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I held you in my Arms when you needed me most

Then you cheated on me i’ve been broken

Life hasn’t felt the same You where the first woman I ever had true feelings and love for

and It’s sick that even all you did to me I still wonder how you are doing…

Dear T If you turned up today and apologised I’d give up everything, if you took accountability I would be with you, my friends and family of course wouldn’t be happy but for you I’d leave them behind.

we could run away together and I’d keep your secret and love you

By the way, I was never upset with you or felt like you “manipulated” me in any way, shape, or form. I was always planning to tell you about the information Mr. SketchPants revealed to me in regards to what might happen at the Krusty Crab, and about what I had told the rest of the kitchen crew in relation to their…

I'm pretty but not so petty not to hope you have a good birthday you were my best friend for so many years J. I hope you get everything you wanted and that you don't think of me even once for the whole day. I hope you get lots of love and have a wonderful time with our daughter. I hope you get the snacks you like and…

i wonder if you ever think about us or if it’s easier to pretend we just stopped existing.

you were there one day, and then suddenly you weren’t. no conversation, no explanation, nothing. just silence.

and honestly, i don’t even know what i expected from you anymore. maybe not an apology, maybe not some big explanation…

Or is it too much of a reminder of us.

did you know that ravens sometimes bring gifts to humans they like? little things they’ve found - a bottle cap, a shiny stone, something that caught the light just right and made them think, for reasons we can only guess at, that someone else ought to have it.

i think about that sometimes. how strange it is to find…

I couldn’t understand the distance for so many weeks. It’s happened a few times before. I thought maybe you were just needing the break and I let you have that space, like so many times. This past couple of weeks has had me on cloud nine with you. I was ready to burn the ships…yes, and all the way. I was scared to…

i keep trying. i've tried everything. there just doesn't seem to be a way back to anyone who cares. like we're not in the same reality anymore even when we're standing in the same room. i know people care. i just don't know how to reach you

You mishandled me when I truly felt so certain you wouldn’t… it broke me in a different way than I’ve felt before because I’ve not trusted another completely. For weeks now all I want to do is lay in my bed when I’m not forced to be doing other things out of obligation and responsibility.

The saddest part of that I…

I want to say happy birthday, I really do. I’m sorry if you think I don’t care, you know I do. But I can’t after everything you did. But I can’t forget. And I can’t forget we were supposed to elope today.

I think I need to join the gym and start playing pickleball.

so tired of being so tired Why I gotta build something beautiful just to go set it on fire? I'm no liar, but sometimes the truth don't sound like the truth Maybe 'cause it ain't, I just love the way it sound when I say it

had my first band meetup today. looks like i’ll have to shell out some money for a drum set. had a lot of fun and im excited to see where things go. got into my rock alter ego and had a bit of pot and beer. hope things are going well with you. miss you. have a nice week.

Distance is no longer measured by the miles that separated us, but the all consuming silence that surrounds me now that you're gone.

I have never known loneliness like it.

i am honestly done with everything thats buggin my mind up. and idts ill ever recover from this ever again. i was the one messing things up always and i will always keep that tag of messing stuff up always. i shouldnt have let anyone inside yet i always did. kept my guards down when i shouldnt have.it always end with…

Wrap me in your arms again The adrenaline makes me shiver Show me that you're genuine, that I'm safe again That you came here different No time to define, but before we get closer I ask if you love me, and you just shrug your shoulders

The work of a poor little man. Nothing but a none existing fool. Don't hide come out. Men don't fear . I don't fear you none do females gonna know EVERYTHING

Or you think you do. You think I’m just waiting in the wings you’re so important, well you were my love. You were. And with how u treat me I’m trying desperately to hang onto it. You and me. I’m getting asked out and I know you don’t care. Or maybe you just think you don’t. Or maybe you just do really want me to be…

I provided support and security from day one through day 1460. What changed was slowly coming to terms that you were only going to use what I provided to keep manipulating everyone and not to do the promised self-care and years of hard work to deal with why manipulation is automatic.

I was relieved when you found a…

I feel like everything has truly crumbled apart for me. I really tried to do my best. In everything. My best is never and will never be truly good enough. The process isn’t even fun. I feel so ******* tired crawling through life. It’s hard. The payoff is next to none. I have nothing to look forward to, and I’ve tried…

I can hardly breathe

i wonder whose bad advice almost turned into one of "those" guys... you know the ones that made it so difficult for me to say "i love you" out loud to you the very first time.

i'm just glad you took my words seriously. and surprised me with a call later this week :) (and it was adorable that you said it was not only…

Missing you.

It hurts.

Missing our talks.

Missing our inside jokes…

I understand now why I can’t have you. Why I can’t be happy. I am the embodiment of evil. I don’t want to be evil, but I guess I don’t have a choice anymore. I’m losing more and more time as it takes over. Days turn to weeks that I can’t remember. I wish I could go back and un-do the deal that was made but even that…

On days like today being with you was great. When i wasn't your emotional punching bag. When you weren't agry at the world and taking it out on me, you know. When you aren't trying to manipulate every outcome. When you aren't firing false accusations non stop and revising your theories when i refute them. It's nice…

You happen to stand with me, and against me.

And wonder why we cant know peace.

Im not the one with doubts.

I am doubted…

I'd still take you back I can say I wouldn't but I know it'd be a lie at this point. You were everything to me for so long we have the most beautiful daughter and if it meant I could see her every night again I would take all the disrespect in the world. I hate that I know that's no example I'd want her to see but I…

...but at who's expense?

You can't lie, cheat, manipulate, use and abandon someone, blame shift and project when you're expected to be held accountable for your actions and then just be like 'I cHoOsE pEaCe'.

That feeling in your heart, the ache, the churning in your stomach that hasn't subsided, the nervous, jittery…

it takes 3 for me to heal fully now 😔

How was it so easy? How was it so easy for you to move on so quick? What was i to you huh? You hurt me so many times and yet I kept coming back, and each time I explained how you burned me while you kept complaining about the smell of ashes.

Was it not love? Then why did confess? Why did you ask about my feelings…

I saw you again today, you look nice. I love that you've grown out your hair. I just wish we could talk again, I really miss you even though I shouldn't. Yesterday just about ****** me, being so close to you yet knowing I mean nothing to you anymore :/ Remember when I said I'll always love you? Yeah that wasn't an…

But that doesn't mean I don't absolutely adore you.

That doesn't mean I don't treasure every moment I do spend with you.

That doesn't mean we can't have something beautiful.

It doesn't mean that I don't love you…

I’ll never lose hope or give up on the things I once wanted and still want so badly. But for now, I’m just going to continue working on myself. Try to pull my own **** together for myself and my children. & maybe one day, that someday, will become the day when everything changes. Until then I’m still here hoping and…

I miss your texts and your calls. I miss when you’d tell me you love me and you miss me. I miss all the things that we used to do together. I miss thinking about you without having to cry. I miss when our love came from both sides. I miss hearing your voice. I miss waking up and getting excited to open your…

think I’m going to go sit on the beach for a little bit this evening.

reminisce about the last time we saw each other on my birthday.

good memories.

This person who looks so much like you isn’t you. In fact I think it’s makes me sick to think about who you were and I wonder what I did to deserve this

New house, fresh start. My room is tiny and freezing, but the lights make it feel so cozy. Just need to get this extra bed out of here. Everything in my life is shifting incredibly fast, and I’m just hoping I can leave the past behind and breathe again. Last night was a battlefield, and this morning was rough, but…

I'm alone in mcdonald's and there's this couple sitting behind me.

I can't see them but I can hear them sweet talking and giggling.

each time I see a couple I feel awkward.

we didn't technically date but you know…

You’ve ruined my perception of love. Yet this heart desires you. It was easy to look hard on the outside and tell you that this isn’t gonna work out when in reality I just wanted you to care a bit more about us. After every single argument, you never took the efforts to reach out, badmouthed by loved ones, talked…