Unsent Text Messages - Page 54

I guess ill start by saying sorry. Sorry for the road I blazed through. Hurting most of you in the process. I've been on a good recovery since it all happen.

Its just been very lonely. However that is by my own making. When I went on a war path of no control I hurt so many of you in the process. People I loved and…

You're done with me, done with us. I am so sorry the man you thought was the love of your life turned out to be the most toxic of them all.

..want to be seduced? Do you want me to step into your space and land the kiss you refuse to make?

Do you prefer to remove yourself from the responsibility it would take to make that plunge?

Why? Why do you want me to hold that responsibility? Does it remove you of follow through? Of cementing and revealing your…

i hate that i still love you.

..want to be seduced? Do you want me to step into your space and land the kiss you refuse to make?

Do you prefer to remove yourself from the responsibility it would take to make that plunge?

Why? Why do you want me to hold that responsibility? Does it remove you of follow through? Of cementing and revealing your…

We have our inside jokes and we talk daily about life and politics and your work and how you are feeling and you ask about me and what I’m doing and how I’m doing yet we’re just friends. My kids know who you are and can tell when we’re talking and seem to really enjoy when you call. You’re helping me come up with a…

You cheated on me and I know you did. There is no going back. Im tired of you saying every man in the world has ****** women acting like it would condone what you did. **** you and stop texting me . Im not responding to your fake accounts anymore. I tried to be so lenient just for you to say you cheated cus im…

So this will be my unsent text I’m really sorry. I did all this to you even after saying, I love you hundred thousands of time. I still hurt you now. I can’t take it back now. I can’t do anything that will change the past or will change the fact that you were hurting and I was out there. I could have changed a lot of…

I've tried, but it's still you. We're stuck with each other I'm afraid. Can't we just get on with this already?? I'm tired of you not being here, leaving me to wonder.

It’s been a little over a month since we’ve had our last convo. We had only a short couple months together but man did it feel so ****** special to me. Since we’ve split I’ve seeked some help my overthinking was getting to bad as you know it’s the whole reason you wanted distance. I now understand how what I was doing…

Give me a call, and we can discuss anything that’s on your mind.

I'm suspicious of you. I feel like you don't want to get close to me because you know you would harm me. Maybe God is saving me. My intuition is telling me you can physically hurt me. Your past, your ex I wonder about her all the time. Is that story made up, or is it real? The dreams I had of you before aren't clear…

Don’t be angry or impatient The silence between us will end soon I don’t want it to continue either I never wanted it at all

Just stay grounded Like you always told me Breath In quick and out slowly Keep your hands at your hips and shake the violently while bending at your kneez.

Calm your mind and relax your body Trick…

I regret you when you know for a fact that a belief of mines is if i ever loved you then i will always love you. To what degree? I honestly love you to the furthest extent that is humanly possible and sometimes even beyond that when i am filled with the divine. You're right about one thing i am 100% scared. Except its…

You asked me that out of nowhere the other day. While we were hanging out like we do all the time. The weird thing is that I knew exactly what you meant because it didn’t need any context. That’s the question that constantly lives between us. Not because we don’t want this, but because we’re still both so afraid that…

but why did you? why are you checking up on me? is it really that necessary? after doing all that to me you really had the nerve to ask how i was doing?

After you text me, you usually stay on my mind for at least 24 hours. It’s been a while since we’ve seen each other, and knowing I’ll actually see you next month has me wondering… how long will you linger in my mind this time?

I just turned softly, right into your jawline. I see your body, soul, mind... In the way the earth moves. Something about standing outside of time... You're every reason, and every rhyme, and every bit worth this so-called time.

Been a minute since I cried about us. Its petty jealousy and fear today. Fear maybe i made a mistake. Fear that I did the math wrong. Who knows. Fear wont rule the day, but damn. I miss you bad. This weekend was supposed to be so different. By contrast, it might be the worst in my life. Oh pity me. I had a dream you…

Hurt reminds me that i relinquished power. I gave someone the power to hurt me. And they did. I trusted you and you broke my heart. So when i get angry at you i feel some of the power that i gave to you. It’s so much better to be angry and hateful than hurt and sad. The anger gets me up and helps me move on with my…

How many times and in how many ways must I tell you that I want you? I’ve had better first impressions. And second and third. But damn. What’s a girl gotta do to get a fourth? Don’t make me scale this mountain alone. Please don’t make me sad when I am finally marching around the bend to meet you. When I finally peak…

Although infrequent, when i do think of you I find myself wondering if you do too. I know you’re an avoidant so you’re probably burying it right? Or maybe you got over me really fast cs its you who ended it. After all, it was so easy for you to just stop talking to me. After everything we shared you were able to just…

My weekdays are open and free, as you know.

For a call, anyway.

How does it never bother you?

This distance…

I am just too old for you.

Maybe not in age, but in experiences.

I’m happy to have met someone who is hopeful and as enthusiastic as you …

But I’ve loved, fought and lost…

Hey,

I just have to tell you this now because you are so important to me.

We haven't seen each other for 4 years. 4 years. And in all this time you have remained my best friend to me. I carry so many memories of us with me and I was really happy to finally see you again.

When your refusal came and then not much, somehow…

I hope one day you’ll realise how much I’ve loved you despite going through the things I’ve to go through everyday.

I know you’re in a bad state now, we’ve not spoken for the longest time, I still remembered the last time you told me you loved me and you find it very difficult to let our relationship go.

We’ve both made…

I can’t keep you out of my thoughts. Everything that was us is a constant reminder. I hope that you will reach out to me again. I miss you, I miss us. M, if nothing else I hope you are happy.

K

Your car told loud bro lol!!!!!

Today I’ll let a small part of my mind fantasize about you. To imagine what it would be like if I just drove over to your house and we stayed under the covers and watched movies all day. I wouldn’t want to talk about anything, just hold each other, steal a kiss. You’d see though, my heartbreak in my eyes. I’m having a…

I look around and see all the things people say, and some of them are beautiful, some of them traumatic, but I stopped it. I can’t see myself in anything anyone else says. When all the people I thought were good and decent commit a 14 year felony, to justify their own behaviour, you have to sit back and think.

I put in…

You don’t have to hide behind a fake account to talk to me. You know I’ll never turn you away. I know it was you. I found out. What I don’t understand, is why. You’ve ignored all my messages. We saw each other two weeks ago. We had the most amazing night as usual. Then you distance the next day. You want me to know…

every night i look outside just to see the stars and i think of you as im looking at them “he shouldve been here to see this” because you told me you liked star gazing and i kept it in my mind since the day you told me

you did not forget me but you did forget what we had its like youre pretending as if nothing happened and it hurts because that was the first time ive ever loved someone whereas i was just another girl to you im still waiting for you to apologize but..

my phone has been dry back then you spammed me with texts and called me everyday i remember how you told me that you couldnt go a day without calling me; hearing my voice you’ve told me alot of beautiful lies and i chose to believe it knowing our bad ending from the very beginning because it brought comfort to my…

Just wanna thank God in advance for the run we about to go on.

Im thinking about you, i hope you’re doing okay <3

You shamed me

You told me how much you loved me but at the same time called me every name under the sun

When you did it, did it make you feel powerful?

Telling me I wasted the best years of my life even though we both know the real living starts after 30…

I’m sorry for every negative feelings I’ve caused you and all the waiting and uncertainty about our future. I loved you and I still do. I miss you a whole lot but what I did to you can not be forgiven. I understand it’s not my place to decide if you forgive me or not but I don’t want to keep dragging you along knowing…

I guess I should take you not responding as the hint. You promised you wouldn’t ghost but that didn’t last that long. I guess you lied and said everything to just make me happy. I should’ve know it was never a see you later but goodbye

But I have to because it’s the only option I have that is right. This isn’t what I wanted but it is how it is and it hurts.

It will be slow but soon I will eventually go and finally leave you alone.