Unsent Text Messages - Page 71

One year, and I’ve missed you for half of it.

I got approved for a house today, and I couldn’t even call you to tell you about it. Instead, I sat in my office and cried for a few minutes, then carried on about my day like normal.

This hasn’t gotten easier, but I’m learning to live without you. Even if it feels like it’s…

hey you. life’s going okay since we cut contacts july 30th. almost been 3 whole months without talking to you. it still feels weird, i still look for you everywhere. i still love you. i haven’t moved on, i don’t think i ever will. i’ve been able to look at pictures and memories without breaking down, ive “locked in”…

I guess no answer, is some kind of an answer

The last time we spoke, you made this very clear. That's ok. I accept that you see me as a "bad" individual. I accept that my influence on your life wasn't good. I am sorry for the effects, both long and short term, that our relationship may have had/still has on you. I know you're too tough to linger there for long.

I…

You clearly don't want me anymore, perhaps never did. You haven't answered my texts in two years or talked to me since.

You have a boyfriend now. You've moved on. I don't want to think about this anymore. All it does is make me sad and regretful that this is all it was lead to. These past few years have been very…

It's eating at me, I lied to you, twice. When you asked what I was doing and I said I was helping a friend clean their house? I was at home playing Phasmaphobia (I cleansed the house to stop a hunt, creative embellishments). It was also not true when I said I was babysitting. Technically, half true, I was keeping an…

Explain why, the purpose, the logic behind it all? How are your actions justified?

deleted all my social media.

I already feel 10x better.

I keep asking what I could do to communicate with me or where I can drive to to see you what I can do to make this work. But I see there’s nothing I could do. It’s the problem I hope you and your little family and your life is great wherever you are I’m sorry. Really sorry I won’t ask you to talk to me or communicate…

The month of September flew by in a sea of smoke and pills. The crushed up remainders of prescriptions you forgot to fill. I don't remember how I loved you, I can't recall the things I've said. But darling you showed me I wasn't really dead. And I learned to be alive when I've reached my deepest low. Standing ankle…

i may have secretly already sent you this through radiowaves, but i got my first psychiatry residency interview and i'm so shocked it's this early and i'm so happy and i just want to hug you so badly. i can't wait to hug you next week. our pre-separation ritual and a congratulatory hug. sorry if i lose my **** and cry…

You make me think I am hard to love.

Just add me back. I’ll send whatever pics you want. I’ll say whatever you want to say. I’ll be so good or I’ll be so ******* bad I don’t care.

Add me and say whatever you want and I’ll do it. I’ll do whatever you wanna.

You had nothing to lose by telling me the truth. You’d seen my flaws, my fears and insecurities, my joys and hopes, I let you in, and either you couldn’t or wouldn’t do the same. You still chose to lie, thinking it would somehow be easier than telling the truth, when the truth would have hurt less, when the truth…

I’ll give all my love to you, and when I’m a ghost I will always be your boo

I'm sorry, this apology should have been given to you long ago but you stopped responding to me. I wish I never did that, we met when I was in a bad place and you made me feel important like I could actually be something and I was horrible. You were just amazing and I was young and dumb I made you feel horrible I was…

One time, can i hear your voice again?

After you text me, you usually stay on my mind for at least 24 hours. It’s been a while since we’ve seen each other, and knowing I’ll actually see you next month has me wondering… how long will you linger in my mind this time?

I want to start by saying I genuinely don’t hate you in anyway, nor will you ever hear me say anything bad about you. When you left I was (still slightly am) mad because you left those residents with one less nurse that would advocate for them the way they needed. We didn’t work in the same area, you could’ve stayed…

You are still the one person my mind always returns to. If you wanted me, I would be yours. We could work toward building our lives so that they could fit together in a couple of years.

I’m tired of fighting against it. Just say the word. I would be yours.

I’m constantly caught in this loop of missing you and other…

It's been four months since the worst relationship of my life. I didn't want another, and you just spawned into my life and you are everything: you are love.

I'm trying my best to not self-sabotage... My anxious episodes never felt this calm and normal. It's almost like an excited-attachment instead of anxious or…

And I shouldn’t. I’m waiting on you to clear the air. I’m relieved if I walk away but believe me, if I can love you my whole heart and soul will smile.

I'm not a guy. I'm a woman. The name is pronounced Just-een, not Justin. I'm a female. The fact is, had I been a boy, my name would have been Justin. But I'm definitely a female. I'm just sick of being misconstrued as a guy because people can't pronounce my damn name. Just a PSA.

it suppresses traumatic memories and over time, makes it so the pain goes away too

😔

Hope you had a great trip. I am climbing tonight if you want to come.

I would never wish to be like her... Thank God I’m not..🙂..

Imagine having beauty, brains, wealth,all  the privileges..Everything..and still..all these things couldn't make that person a decent human being..sad..

Imagine having intellect and still making bad,dumb decisions n doing wrong things...sad n bad..

I just wish…

since we broke up. why are we still here? i have accepted that we cannot be together right now, although i did hope that you’d come back by now, telling me that we made a mistake by ending things and that you never want to lose me ever again.

oh well.

i’m okay though, i promise. i feel like myself again! been going on…

I truly did enjoy my season of you, and as much as i wish for more, we are already on borrowed time, i should have left a lot earlier but I wanted more time with you. Stretched a moment into several more months just to spend it ************ with you. Truly wish I knew what I know now when I first encountered you…

I appreciate that you are trying to clear matters up. I understand that the Krabby Patty Business is well respected and above board in all matters. The management team is zealous in their performance. The secret formula is in little danger. I would exhort security to continue to find and delete any paperwork that…

To be together even if it is in a completely different parallel universe... I wish we end up together in atleast one of those universes.

I was banned. It’s never been like this it’s bad. Im scared. I need you please I know my mouth must stay shut. I see you. Remember I’m a wingnut if my account is not active. I’m with you. Please I just need from you where to stand. Your mouth look at my face. It will save my life. No response is will not end welll for…

I'm sorry, but I don't have reciprocal romantic feelings for you. Just genuine friendship. But it's gotten strange.

If you actually had genuine feelings for me well you have a really weird way of showing it. I'm trying to change and changing I am. I need some peace in the day without you lambasting my DMs with…

I was able to forgive you before. Primarily for my own peace of mind. As I continue to be held in this suffocating position, mentally altered, scared, solely because of your three decades of abusive trauma, I realize I have wounds that will never heal fully. Without doubt you believe this path you’ve chose, without my…

so tired of being so tired Why I gotta build something beautiful just to go set it on fire? I'm no liar, but sometimes the truth don't sound like the truth Maybe 'cause it ain't, I just love the way it sound when I say it

Don't forget to be kind, you never know what people are going through. 💙

The ages I'm noticing on here range all over.

Remind yourself not every post is about you, your person or people in your life, or think you know what any of them actually mean. 📢

Some may be directed at someone, some poetic, some raw emotions…

glomps u

ur awesome sauce \^~\^

cmere let me luv u

I was reading someone’s post and the closing to it was “if it was meant to be, then it would’ve been”.

I can’t read the future, but the truth in that statement is haunting.

If we were meant to be, or you were meant to remain here with me; it would’ve been - You would’ve been.

You’ll never respond, and I know it. It’s…

That’s no reason to put you down though, I didn’t get a total Ick, but I felt my feelings got hurt, but I can deal with that. It’s my own fault. You’re just living your life, I’m the only reason I have these feelings of admiration for you Darin. You deserve the best, because you’re a good man, with a lot on your…

You broke not only my heart but also my spirit. I loved you more than words, and you left. Looking back, i had to beg you to care about me the whole time. I begged you to say you care, i begged you to tell your parents about me, i begged you to tell me you loved me…. I would’ve begged for the rest of my life. You…

i'm so sick today the antibiotic i'm on was suppose to cover this infection but instead the bacteria just got stronger i'm avoiding going to the hospital i hate the hospital. i'm sick of being hospitalized. i'm sick of being sick. the more this happens, the more afraid i am that one day i'll get sepsis and there won't…