Unsent Text Messages - Page 63

I don't mean that I'm going to sit here and put my life on hold. I don't mean I'm going to keep reaching out, trying to persuade you, or waiting for some imaginary date when you'll suddenly be ready.

I'm living. I'm working. I'm making friends. I'm swimming and cycling and singing and laughing and building a life that…

I feel like an idiot for loving you, even when you gave your attention to other guys who didn’t treat you well. Then tell me about them and how much they hurt you. I wanted to give you the life we talked about. I wanted to do more than just be there. I was in a toxic marriage I shouldn’t have been in. You were living…

I love you. I miss you. I wish you were still under my little piece of the sky.

How are you?

Is it normal that I still miss her, after 4 long years?

I still think about the memories I had with her, I still imagine that she will come back to me, because ang huling message na natanggap ko sa kanya , she promise that if eventually ok na lahat ,she will come back to me

Oh that smile of yours J, i cant…

I did love you. But our situation made it hard for me to feel secure. I became toxic. I didn’t know how to express my boundaries properly, so a lot of it came out as fighting. I could’ve handled things better and not hurt you the way I did. I'm sorry.

I still care about you and miss you. I don’t hate you. I just wanted…

I never found another one.

Hi there, I recently heard you moved across the ditch to Tasmania, I just want to wish you all the best, and I hope you're enjoying it over there.

Playing mind games is immature & pathetic,

It’s an emasculated feminine trait.

It’s bad mannered & ignorant, immature.

Playing hard to get…

i'm trying really, really hard. you said this "really sucks". i don't think you know how badly this sucks for me, at least. it sucks more than most things that have happened to me, and that's saying A LOT. Some days just feel like a lie. What am I doing? Why am I doing it? I only want to share all this BLAH with one…

So it's confirmed I'll be moving in about a year's time, any chance we can sort this out before time runs out?

Y’all tormented me till i snapped,

Boohoo, idgaf about u.

About the lion of Judah ain’t nice like Jesus was.

Lmao…

I never dignified your BS with a response, but seriously? **** you.

You think that, just because I refuse to embody misery in the way you do, that I must have it easy. You think that just because I choose to continue wearing a smile, that must mean I'm hiding handouts.

Unlike you, I refuse to gain from the pity that can…

Listening to See Me Again and I think, it’s just as narcissistic as you are and that’s a compliment btw no shade. I love you and I always will but you gotta invite me to your wedding for experiencing an all out wedding from your community.

Dang Chiku *** is this song 😭 I catch myself smiling at how cocky you are. Miss…

The choices you make sicken me. Two girls in one night when that morning we woke up together. You love me so much and don’t wanna leave me alone and yet you have the audacity to come back and ask if i hate you. Idk why i feel so sorry for you. This life you have is so depressing and it’s ******* everyone in your life…

What must a man do to get you to grace him with a moment of your flawless presence? please, tell me. Even if i only get to enjoy the angelic sound of your voice for 5 minutes. For this i would be ever so grateful.

trade this body for that can of gin

You don't deserve anything from me and stopped doing so long ago. I don't know how it's possible to even respect someone like you nevermind care for. You're never changing, never apologizing, never understanding your own wrong doings, you are dull. You want to believe so badly that you are something, someone. I hope…

You want something else. You have a mission you are after me for something else. Do you want to physically hurt me? What do you want ? This is getting too much.

You know what? You cheating piece of ****? I ****** him. It turns out the only thing wrong with me was you. A grown man that needs his mommy and pushes his actual mommy around while he beats off to girls he cheated on me with? I'm glad you're out of my life. Because what the **** was I thinking.

Please note, that’s not k, okey, 👌or okey. 🙄

You ignored me all the time whenever we where in a conflict, I was always the one apologizing, it was always my fault. YOU never said sorry for hurting me, you never said sorry for any of the damage you have done to me, you enjoyed it when I was always waiting for you to contact me again.

Well Now im done with your…

you ghosted me. after using me.

the most annoying, frustrating, infuriating slow burn of all time or

the biggest delusion I’ve ever had

but all my other self proclaimed “delusions” ALWAYS end up being true in the end

Why can’t you admit that? Why can’t you take some accountability and say:

‘You know what? I dropped the ball. I didn’t plan anything in advance and I’m SORRY. You deserved better from me. I didn’t mean to make you feel forgotten. I am sorry.’

That’s quite literally all I needed.

I miss your texts and your calls. I miss when you’d tell me you love me and you miss me. I miss all the things that we used to do together. I miss thinking about you without having to cry. I miss when our love came from both sides. I miss hearing your voice. I miss waking up and getting excited to open your…

I have not been active in the dating scene for years. I’m on the dating apps, but nothing came out of it. Until I met you. When we met, I didn’t really feel anything, not worry, not excitement, just nothing. I saw you more as an acquaintance, one I would meet once and never speak to again. But you pursued, and now…

hey, can you come get me? i don't want to do this alone

It’s all warped don’t worry

It was my POV

I didn’t have the knowledge I have now

Please don’t cry…

My body still remembers everything even from 3 years ago…I wish it would stop…I need a distraction it’s suppose to be my birthday again soon. You’re long gone but it still remembers everything even now…I hope I can do something to stop it from feeling this way.

Hi X,

I believe people like you work a lot, and at this stage, you require an executive assistant to manage your calendar, meetings, and other daily responsibilities.

I would hereby like to apply for the position of Executive Assistant.

My qualifications include…

That I’m worried in the future I’m going to be sat on the sofa cuddled up with a girlfriend, watching a love film, and I’m going to be thinking of you 😔

To my life is very simple.

Honesty and accountability.

If you don't have the capacity for either

If you can't hold yourself accountable…

I know that it sucks.

I know that soul crushing feeling when your entire being yearns for what it can not have.

I know how all consuming it is.

The never-ending whirlwind of racing thoughts…

Why are you so hard to reach?

Why is it so easy to get you to laugh, but so difficult to get you to talk about what matters?

Why can we spend hours talking about nothing and somehow never arrive at the things I wish I understood?

I've handed you pieces of my heart, and you respond with a joke…

Moving on hasn’t been easy. I’m not the type of person that can just turn off her feelings. When I love someone I love them forever. Yet, that love can change to something duller. It won’t be as bright as it used to be. I’d be lying to myself if I said I didn’t miss you, but I can’t stay in love with someone who never…

Hey poor snack choices - even after all this time I don’t want anybody else’s balls in my kitchen.

Speaking of kitchens - I could really use some advice on picking out a paddle. But I can’t even ask you that.

Every time I click on a picture to send to someone it’s your face that comes up first. Not sure why it does…

G,

What matters right now is that you’re reading this. For a while, I thought maybe I could keep talking into the void of this little corner of the universe.

But eventually, the silence got too loud.

And you came too close…

Nothing new.

Nothing surprising.

Nothing that matters...

But I do all the same…

Who would have thought no matter which way to act or behave. It's time to do what I gotta do. Within the next few days I'm deleting apps and accounts and changing my number. So if you got something to say. Say it in the next few days. I love

I miss you. Or at least the thought of you. I'm sorry I ruined what we had. I'm too jealous and petty of a person, that even the thought of sharing you with another person -- uff, I couldn't bear it at all. I am too attached. That's why I severed our connection. Because I know you don't see me anything more than a…