Unsent Text Messages - Page 84

I don’t know why I didn’t see this sooner. It wasn’t about me being not good enough, or her being better. It was about the “path of least resistance.” You don’t even love her. She’s showed up and wouldn’t leave. Now you’re too afraid to ask her to move out!

You are such a coward. In stead of real happiness, a real…

i wonder whose bad advice almost turned into one of "those" guys... you know the ones that made it so difficult for me to say "i love you" out loud to you the very first time.

i'm just glad you took my words seriously. and surprised me with a call later this week :) (and it was adorable that you said it was not only…

if you cannot bother to remember that i cannot take pain medication EVERY time i tell you, why tf do you send me a thousand messagss asking about my surgery? it kinda comes off like you're just trying to annoy me while i'm suffering

cut. take 2 ... and action

I really want to text you, but I can’t anymore. I hope your day was great, and I hope tomorrow is even better. I miss hearing about your work. I still worry about you all the time.

I'm sorry, I really know I shouldn't. There's something about him that seriously throws me off. Maybe I just don't know enough. Maybe I just don't see what you see. Maybe I just don't want to share you. I know I'm jealous, I'm not afraid to admit that. But it's not just that. You've known this guy for two weeks…

I’ve decided to seal off the last 2 places you can reach me on Tuesday before I stream I’m blocking you on twitch and the other place too In the end I loved you I loved you enough to work at it to try to communicate better with you I wouldn’t have even tried for most people I hate I never got to watch you play that…

You initiate contact after all these months. And it wasn't just once so it could be claimed as accidental. You specifically reached for me multiple times, even though there's way less complicated and more convenient options to support you. Was it to see if I still care or is it because you still care? Which one is it?

I wish I never saw you on your daughter's birthday. Even as indirectly as it was. Except for when you waved at me, but I couldn't even look at you. I felt I was on a good healing track before this evening and now, the deepest parts of me ache for your laugh, your hugs, to be in your space. I all love you and all of…

Drove past the places we once met each other and were once happy together. I felt tears in my eyes and sadness in my chest. I miss you S.

I'm in shock and deregulated. I don't like time outs. I don't like being mistreated after all I have done this past year. I did it because I love you and I wanted to give you the chance of a better life. We knew the odds and took the plunge.

What happened to the counseling you were going to set up for us about 3 months…

You mishandled me when I truly felt so certain you wouldn’t… it broke me in a different way than I’ve felt before because I’ve not trusted another completely. For weeks now all I want to do is lay in my bed when I’m not forced to be doing other things out of obligation and responsibility.

The saddest part of that I…

I think I prefer the silence now , because nothing is ever enough for anyone and then I’m still left hurting

I have come back, here, to write to you from the void. I wish I could know how you have been.

I don't think you're a terrible person. I don't think I ever could.

I'm sorry everything feels like a cold and dark nightmare.

I wanted to send you this song I was listening to. I think you'd like it.

Don't worry, it wasn't Vivaldi this time lol

____, I wanted you and I needed you this time. I was hurting for you so bad. For almost three weeks! And you weren't there. Sometimes I would be driving and think about you and just start crying, but everything you said and how you were acting that last night made me feel like there was no hope. Yet I hoped..I hoped…

and an option

and a sidechick

he treats u like a doormat because u let him

it's not rocket science…

358 to 356 Who is the other one?

to do list:

\-get money \-disappear with the loml \-find the loml

I think of texting you, but there’s nothing to say. I play instrumental music that comes to me for my absence of words. Times tears roll down my cheek while I’m playing. I think of sending to you. But there’s nothing today, you choose a life without me, and that’s okay. I do miss you though, no one will compare. I…

I honestly never thought I would hear that you have moved on and youre seeing someone already. I know 11 months is enough time to find someone new but I don’t believe that. I love you with all my heart and still do. I don’t take saying “I love you” lightly, it is very serious for me. You were the only one I have said…

Reflecting on our last encounter

It was peaceful and better than many other words & gestures we've exchanged although i want more

And don't know how to ask for it without risking being the fool and giving people more to gossip on me...

Gosh I still feel like **** though even knowing I act out of fear and past…

This feeling in my stomach won’t go away I don’t even know why I’m trying anymore All I think about is you and I know you aren’t thinking about me.. it’s ******* me. I don’t know if I have any fight left in me I’m so tired and cold There’s a lump in my throat I bite my lip constantly to keep the tears from streaming…

Dear Trevor Ive been thinking about how I would react if/when you came back into my life again. Would I be happy? Would I be sad? Confused? Excited? Would I act like nothing happened! like you didnt throw me away again, like you didnt once again show me what Im worth to you? If Im being honest I dont know how I feel…

There's no way for me to deny to repress any longer...I need you to know. It's time for me to cut the ****, let go of my pride, and tell you how I feel.

I'm getting to the point of the cost of being silent is heavier than the cost of taking a chance.

i think i may be royally f*ckd from dating for the rest of my life. that’s not really your fault, but the part you played definitely didn’t help. the whole relationship was bonkers from the get-go, you knew that as well as i did. i do think it’s safe to say that after all this time, did it not just change the way i…

It's been four hours now since I've wandered through your place And when I sleep on your couch I feel very safe And when you bring the blankets I cover up my face I do love you I do love you And when you play guitar I listen to the strings buzz The metal vibrates underneath your fingers And when you crochet I feel…

I’ll say it again, **** you.

Well this went exactly like dream every little detail. Down to me having to walk back to the bird pooping my clothes

And that's why I had to finally choose myself first. I wish you had been honest with your intentions in the first place. What did you even want with me? It wasn't a friendship, obviously. Yet it wasn't romantic either? Was it FWB? I would've been down for that. I would've reciprocated anything, I guess that was the…

Ive been thinking about you again, not sure if thats a good or bad thing.

You're always on my mind, but sometimes its more than usual. Right now is one of those times. I find myself daydreaming about what-ifs and how I couldve done things differently in our relationship. Im wondering if im important to you still or if…

I don't believe in God but you do. So whenever you're troubled I pray. Just hoping that whoever you believe in, believes in you too.

Wish I could go to the aquarium with you one more time

Came across your profile . I remembered a scene from HP .Just blushing at the thought of .... .... ....... .

Let that sink in .

😊✨😹

the silence but yet there's a voice who don't go away as much as they beg for you to love them u don't. ut loving urself no problem there who wants to live as a ***** not say or so what they want I can never and if the person can't say what they really want they really couldnt want you cause in there life u don't…

and apologized. I would forgive you. maybe.

With my birthday coming, I wonder if you will think of me. It‘s a big one and hard to imagine it without you. I will enjoy it, and those around me will make it special. I just hope I hear from you.

K

Pata hai aaj kya hua

He called me yesterday and then blocked me. Later he unblocked me and called again. He said he wanted to hear my voice, said a few things, blamed me for some stuff, and then just hung up.

I felt guilty, so I called him in the afternoon. The conversation started off really rude, but eventually became…

the days just keep going and I'm still stuck in that moment

Still.

Not music from before. Not music from the first time. Not music from after. Not music from again. Not music from during. Not music for now, the new after. Not music we heard together. Not music I heard alone. Not music I see you’ve added to a playlist (I still check sadly enough).

Not rap. Not chill. Not…