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So I read another quote today which hit me in the feels.

I’m falling in love with you And I guess it scares me Because from the very beginning I told myself not to.

Part of me, The human part of me, Is warning me to be careful, To not allow myself to fell this way To protect myself From getting hurt.

But my soul… My soul…

I’m speaking to you through music. I can’t stay silent. I can’t not love you loudly. I don’t want to be silent anymore. I need you, I want you, I can’t stay quiet. I really can’t. I’m caving tonight because I’m weak for you. I can’t stay away. I really can’t. I don’t care if you think I’m stupid and weak. I love…

Why is it that every time I think I’ve gotten better at living my own life and distancing myself from you in my heart, every time I get anxious and frustrated at myself, I just want you here?

The constant effort to not think about you and all that has become so exhausting. Small moments keep popping up in my mind like intrusive thoughts and then I’m back to the beginning.

If only you understood what I was going through, if only you would just care a little about how it was for me. If only you emotionally…

I will pick up with writing more often. I just lack the motivation and energy to do so right now.

It used to be easy because I would procrastinate on my todo list and write instead. It was like a mini adrenaline dump or a fight or flight response so it came naturally to me.

But I don’t like the style that I was writing…

Batman I have an embarrassing confession I looked at your tictok pfp again I just wanted to see if it still broke my heart it does I don’t know why I can’t let you go we were toxic all we did was fight and hurt each other So why can’t I stand seeing you with her? Why do I love you and hate you at the same time Why do…

I feel sick. I am lost. I haven’t reached out because I know.. I know my happiness can’t be dependent on you.. I am trying so hard to be strong, move on. I am trying so hard not to think about you. About the hospital. About every time I closed my eyes and I saw yours. They say your brain tries to find calming things…

Even thought I left me and cheated yea I said some **** I were ******* another dude ? I was infuriated *** you expect

I believe we met today.

What do u want me to think & feel?

Exactly!

What do u expect from me?

With the **** u’ve put me through…

I understand now why I can’t have you. Why I can’t be happy. I am the embodiment of evil. I don’t want to be evil, but I guess I don’t have a choice anymore. I’m losing more and more time as it takes over. Days turn to weeks that I can’t remember. I wish I could go back and un-do the deal that was made but even that…

For months after u left i atill took break in our spot. I still do even now. I still look for your text everyday. Once u left i knew it wouldn't be much longer that we would be done too.

I miss you. I want you to be with me. I see your pain and I want to hold you.

I also am so angry that you lied to me, didn’t choose me, disappeared, left me broken in the absolute worst time of year and then you call me a year later? You leave no message? No apology, no accountability, nothing?

You have the audacity to…

I know good things are coming. I guess I just grateful. Things were so hard for so long…. I just wanted to say: thanks for being you.

I miss you to death. Why can’t we go back to where we used to be? Every time I reach out to you,

You run. Run. Run... And I am left here on the cold floor Choking on my tears, Staying quiet so you won't leave.

It’s such a shame That I can’t even say I miss you, That I wanted you, That I want to feel your heartbeat again…

You’ll probably never see this

I knew you got with her after we separated. She tried to insert herself into our relationship. Tried to keep you from getting married, confessed her feelings to you. I always had a sneaking suspicion that you never blocked her like you said you did. You got with her not even two weeks…

I think if I had one wish it would be that I could stop loving you.

Not because you’re a horrible person. Because you’re not. Not because I hate you either, because I don’t. Far from it.

But this ******* hole in my chest. What the ****. I thought it was gone. I’ve been okay for weeks, nearly months now. So why, why did…

I wish I could take your pain away, but it’s not my place. I want so badly for you to see life doesn’t have to be lived through addiction. Pain can be so awful, it doesn’t have to rule your life, though. I know it aches, when people aren’t what we think, or they change into someone else entirely, someone who’s not the…

You could have had this life years ago. You could have gotten your puppy, enjoyed your life, and made your choices without pulling me back into this cycle over and over again. The only reason and I mean only reason you ever returned was because you didn’t have a consistent source of sustenance because you kept burning…

Please don’t marry her. I know that sounds pathetic but I don’t give a ****

Just come home

I miss you

I feel this pull in my soul in my spirit and I can’t shake it no matter how hard I try. Please for the love of God just tell me how you feel without your passive game playing

Do you know how frustrating it is that you keep telling me I'm "basically the best human being alive" and that "nobody deserves me" even though you chose to leave me?

I couldn't have made it any more clear that you are the one I want.

I wish you could see yourself through my eyes, you wouldn't hate what you see so much.

I don’t know why I didn’t see this sooner. It wasn’t about me being not good enough, or her being better. It was about the “path of least resistance.” You don’t even love her. She’s showed up and wouldn’t leave. Now you’re too afraid to ask her to move out!

You are such a coward. In stead of real happiness, a real…

The biggest thing i learned is that its ok to miss someone and still teach them u wont take there **** ive missed u to the point were I cried myself to sleep many times over the pain u gave me thats how much I miss u but I also have a choice now and I dont want my daughter to grow up dealing with what u did if some…

Hi love, I miss you. I hope you have a good day at work tonight. It’s your Friday! I hope you don’t get stuck working a double… I know how that always happens on your Fridays. I hope you’re getting good rest and hope you have a safe shift tonight. I just tucked myself in. My buddy is crashing on the couch, he is in a…

It’s the “really” part that got me when you said it. It was as if to say: I’m only “part cheater.” Well, a part cheater equals a whole cheater, and you certainly demonstrated the truth of that statement. It’s not only the cheating that gets to me, it’s the fact that you were always broke for me yet apparently not for…

I don’t have your number anymore. If you want to reach in you’ll find a way…

what a sticky door to try and pry open again.

I don’t like sticky things

Unless? nvm

I won’t be opening that door bc you shut it. Well you didn’t shut it but you like did the thing where you scoot ur chair close to a door and lightly nudge it with your foot until it’s cracked open just alittle. but to me, that’s the…

Hey Babe,

I have had a bad day, you know this already, you knew before I did.

I have to ask: How did you know? Don’t answer, I‘m not sure I even want to know.

I’m so ******* mad at myself right now. I tried to cut you off 3 times in 24hrs and every time you held firm „I‘m right here. Stop thrashing.“…

We were inseparable. I made you so happy, as you did me. It was so equal, so easy to trust and so fast. I never doubted you, not really. I was your number one fan. You were my best friend. I adored you. We were the best reason I ever had to reach the days end. That's all I needed. It was so totally enough to come home…

My PHQ and GAD score won’t be great tomorrow.

Nothing different over here.

i'm trying really, really hard. you said this "really sucks". i don't think you know how badly this sucks for me, at least. it sucks more than most things that have happened to me, and that's saying A LOT. Some days just feel like a lie. What am I doing? Why am I doing it? I only want to share all this BLAH with one…

hope you have a good one. get some pumpkin pie. miss you lol.

JUST STOP AND REACH OUT IM SORRY.

it’s about time for this raven to fly away.

peacefully.

You have made it clear I’m nothing special I’m one of the many fighting for your attention I have never been truly seen as someone who is extraordinary or exquisite I’m average if that so why waste your time and energy because I will treat you like a king even though I’m just a placeholder

I thought we were soul tied Destined for a lifetime Always with you Always with you You looked at me love blind Swore you saw your whole life Always with me Always with me We said that we would be the ones they talk about when they think of love should've been us losing you don't feel right if we're really soul…

I dont want to burden you directly by reaching out. I miss you very bad lately. I feel very mixed up and confused. Every single way I turn, I keep seeing you in the details. Today I watched the sunset and imagined you were looking at the same thing.

Youre on my mind a lot. I spend a lot of time feeling confused. In any…

There is evil that is trying hard to bring me down.

As. She hides like she was a mistake

Why did you start ignoring me? Did you expect me to call you when you obviously weren't interested in talking to me anymore? 48-hours of unanswered texts and you expect me to just keep going?

Why did you break up with me with an AI generated text? Am I worth that little to you?

Why did you even choose now to break up…