEED a good night of sleep. And I never told you this bc I think it’d be a weird thing to say, and I want…

about a reality where I can be with you. One where we're both healed and we don't hurt each other anymore.

I wish for it so much that it hurts.

hb

I don't think you're a terrible person. I don't think I ever could.

I'm sorry everything feels like a cold and dark nightmare.

I wanted to send you this song I was listening to. I think you'd like it.

Don't worry, it wasn't Vivaldi this time lol

I’m sorry for the things I did after the breakup. I’m sorry for staying there emotionally thinking you were too. I’m sorry I couldn’t truly let you go emotionally when I should’ve. I always put you first above everyone and subconsciously I expected the same from you but it’s your right to move on and be happy without…

BDAY TO YOUUUUUUUU

🎁🎊🌟🌟🎉♥️💕🥰🎈😍🎂🎉🎁🎊🎈🎂🍰🧁🍰🧁✨✨✨💖💖💖

Love you

Always & Forever ♾️

I hope you keep me blocked forever. I hope you never bother me again. I didn't realize it was all fake to you or I would have never talked to you in the first place. I never had an intention of making you feel obligated to me. I thought we were having fun and falling in love. I didn't realize that you were saying all…

i have nothing to say. not right now. not tomorrow. not on tuesday.

i can't think of a single thing i want to say to you. i don't want to share music with you anymore. i don't want to rate our days. i don't want to hear you shrink my box even more.

maybe i'll just stare at a wall. or you. until i start crying. and…

I finally remembered my god dang safe word. Banana, it was banana. Weird, I know but please for the love of God, this is me using my safe word.

You know what else really ******* sucks about all of this? The shame and embarassment I feel for myself for feeling how I felt about you and how kind and generous I was with you when in the end you didn't give a **** at all.

I don't think you did anything with any malicious intent but I still feel tricked, lied to. Why…

To the first person who made me feel safe emotionally…I’ve always felt safe physically. I don’t need you, but I do. Not for the ways you think. I just can’t hold myself…even though I can mow the yard.

A year ago today, we celebrated your brother’s birthday. You were so important to me that I automatically loved him even though we had never met. I went out of my way to be sure he felt special on his day. And it made me happy to. Little did I know, this day would be one of our last. Only a week later would be…

It’s been 3 months and 19 days. That’s 15 weeks and 6 days. That’s 111 days. (Angel number) That 2,688 hours. That’s 161,270. That’s 9,676,260..1..2..3..4 seconds. Since the last time you touched me. Since the last time you yelled in my face. Since you threatened me. Since you took what wasn’t yours. And never again..

I know we have a really strong connection, both physically and emotionally, and I don't think either of us can deny that. But part of me wishes you loved me the way I love you.

I don't actually know that you don't, and maybe that's the part that scares me. But after 15 years of us finding our way back to each other…

So please don’t let me lose her

Reaching is hard.

Your all the same.

I wanted to pick anyone but you.

But your all the same…

i hate it i hate that i am doing it i hate that im doing it for you

i wish i could talk to you like how we used to just once more

i miss everything and i just cant get over it

i wish we didnt get into stupid arguments during our last few days

i wish none of it happened…

Im really bad at alot of things. So much that I cant even **** up in the correct ways.

im sorry a i must have done something. Would seem i cant pick a person. You were the first person I picked and I cant even get you to tell me what I am to you lol.

S, you ******* suck dude... you were supposed to love me and be my…

Or mean EXACTLY what you say!

Tell me to leave you be cuz you don't want us anymore.

I heard you loud and clear. Again.

You got upset I didn't say HI or anything when you saw me…

If you're unable to accept my love, let me go.

If expressing how you feel is a chore, let me go.

If I only exist for you entertainment, let me go.

This isn't love. It never was…

TW, unaliving discussion

Did you really actually intentionally try to make me unalive myself?  Apparently, there are some offshoots of the manosphere (which u follow and are acquainted with) that encourage this. I'm kind of in disbelief, but there's reason to believe that that might have been your goal.  Sitting here…

i'm glad i got to remember you. wish we had more time

When you take off your hat and flip your hair, or run your hand through that mane I can’t get enough. I want to see more!

It’s all warped don’t worry

It was my POV

I didn’t have the knowledge I have now

Please don’t cry…

It sucks, especially when you actually love someone. You can waste your whole life waiting on them, but sometimes they aren't coming back. That's the hardest part. They aren't dead. They just don't want... you.

I didn't think I wanted you, either. I'm just afraid of someone else filling my shoes. Being with you every…

Despite myself, despite you hurting me…

I only want you to text or call or anything.

I’m not even motivated to move at this point I’m shutting all the way down. I’m depressed I hate this please please please come back

55 every 60 mins, new bennies.. and new distraction………

Genuinely think one of the most intimate things in the entire world is wanting someone when your tired… like wow. I just had the longest day ever and don't want to speak to anyone but i really want you to sit next to me.

blank my mine, please