Unsent Text Messages - Page 53

that I love you so much when you have absolutely no romantic feelings for me.

I feel like I’m drowning . I wanna talk to you . Tell you what’s been happy but I know you don’t actually care . The drama of it all . But I hope your okay

You all never had no real love for me but it's ok!

The blood dripping from my palm felt so right, replaying the same desperate, hopeless song. Work to be done, no understanding to string along; I **** ****** today, to see if I still feel... All the more glad that it's not where I belong, but the damn place gave me you. Alas. I will hold strong.

Talking on the phone all night. But we have to be "mature" and "evolved". We have to "take it slow" and "do it right". UGH.

So very much. We want you home.

~Zinnia 2

I have a lovely hospital bill I get to be paying off for the next 22 months!!! 22 of remembering what happened while I’m trying to move on with my life! Everyday I remember what happened while I take my medication. YOU GET TO JUST LIVE YOUR LIFE! You get to just 100% forget I ever existed or was in your life!! You…

hey, can you come get me? i don't want to do this alone

I know that it sucks.

I know that soul crushing feeling when your entire being yearns for what it can not have.

I know how all consuming it is.

The never-ending whirlwind of racing thoughts…

I noticed a familiar pattern happening. I appreciate the closure you gave me and listening to me over the last few days. All the best for you, and I'll be there if you need someone, but not interested in continuing around this circle again as it is. Stepping back completely. Goodnight.

Once i thought you were the best "almost" i've ever/never had... today i found out you cheated.

Sobra akong nanghihinayang na 2 years ago, we did not get our chance. Sabi pa natin dati, sana kung pwede na, pwede pa. Tinanong kasi kita noon kung may nakikita ka bang future sa akin, at sinabi mo wala. I got tired of…

That’s all I wanted. All I was begging for was just some acknowledgment of my feelings and what caused the hurt. I wasn’t even worth a conversation, let alone the truth. That’s what hurt the most, I’m not even worth the time to you.

i will never send you this because i know it will end very badly for both of us but i need to get it off my chest….

how.. where.. WHEN?! did you get the mother ******* audacity to ask for your movies back SIX MONTHS LATER?! you sure your baby mommas gonna like you texting me 3 months before her due date?

first off i had…

You're welcome to come join the show. It was for you anyway

You’ve hurt me more times and in worse ways than anyone in my life ever has besides my ex I told you about…but you’re right after him. You had only been in my life for less than a year and yet you’ve caused me more hurt in that amount of time than people who’ve been in my life for decades. I cried from you as much…

How’s your lonely life over there in MS? Did you get back on Tinder after all your preaching about hookup culture? Were ALL of your ‘values’ a lie?

Did you run to another “nurse”? Back to the first?

I loved you. I let you walk all over me, my life, my wallet, and our friends. You left me twice, because I was dumb enough…

You were so kind to me and I want so much to be your friend. I enjoyed txting you so much late at night over the summer. It felt like I found a true friend. We shared so many common interests that I thought of you as kin. I’ve been so terribly lonely taking care of your relative and it was nice having a friend for…

We’ve both had time apart and have grown separately in different ways. I just hope that one day, if we do come together again in that way, the people we’ve become will align. Never know what the future holds.

I keep thinking about u,

Wherever u are….

I hope ur at peace.

I’m forever grateful to u for getting out of the fog…

Which sounds ridiculous when we're not even talking.

It's called Secure Love, by Sue Johnson. It's about attachment. About what happens when two people love each other but fear gets tangled up in the middle of it.

I keep wanting to send it to you because reading about attachment changed so much for me. It gave me words…

You were lying in bed thinking about me that early, huh?? IDC. Just glad to be on your mind!!

you promised youd stop ghosting me. you knew how much you were hurting me but you kept doing it. you knew how much i deeply loved you and wanted to be with you. i know you loved me too. you said it yourself. so why did you keep doing it every time id come back? you never changed any of it. you are so broken and i just…

Well,hello from the other side.It must have been a thousand days by now .I stayed at the sea side ,got running on the sand like a nowhere man in a foreign land .I followed the crumbs.Mm so delicious .Cause I like to eat breakfast as dinner with presition.My mind is fun and funny and I am just laughing at the thought…

i may have secretly already sent you this through radiowaves, but i got my first psychiatry residency interview and i'm so shocked it's this early and i'm so happy and i just want to hug you so badly. i can't wait to hug you next week. our pre-separation ritual and a congratulatory hug. sorry if i lose my **** and cry…

You have no idea how much I have to contain when I see you. There are things I want to do that I never let myself act on. Things I feel in the split second you’re close, when my mind forgets every reason I should keep my distance. I want to stay a little longer. Stand a little closer. Let my eyes linger instead of…

I get it you’re nervous but to ghost me. Bye

ur genuinely my comfort person i wish i could just always talk to you forever. i wish you wouldn’t have to keep disappearing on me. there’s so much feelings in my heart for u and it hurts because i didn’t feel anxious before but now i do. i don’t want to feel anything for you but i feel everything somehow im some kind…

trade this body for that can of gin

So guess who worked with me last night. Yup the married guy that you ****! Lol. I didn't say anything about you and of course, he brought it up. Ya sure, "A" told him that he saw you at work. And he totally didn't know but he was there waiting on you to get off just a couple weeks ago? You do know i have to come up…

I’ll always love you, and I don’t have a problem admitting that. I’ve moved forward, but for a brief moment, I wonder if the passion we once had is truly gone. Truthfully, I’m not ready to see you again. I have a feeling eye contact might say more than either of us intends to.

Love ⭐️

When we were together you entirely thought I was. For some odd reason you believed I was even before I told you what I was. I told you I wasn’t many times, and I fed into the lie because that’s what you wanted me to be. Though I don’t speak Spanish, I am Hispanic which you also knew, you just wouldn’t believe it…

Hey A,

I've been thinking about what you said the other day, and I realize I owe it to you to be upfront and honest with how I'm feeling.

I really like you, and I want this relationship to be something more "real", for lack of a better term.

I think we're in what people these days call a "talking stage", but I would like…

I hate that you treated me like **** for so long, but in a quiet way. You’d take me on dates, give me gifts, tell me you loved me. But kept secrets from me the whole time and lied to me the whole time. I ******* hate myself too for waiting around being with you for 7 years.

I’m so mad at you. Like the talk we had last…

Don't tell me it's still hard for you... Bc it's not. Clearly. Hope you had fun.

—— please don’t question how genuine our friendship was it’s been 2 months and i know you and literally everyone has already moved on but i haven’t. every single one of my quirks and what makes me, me has been picked apart under a microscope and i say the wrong things snd everything has been so misconstrued about me…

I apologized and I meant it, you reassured me everything was fine. Here we are days later and not a peep from you. This is actually super cruel. I miss you, I always probably will. But if I’m being honest, my patience is wearing thin and the uncertainty is ******* me. I am hanging on as hard as I can, but you’re…

I’m glad you know I love you, baby girl even if you don’t feel the same. There was nothing left unsaid. I love you so much, and I always wish good things for you x.

I love you

That's that

You know now

Can we just figure out what to do next

Hey Babe,

I know you altered your pings to stop me worrying - I appreciated it massively.

Conversely, you must be wondering what the **** is going on on my end. It’s been a tough weekend and a **** Monday, massively so.

I won’t go into the intricacies here. But if you see me pinging around, please don’t stress. I am…

Is my wish for this special day…we fit so well together. Will you make my wish come true my lover boy?

Always yours love, 💋