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I want to get close to you so bad I keep trying and trying I keep fumbling and messing up why UGG how much I miss your voice is driving me insane come back please

To: C

I read something today and it hit me pretty hard

Controlling yourself from reaching out to someone you deeply want to talk to is a different type of pain. It takes so much strength to stay distant when every part of you is screaming to break the silence. But what hurts even more is realising that they are doing just…

It's been so long and I just wish I could apologize. I've done the inner work - you were right, we both had to, it wasn't our time then. Here I am now, a new me. And with everything I've learned about the things that go on in our brains, and the things that afflict you which may have caused and steered the things you…

You literally told me that I can always reach out to you, yet I still second guess everything. Do you really want* me to just reach out? Or are you just being polite? The signs are almost undeniable but I still second guess every action. Maybe you’re just naturally protective & caring for everyone around you, maybe…

you did not forget me but you did forget what we had its like youre pretending as if nothing happened and it hurts because that was the first time ive ever loved someone whereas i was just another girl to you im still waiting for you to apologize but..

I’ve been writing letters to you at least once a week for a month.. the letters totaling to over 25 small sized journal pages.

I broke up with you and that’s the biggest regret I’ll have to live with. Our one year is coming up of our date and I so badly want to message you again. I want to give you all my letters and…

I’m just.. well… here

Is this good or bad?

Always yours, 💋

how is someone supposed to cope with just having to see someone who mutilated them? with knowing they never faced consequences? that they're just walking around free, probably doing it to others?

how am i supposed to live in a world where i have to see leathertongue at my doctor's office?

Being with you was the most painful experience I’ve ever had

I’m done being your cash cow. Your Rent is a “YOU” problem not a “MY” problem. Been helping you financially over these years and you think you are entitled to it. Sorry Bud, that was a privilege I gave you not your entitlement.

Per your words. You want me to date other people. You don’t want to do certain things with me because it’s “special.” You do not have any romantic feelings for me.

I’m cutting out the grey area for now. If you ever remove your head from your ***, and realize how ******* amazing I am (after some actual groveling) I…

This round. Because look where I am? I’m here. Communicating with you. So you win. But honestly, this is my vow. As of right now, at this point in my present moment, I promise you that I will not be back. Enjoy ******* around and I hope your mind eats your body and soul alive. You’ll never know the truth, you could…

I think about all the heartwarming moments we shared the ups and downs, feeling your warmth when we cuddled, hearing your voice, smelling your scent, and seeing how strong minded you were about your future. Despite trying not to, I still think about you every day.

You left me spiralling emotionally, and I still…

for what I did. i did what needed to be done to save myself. no one was looking out for me, so I had too. I’m sure you understand that, it’s something you do for yourself. you were slowing ******* me with lies and betrayal and calling it love. why? why go through all that work when I wasn’t even who you wanted? just…

Well. Here we are. Guess I’ll just let this go. Again. I’ve dreamt about you so many times this week. I want to tell you, but you’re the king of aloof. I can’t repeat this pattern, man. I don’t have the heart to tell you that when I go to Chicago I have interviews set up because it literally pains me to see you at…

Our connection was so beautiful and I miss you every day of my life. I miss your love and everything about our chemistry. I had to stop crying about it and accept my decision to leave you, leave town, and forgo a future we could have had together. I let go on spiritual principle but my body, my memories, and my…

I pretended that I couldn’t see You slipping away and looking at me differently

See it’s not that I’m mentally inept as you probably think. I just hoped in the end you’d pick me. As pathetic as that is, it’s different with a kid and though I’d seen that the fairytale may no longer be, he still had stars in his eyes…

Hey mom, thank you for being strong for me. I know you need me to be strong as well especially in these trying times. We struggle with this economy and we have relatives who got sick. I know you're just being strong for me and it ***** me on the inside that Im not as strong for you.

I feel sad but at the same time glad…

It's nice to see you having fun. Happy. Even if, as you said, you only had 2 hours of sleep. You're probably running on adrenaline now. I hope the Crash doesn't hit you hard. You probably have a long day ahead.

Just, eat small frequency things. And drink lots of water.

Have a nice day.

I love you . I still want you to someday day text me ask me how I am doing , care about me .. I really want . I know that will never happen . I am okay with that honestly.. it's just the reality

**** uuu

I hate you

U are the worst…

I hope you channel that hatred you have of me into something good. Like getting laid and moving on. I know I am!

Hats off

I miss standing beside you just before a melodic bass drop, knowing we were both waiting for the same moment.

I miss planning festivals, getting ready together, travelling somewhere new, and feeling like every experience was ours.

I know I can still go to shows and create new memories. But right now, I don’t just miss…

If you hate me and never want to give me closure for crossing a boundary and hurting you, I get it. I just want to apologize for how I handled our relationship.

I regret not facing my avoidance head-on to flesh my ambiguous feelings towards you with my therapist, because I didn’t feel “the spark”.

I regret taking my…

When I found out you had her cut your hair before our date I can’t lie I was repulsed. I’m glad I found out the truth, you’re still a two timer who lies to get what you want from people. But I still miss you. And our friendship. But you crossed the line and made me think this was gonna be something real. I had to let…

Ya Kept poking the bear!

u don’t like the bears fierce reaction.

Despite many warnings u could have left the bear alone.

But no & now ur scared…

Last night a memory popped into my brain. Usually I’d want to SH or cry. Last night, I smiled. I let the memory live and I smiled. I caught myself happy remembering the good times. Is this healing? I know you aren’t thinking of me. I wonder how long it took you to forget about me. But wow… I was able to smile.

All I need is you to hold me, tell me its going to be okay. Why are we so far?

I know I made a mistake pushing you away.

I'm so close to calling you. Would you hate me if I did that

I know you all know the real me and you’ve probably started noticing what a manipulative lying pos I am turning into. One who’s selfish, cold and in a constant state of melancholy.

I am scared ******** , but this is something I did to myself. I don’t want to cause anymore hurt. All of you mean the world to me, and I…

When you know you know. You feel right at home. I will always love you and it's safe with me. I was the first to hold you without hurting you. You are forever engrained in my heart and bones. You are my safe place. I’ve never been able to exhale until you. You held me as I cried tears of joy from being so safe…

Because of one guy, my family doesn’t trust me anymore. I feel like I’ve lost myself trying to hold on to someone who couldn’t even choose me.

My dad is genuinely the sweetest man, but now he wants me to stay home and prepare for exams. I’m not even allowed to get a job and try to build a life for myself.

My own family…

I think you have forgotten that you tried to **** me…and beat me with your fists and lied to me and cheated on me and never appreciated anything I did for you. You mocked me, insulted me, used me and manipulated/gaslit me to a point where I could no longer determine the difference between your lies and what was real…

hi. i hope it’s not too weird for me to message you after all this time. i want to apologize for how i treated you in the past. my behavior was emotionally abusive. back then i saw myself as a victim but that wasn’t the reality. your actions towards me were simply a reaction to the mistreatment i subjected you to. i…

That usually means you're either on vacation, or something bad has happened. This isn't the time of year you go on vacation, and I'm worried. I have an idea of what might have happened, and I want to support you but I can't. I think it might make it worse for both of us. I love you, and I miss you.

Leaving this here in case you ever wonder if I still love you

Here i am attending a wedding tomorrow without you and yeah I know the wedding im attending wasn't your favorite person but damm E. we could've figured it out and been happy together. Im not a fool to think you wouldn't have made it awkward and a mild pain but it would be worth it with you.

N.

I’m telling you right now. Either get over how you feel or tell me so I can walk away and be happy. Pretty simple .

good morning handsome! i miss your face. Are you up for a long, warm, and big bear hug later today? I really miss your hugs. When can we do that? You know that hug where we perfectly wrap up with each other and feel our bodies melt into each other? You remember don’t you? Yea, that one. I’m here patiently waiting 🤗

i don’t want to lose you permanently. but it’s always been me coming back to you. i need it to be you this time. i need to know you need me too.

I miss when we were friends. That's the hard part